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| Seeking total ownership as a slave. You can take me and keep me and do anything You desire with me. My desire is total slavery and being a male body that a lovely Woman would enjoy owning and doing as She desires with. I am available to relocate to Her to live as Her slave to keep me however She desires as Her property.
I have worked professionally all of my life and raised three sons within a typical family. I was married for 23 years to a Woman where we lived within the lifestyle and although we lived our M/s relationship discreetly, it was an essential dynamic of who we were together - a dynamic I sorely miss in my life. I was a career Army officer and provided well for my family; I was a coach for my sons in various sports as they were growing and involved in their lives as a good father; and my ex-wife and I maintained the roles we both needed throughout our marriage. As I returned from a deployment to Iraq and we decided to exit the Army, and as our youngest son graduated from high school and left to go on his own, my ex-wife decided she did not want to be married any longer and sought divorce. So, three years ago I was suddenly single and alone with my sons gone and my military career over. That was a lot to lose all at one time.
I have spent the past three years trying to find what I want with the remainder of my life. I have dated and explored a great deal and found that I need a life style relationship more than anything. Vanilla Women are simply not what I desire. Since I am at a lifestage where I can truly do ANYTHING I desire, I want a more intense relationship that lives the lifestyle to the fullest. Whereas previously I had to maintain discretions for my career and family, I have no need for such discretions any longer. I can be whatever I desire, and moreover, found that vanilla and even soft role playing is insufficent for me. I WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING TO LIVE TOTALLY AND COMPLETELY AS A SLAVE OWNED AND TOTALLY ENSLAVED AS REALISTICALLY AS A SLAVE OF ANCIENT ROME.
Earlier this year I began searching for these possibilities. I found a Woman in Reno, NV and flew to meet Her, which quickly revealed she was not right. I have driven to Fort Lauderdale and other places to meet Women I thought had such possibility. I was working and maintained a nice apartment here in Tampa until the first of May of this year. I found a Woman in Tennessee who wanted such a slave as I and we had discussed how to pragmatically make that happen. She loved Her job and needed a man to help Her take care of Her children and home there. She wanted what She termed a Reverse 1950s Household where She would work and provide for Her home and I would be Her slave taking care of her home and family. I have some income by being a full time student that pays for my essential bills so I do not come without at least being able to pay my own way. And if desired, I could work outside the home as well. So, I went to live with Her for a trial few weeks that ended up as a month so we could meet and see how things would work. I closed out my apartment here and got all of my possessions in my car and drove to Her. In summary, it was almost perfectly what I want. She ended up leaving the job She had wanted as some difficulties developed with it and in that issue, I returned to Tampa. We maintain communication and there was no adversity between us. What was intended as a trial was successful for both of us, but She feels until She gets more stable there, She cannot sustain me as we had discussed. She would provide a good reference for me and She knows what I need, so You may speak with Her as You desire.
I am back in Tampa now, which is my home and where my brother and sister live, and I am staying with my sister right now. I am seeking a job here and would take one to resume sustaining a home here on my own if that were necessary, but I desire the flexibility to leave to go wherever I find the Woman who would own me. I have been reluctant to commit to a life here on my own as I desire to remain free as I am to simply get on a plane and fly, or in my car and drive to be enslaved anywhere. For me, my desire and need to be enslaved is a priority for me. I am not a free loader and am quite capable. It is just that being a complete slave is what I want now in my life. The experience in Tennessee showed me enough that if I could find the right Woman Who desired such complete ownership and wanted me in such a way, I would be totally happy with that existance.
I am not a masochist for my own need, but to hang by my ankles while my Owner whips me with Her excitement is thrilling. To sleep shackled on the floor by Her bed at night like Her pet while She sleeps soundly and comfortablly on the bed above is an amazing feeling for me. To tend to Her household demands and have things prepared for Her when She returns home is a fearful joy of whether She will be pleased or if I will be beaten and punished. I desire this life, and it does not matter whether it is here in Tampa, or anywhere in the world. It does not matter what the conditions are for me as even a cage or closet would suffice. It is living my life for Her pleasure and desire that would make me the most fulfilled and complete male alive. The thought of Her going off to do the things She does leaving me my responsibilities and returning to assess whether I was a good slave or not means my purpose. Whether everything was perfect or not, if She just needed my flesh for Her entertainment or vented frustrations, that She might find joy in my use.
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