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| I am 37 divorced and new to the lifestyle, I am a strong willed and independent person that just wants to find the right person with whom I can give up my control to without worry or fear that I am in danger. I live in a world right now where I am forced to be strong just to keep myself safe. I hide who I am from the people around me because I know they won't understand. I just want to be myself.
I am intelligent, I observe everything around me, I have an inner drive in me to please. I have a desire and longing to serve, that has as of yet never been able to be fulfilled. Everything inside of me screams to be degraded then to be held. I long for rules that have consequences when not followed. I need to find someone whom I trust and who trusts me enough to push my limits to find my boundaries, and the only way that can happen is if I let my guard down, and that can only happen if I am allowed to be myself.
As far as my kinks... The list is long but I will touch on the more important ones here in no specific order.
* Cross dressing: not only does the softness of the clothes excite me but the emotional sensations I feel are almost overwhelming.
* Mental Domination: being controlled without toys is a strong desire
* Sensory Deprivation: I live day to day relying on my senses, the mere thought of them being taken from me sends fear, that fear itself is intoxicating.
These are just a small sample to give an idea of what types of sensations and feelings I am looking for. But it is not a complete list!
I haven't read a few profiles in order to get an idea of what to say in mine. I noticed a lot of people list limits and hard limits, although I understand these uses I do not know what mine are. I mean I do know what appeals to me and what doesn't. I am truly the type of person that is willing to try new things to actually see if I enjoy them or not.
Under my profile it says curious and want to try, I know I want to serve and to please I just haven't been able too yet so I don't nor have I lived the lifestyle but I yearn too. I have no actual experience being a submissive, but it is the way I feel in my soul.
With all of that being said I now come to what I am looking for.
I am in search of a 24/7 live in situation with either a Master, Mistress, or couple. Poly households are OK as long as I am 24/7 live in. The person whom I am looking for must be:
* Honest
* Stimulating outside the play as well as inside
* Real!
I will ignore people that assume just because they are Dominant they can boss me around.
* Respectful
I am submissive but still human.
You need not have to live near by, although if you do it would open the possibility yo meeting in person in a neutral place. After getting to know someone I could be open to relocating.
If you are looking for a quick thrill then move on please. If you want pictures as soon as you say hello move on please.
Outside the lifestyle I enjoy movies that make me think and strike my emotional core I am an avid reader of Science Fiction/Fantasy novels like those written by Robert A Heinlein and Issac Asimov to name just two. I enjoy stimulating conversation and good company. I am a smoker, I don't drink often but I have no problems with it.
If there is anything else you would like to know please ask.
Thank you to everyone that has taken the time to read this, and I wish you a good day/night.
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| Age: 36 |
| MANILA,
Philippines |
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