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I am 32, my partner is 31. we are looking for a dominant female, as we are both generally submissive. this is harder to find than you think, and we are not looking for a flighty romance...we want someone who will be there for us as much as we them, although we would generally be serving them 24/7 and helping them with anything they needed, unless it hurt us. I have been in this game long enough to know what I don't want...I don't want someone that is going to say they will be there then ignore me for months until I have a nervous breakdown, because that means I am not getting my needs met either, and while I love catering to you, I have needs too. I can fix computers, I can fix video game systems, and I am looking for something long term.
we are here in Michigan for the duration, and I want to move home to Oregon. If something keeps me here wonderful, but so far I've been walked on and hurt pretty bad so I don't think that's going to happen.I am a trans, I am all female, and hoping to get switched to male at some point, not below the waist but you know. I have a dominant streak but I am very naturally submissive...you have to work WITH me on getting the dominant streak knocked down with enough love and trust I will submit, but that's it too...I have just been very hurt by a few people and now I don't trust, but I am looking to learn again.
I am naturally a nympho, okay I said it lol. I love sex, but that doesn't mean I'd do things for just anyone. I am also Owned, so you have to ask my Mistress if we can play. I am looking for local play mostly, but I also like kinky online chat too....depending on the person I can act like a princess and do everything you wish, or act out and it's really if I like something or not, you'll know. I live to serve, and I hope to some day get a tat of my barcode. I feel everyone should do what makes them happy and we all sin our own way. I want to live in a poly house at some point. want a pic? I'll upload it upon request, but I don't like being flashy with it too much as I have a professional life too. ;) <3
Aside from that, I will try some things once, I love horseback riding, hanging out with friends, going to the beach, swimming,Camping, playing video games, and fixing computers.I have a cat at home, and I'm getting a dog tomorrow, (Mini pin chi). I have very few limits my main limit being mind games, this is due to my past,(I'm protective of my partner, if you sign a contract with her and she tells you no 3 times or more and we don't mesh, I will tell you no go, that's the only thing that might stop something). (And to be real honest here, I won't get into anything without a contract first, I want iron clad paper or something like that or it's just online fun to me and doesn't really count as "real") and if you want to know more ask. I like fishing, volleyball, football, and I play clarinet, drums, piano, and guitar. I also can sing, but often times choose not to out of shyness., I have many hobbies and interests. My favorite food is seafood and chinese., oh, I could live on pizza, but I don't cause it's not healthy, and I went from 463 to 260 now, so you wanna complain about weight go somewhere else, cause I already know and I'm working my heart out on it. ;) mostly for my health, not for my looks, but hey it does help! My dream would be to find a poly house like a farm somewhere where we all lived, slept together and protected each other, I'm sure this sounds weird, but that's something I've ALWAYS wanted...I doubt it exists in Michigan, from what I've seen, but one can dream..... ;)
I want a Mistress who can control me, I am hard to handle and a enigma to myself. I am deaf in both ears legally, but this doesn't mean I can't hear your orders ;) I read lips a lot and learned young. I am a nice person, until I get pushed too far and put up a wall. I like a little bit of humiliation, when there is love behind it and I can see it's meant to better me. I like pain, but if your just gonna sit there and show me pictures of what you can do to others, then don't waist my time... :D Age and appearance are of no real issue to me, I want to see into your heart and mind, with permission of course, or if your looking for the dominant part of me...Show me now, or I'll slap your bare nekkid ass. ;) What are you waiting for hun? I don't bite unless you want me to, oh beg me baby!
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What I want to know is how you can tell someone is a sub or not. now this person I went and met mentioned they had a collar, but it was "just so they could know what it felt like once they were in my head". I think personally I felt like she was a sub, but I never know how to approach another sub when it comes to sex or anything like that if I'm even interested. She made promises she would train me, and sort of left me hanging for months, and is still not talking to me. I asked her if I upset her, I tried to make things right, and I'm continuously trying to make up for something I NEVER did to her, and I feel I'm just being played What would u do in this situation? Just ditch the person and never see them again? Cause apparantly they don't care how bad they hurt me, and they kept using me for what they wanted, got what they wanted and left. I went so far as giving them anything they wanted and offering myself to them several times. They would tell me they were into women too, then show me pictures of guys all the time, and act like they were not interested physically. I never touched her, and I only gave her hugs when she would come by me, maybe 3x in a 3 year relationship...it hurts, and they only worried about the hurt they thought I did....well why did she push me away onto someone else if she really wanted me? when they push you away like that it sounds more like a sub, and I'm not going to be owned by a stupid sub that only wants to treat me like shit. she almost made me go into the hospital for a nervous breakdown, and ever since then i've just stopped contact. i won't put up with it. why help someone if your just gonna wanna use them and toss them away? to me that's not bdsm. that's just wrong. I really loved her, but you don't make false promises you cant keep, and if you can't train someone what the hell are you doing offering and just handing out books? then to have me hold onto them and never take them back, shows me no your wife didn't really know about us...i guess if that's the case, so much for loving you for 3 years since you pushed me away. I am very happy with my new Mistress, I am just also very confused with that situation, who does that? then to not even see their profile on here anymore, not even on the new one...did she get caught using me and get in trouble? why did she want to keep hurting me, when she was the one that caused the inital problem and didn't see it? sure she was my night in shining armor, but don't tell me your partner knows, if they don't, I would have NEVER asked her anything, if you didn't lie...that was YOUR fault, so quit blaming ME, and pushing me away when I loved you. don't blame me for your lies ppl....be honest with yourself. Okay, rant over, advice please? Just curious, and yes this is a real life situation, a old one that's now done, but I want to know what you would have done...I did love her, even though she treated me like shit, and now I won't love her anymore, I'm not allowing myself to, and I am asking Mistress for help with this too if she sees it. |
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| Age: 29 |
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Thailand |
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