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*chuckles* So I am a horrible journal keeper.
Let me see friends...
Since my last entry we have had a fabulous beginning to fall/winter with amazing success.
Our family Saimhain ritual had 10+ visitors with my girl and I performing the ritual.
School is going so well for folks and I am so proud of my girl for her efforts and amazing grades!
Then there was the anime convention this month, such great costumes.
I've had the pleasure to meet some fantastic subs and even spend a few hours in a mall walk with one I was very impressed with.
As the holidays roll into full swing I hope that everyone has a blessed season!
*hugs* and well wishes
BB
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Today my sweet Decedance and I signed a 9 month contract.
It has been a good day indeed. |
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It has been a amazing 4 months.
This last weekened was A-Kon21 and it was very enjoyable. The costumes, anime, art, and our game occured like clock work.
What made it uniquely special to me was that this A-Kon 21 I had the pleasure of my sub attending with me. It was a joy to walk around the convention with my hand on the back of her neck, leading her. We made a few purchases together of some leather goods and though we missed a dance it was still a wonderful time.
This is the 4th month mark for us as Dom and sub. Decadence78 has been a pure gift in my opinion as a submissive. She is attentive and focused in play, service oriented and creative. She has handled some of my heaviest play and provided a great deal of pleasure.
A blessing.
As always I wish you all the best and am always open to chat.
I still seek a submissive boy to complete my set.
BB |
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Since last we chatted.....
The great room flip went wonderfully, much better than ever hoped. The whole family pitched in and we even had the assistance of a woman who has become my submissive in training.
Let me just state that she has been a wonderful sub and so far the melding of her presence with the family has gone well.
*chuckles* she has even joined us in our friday night game sessions.
January and febuary of the new year have started out chellenging but so far no one has been to the hospital and everything goes well in school.
My sub and I had three consideration play sessions over the month of november-december. Then she signed for training in january. She has been a marvelous girl.
To all of you out there still seeking my best wishes, and hopes to you.
BB |
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This has been a week of interesting challenges.
They have ranged from dealing with other peoples EX's to unfortunatly Doctors. This monday night will be a house cleansing, don't think I have enough smudge to get rid of one persons negative energy.
Then the great room flip begins!
Office to living room, and living room to office...followed by moving one person up to the bedroom.
If you know me, then you'll know how much I despise moving couches and beds.....
afterwards...possibly a open house ..lol
Now regardless out to all of you facing your own challenges this holiday season I wish you all the best..
Blessed be |
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I have the attentions of a wonderful sub currently being considered.
So far she has been a marvel to be with; an energetic and brilliant soul with a responsive heart.
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Cooler days....check
Rain..and more rain....check
closet full of candy...check
Altar prep....check
friends and family for ritual....check
sub........? <---seeking
I hope everyone has a wonderful october.... |
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Whew! what fun was A-kon 20! The cosplay was great, there was the drumming saturday and so much to do. My own efforts at the con resulted in full gaming tables and it was a most enjoyable way to spend a weekened. lol and I have invites to attend and work at Animefest & Ikkicon.
;) I could sure use a sub to brighten the mood at those events..LOL!
To all those still seeking and those facing challenges my best wishes
Blessed be |
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well it is april and so far a most pleasent month.
I am still seeking that someone to make the journey with.
So far my preperations for A-Kon 20 are going well and I am considering animefest.
I am hoping to get a new leather sew kit this month so I can get more finished in the way of projects.
Best wishes
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A late night vigil. Those who are close to me know why, some people wonder.
I'll be up early and drive in regardless of any ice. I keep my responsibilities.
So I think I'll be altering my profile abit more to try and let folks know that I accept male subs as well. Honestly missing a Boy Friend right now. lol
Its the Ice, and late night. |
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I am human, and error, have weakness just like the rest.
But I do not give up.
to all who are challenged today, or needing the support
*hugs*
:)
BB |
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And now I shall hereby be known as ..The Jedi Dom!
lol yes I was given a nice fx lightsaber for yule ;)
Things are unpacked and we are settling in nicely.
Now to find a New Years resolution
Blessed be |
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Thank goodness thats over.
Now to the part of unpacking and finding the right place for everything. So far the most rooms with work are the kitchen and living room. The garage is still 1/2 full with boxes so I cannot yet begin my conversion.
BB |
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Physically I have reachedmy limit, and not for 2years have I been so close to having family take me tothe hospital.
This move is beating me I fear.
It has cancled everything I hold dear thses past three months.....From Sinfest to the DFW Mentors program, the sub I have been persuing more than just a BDSM relationship with.
Yes, this move. This retreat from my home of so many years. Call it what it is, a defeat.
Now I can feel myself getting sicker. I don't stand long right now because I fear they will see me stumble or worse fall. The heat.....
The movers I partially prepaid for showed a hour late and then left without a word. Been on the phone trying to find out why and now left in a bind seeking others.
But then giving up isn't a option. I have to move myself and my family.
Remember friends, we can overcome.
BB |
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Every person has thier limits, and even Doms are just human when you get to the core. I guess thats why I am hurting so bad right now. You see its been over a year now since I made a choice for my own health and well being. It included divorce and today my heart is tearing at me this eve. I think because my Birthday is so close, and they where special times. Life stress.
But today I can't talk about the hurt to those closest to me, they didn't Love like I loved. I cut out a peice of myself and today the old wound is soo painful.
Days like this I would wish to switch and have someone treasure me.
Anyone to treasure me.
My apologizes for such a post, truth be told though...truth be told. I wish all Blessed be. |
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Life for me has been a juggle recently. I am proud to have friends and a BDSM community that is understanding of how Responsibilities can change plans.
Not to mention my hopes.
However, everything moves forward, and though I may wish to move faster with relationships and personal dreams they have to move at pace with the rest of life.
To everyone facing thier own challenges both in the Lifestyle and Vannila...best wishes.
BB |
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This last weekened I received my Dungeon Monitors certification. Next month after I have enough of a first aid kit, and some additional first aid training from the hospital, I'll be out at Sanct. to monitor.
Unfortunatly I cannot give the usual update, but I will try to remain positive about life in general.
I am tired.
Its that kind of tired that comes from being a Father and just not knowing what to do. I don't understand whats different than last month other than signed paper work of a divorce, that some how solidifies how alone I have been. But I have faith in myself! With rest perhaps tommorow will not seem soo impassable. lol
In other news........The dungeon/study has been started..the room cleaned out, massage table and matress in...now for the straps and proper (safe) hooks in the walls. :)
Green Dragon candles will be out this weekened at Traders village DFW area, come by if your out already..Best wishes to all. BB |
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So when life hands to lemons.....
squeeze the juice onto your sub's abrasions.
(hope I spelled it right)
well its been a weekened. Starting with a car breaking down and then a good friend in hospital for blood sugar issues. Right now the bulk of the house is up there with her. Myself, care for the house and other rl concerns.
I still seek that special someone, and yes my SO is helping ;)
A different style of poly but we make of the world what we wish
BB |
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The challenges continue, and multiply.
Everynow and then I find statements through collar me of ; "Your not real enough xxx......." .
What qualifies as "real enough" and who sets it? In many cases it is used in a truely harmful fashion to cause injury or lash out.
I found a letter/essay that I wish to quote from by Guy Baldwin in 'The ties that bind'.
"Last time checked, there was no single right way to do anything. There seems to be alot of ways to be a real slave, rockstar, stock broker or anything else. Relationships are no different. The definate rule book has not and cannot be writen. The range of human variability is to wide.
Only you are qualified to assess the correctness or a relationship you are in."
I take this....
In reference to BDSM relationships & however you persue a positive relationship.
Now then I have to get back to the rest of the real life ;).
Stay positive, even when bound ;)
BB
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Harder monday today than I hoped. The next mentors class is not for some time and already I wish.....well I always wish for more understanding/knowledge/.....faith?
I wonder just how far 'Faith' can carry you in the BDSM lifestyle & community? Is it enough for what I am personally seeking and working for?
Is it enough....or is it just my version of operation final war...the beleif that even if things cannot be won on Faith alone that the heart and beleif with focus and determination CAN be what one stands on. sig, lol
Regardless I don't give up.
and I hope you never do either.
BB |
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Truely enjoying the Dallas Program so far.
It continues to be a journey and my 'seeking' may not have turned up a 'pile' of possibilities I have had the oppertunity to chat with some most marvelous people.
So, my sweet sub, where ever you are. Know that I have a special place for you in my heart and when you join this journey.....even when it ends, its just a new beginning.
Blessed be ;)
Kenneth |
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How can one assume anything on the internet?
For myself I enjoy the oppertunity to chat and visit. To take time to learn abit about a person before any type of decision is made. I don't assume from what is said on the internet. Use it as a tool to make that first contact, visit, and exchange ideas. Then on to a meet up in a public location.
Assumption still doesn't come into play.
Getting to know the person does.
So when someone "Assumes" that I am a 'wannabe' for what ever reason I tend to try and take it with a grain of salt.
Please, all who seek. Don't let the few detractors get you down with thier 'assumptions'. Keep to your beleifs and goals.
Blessed be |
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Well after a little wait I am happy to report that I have been accepted into the 'Dallas Mentors program'. That is as a apprentice I mean. I have heard alot of positive feedback from the program and am proud to be part of it.
Best wishes all BB |
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lol...well here is a new one....
If your a sub and into role play gaming, our group in arlington has a open seat.
now thats the strangest 'sub pick up' line I have ever heard/used...
leashes and collars to all.
BB |
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I can't say enough about how I have enjoyed meeting people these last few months of activity. Now I still search for a sub to make the journey with me, and exploring my own possible alteration to 'switch'...One never knows. Best wishes |
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A wonderful discussion group this last weekened. I hope to attend a munch event this weekened, still a 50%-50%.
To all who are seeking, or those thinking of only failed attempts my strongest best wishes.
Blessed be |
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My goodness the week is going by so quickly. Lots of work on our store and even more 'Family duty' for myself.
Lifestyle wise, it continues to be a long road. But the most worthy are always the longest.
BB |
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Its amazing how little being nice will get you.
lol, nights like these make me wonder but I keep reminding myself that one lost battle does not mean the loss of a life style. Not even three or four losses.
So I will keep meeting new people.
Keep sending emails.
Keep introducing and seeking. |
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