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| im a female sub, looking for real life 24/7 situation, new to scene and willing to learn, curious and afraid at the same time. genuine doms only please, ill try to answer all mail and mss. .....dont know what else to say sorry.
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Well, day one of my new life, only mail I have recieved has been from weird Doms with delusions of grandeur! What part of my last entry are people not understanding?. I am no longer a sub, I failed at that and now need advice from actual subs, who can actually serve!. Please dont send me anymore abusive messages, I feel bad enough already, I am just asking for help, appealing to the human being in you. **(Sorry Joony, I will return your call just as soon as I get things settled here)**. You know the hardest thing is trying to fit into a "normal" life, its so strange, I forgot how much time people spend thinking about useless issues. Just going to Asda for food earlier took about every ounce of strength I had. I have been wearing shoes for the first time in seven months, my feet are covered in blisters!. I feel so small.......and the world so big. |
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OK, I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, it seems that I was not the person I thought I was. I think I have realised my biggest mistake. I was not really serving, like a distracted driver I was at the wheel but thinking about something other than driving. My mind was not focused, I didnt see the road closed sign till I had already smashed into it! So I think I need to communicate more with other subs, the obiedient ones!. So Masters if you are reading this I have a request ( I am not demanding but asking for help, for advice ) Please let your slave message me. So I can get advice, confidence, so I can get my mind back on the task at hand. I have emptied my inbox and from today am hoping to recieve mail from serving subs (with Masters consent). Help me through this please.....Anna x |
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OK so today was not a good day. Actually most of the previous has not been good. I have been released from my Masters service if you will. I tried my best I really did. I messed up big time! Stupid fucking Anna!!!!!!!!!! Not sure what to now, where to go, how to get my life back. I forgot that I was last, that I......well that to serve means that there can be no "I". A year of my life has passed, I gave up so much for this and now I have nothing. Who would want me?, What have I become now?.....what use is a sub who cannot serve???......stupid stupid stupid stupit Anna!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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What an interesting journey, I have been away for some time. Not from the lifestyle, just this site. I have been serving another in complete isolation, complete servitude, and I have never felt so free!. Yes I messed up some (sorrry Joony) and I have been corrected for my errors. Its not the end of my journey I think, but I dont feel as thought I have only just started either. I am back here though, stronger, wiser, more determined than ever. Where are you Master????? |
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Morning all. Well where to begin, I have been a little confused lately. Mostly its that the Doms I have been in contact with ( this does not include the time with you Joony! ) have been interested only in abusing me for their own ends. Even the person who I have been with for the past couple of weeks is the same. Why is that? why do people on here write elegant articulate profiles then turn out to be sad loosers who just get off on abusing women?? It seems most of the Doms on here wouldnt know what to do with a real slave if they got one. I mean im sorry but what has being invited to some "Doms" house to be whipped and masterbated over got to do with Slavery?? nothing in my opinion. There, ok , rant over! that feels better! so please only REAL people from now on ok, im not going to answer any messages from now on unless they have a full profile ( with picks) and can demonstrate some level of basic respect. I want to be a slave because I GENUIENLY belive that men are the stronger sex, and that women ( real women ) should serve them. However I will not lower myself to serve a complete spanner of a man!. I am worth more than that!.......Anna x x |
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Hi, sorry I have been away so long, those of you who know me will know why. So basically im back now and still looking. I have someone who is helping with my training but he is NOT my master. I really want to give this a go with a proper master. So entries on postcards please........
Anna x x |
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Wow!, what a fantastic six weeks I have had. Joony, your a star!. Sorry to have been gone so long, I have been serving my new found friends down in Dull, Grey, Wet, Surrey. I cant even begin to describe the experience. It was everything I hoped for and ten million, gazillion, trillion, times better!. I actually got to see what being a lifestyle, live in, 24/7, slave is really like!. Six weeks of mind blowing attention to detail. I am beaming!!!!!! |
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Hey sports fans, i'm back!. Now some of you are probably wondering where I have been, right?. Well I have been to London to see the queen!, well Amsterdam actually. I decided to get out and clear my head and maybe see what else is out there. I didn't do anything even remotely naughty!, no sex, some drugs, and lots of rock n roll!. The scars on my bum have healed and my mind is in a much stronger place (yeah!...well done me!). So I am running a little competition, rules are as follows.
I want whoever is interested in meeting a young lass such as myself to mail me. The most original and interesting message will win.
The prize is, well.....me!. or a weekend with me that is. Now its not so simple, I will visit the winner and serve them, but!.....but, I will not allow any physical contact!. Its my way of protecting my newly healed bum and also of meeting some new people. Now one thing, couples and females only please. Sorry guys need some time to myself. So NO single Doms!
Closing date for entry is 30/03/08 at midnight.
x x x Anna
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Hi everybody, sorry I have been quiet for a couple of days, feeling a little off. Dont know why, just a bit sad the past couple of days. I think its the whole new sub life thing. After the weekend (see below) I was quite badly marked and it took ages for the stinging to go away. I couldnt sleep for the first three nights. I have also felt really humiliated since ( I know thats the whole point!) but it has shocked me, maybe I have been a little naieve about this whole thing. I cant believe I let a stranger see me in that position or do that to me. I am actually furious with myself that I didnt take things more slowly. Its not the caneing I regret its the circumstances around it. I think I should have waited for someone I respected and trusted. I will be fine in a couple of days, I just need to work through this. The old fiesty, fiery, slightly crazy Anna is still here, she just needs time to lick her wounds!
x x Anna |
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Well I have returned from my weekend adventure, thanks to all who sent messages of advice. Also im amazed, truly amazed at the amount of messages from absolute strangers who were concerned about me this weekend!. Thank you all for your support. (thanks "L" for what you did, I owe you big!)
So I suppose id better up date you all on my weekend. Well I had my first caneing, it hurt more than I ever thought. I had a little cry after, felt really humiliated! is that normal??
Im proud of myself though, I took seventeen lashes and a couple of strikes with what seemed to be a big ruler thing!. I have quite bad marks and a couple are still quite raw ( ouch!) but im ok. Back home safe and sound. |
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Wow what an amazing place this is!, spent seven hours! yesterday on line chatting to several people. Even got a phonecall from one!So it looks like next weekend is THE one. I am going to a little place in Cornwall to be introduced to this whole thing. If I am brave enough I may even recieve my first caneing!, scary biscuits!!. Anyway I will be on line this morning if anybody has any advice for me. Is it normal to be this nervous about it? I feel like running a mile!. x x Anna |
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OK its now 11:40 am, guys I dont bite!, its OK to to send chat requests to me. It has been like a ghost town in here this morning! |
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Thank you all for your support, less than a day and I have have recieved 187!!! messages. Cant get around to all of them but am doing my best. One thing though, a lot of men have just basically sent me abusive messages, nothing related to what im looking for here. Why do you guys do that? Im new here but I dont think some random message full of abusive statements and descriptions of what you want to do to me are from well adjusted men! mildly pathetic if you ask me!. Anyway im on line for a while today so if any mature sensible dom wants to find out more about me, give me a buzz!, thanks Anna. |
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| Age: 22 |
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