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Ive always had a hard time putting myself out there. Im unsure if its because Im insecure or if its because the cold truth is most people arent interested in an overweight dude, or possibly a combination of the two.
Not that Im judging, everyone has physical preferences, but its probably time I stop letting that from trying.
So this is me!
My name is John. I work a not so glamorous job at a movie theater, but I love it there. Im a strange dude who legitimately enjoys working in customer service oriented positions, almost entirely because I like helping people.
That being said my goal, though currently not reasonably attainable, is to go back to school focus on a bachelors in social work. Ultimately my goal is to be able to help needy children.
Im a very devoted and loyal person Once I make a connection with someone I try to maintain those connections as best I can because those connections and people are important to me.
I genuinely care about people. I love people, Honestly I dont understand people who dont.
I am passionate about the things and people I care about.
I like to think I have a decent sense of humor, but then again so do most people!
I am willing to travel short distances to meet people, however my ability to travel is limited. (I dont drive)
Im not all sunshine and rainbows though, I do have my flaws, and those flaws are equally as important to who I am as my more positive personality traits.
I can be forgetful. I try not to be, I use my phone for important dates and reminders now and in general do what I can to curb this issue.
I can be emotional. Not angry, but I can get easily upset about things sometimes.
I have a hard time self motivating. I motivate well from outside sources and goals. I dont do as well setting my own goals and motivating myself for the sake of me though.
I dont have a lot of self confidence. My life has been spent largely surrounded by people who tear me down, and Ive let them. Eventually it turned to me also tearing myself down. Im getting better, but its a challenge.
My interests are a lot of stereotypical nerdy things.
I love video games (mostly online computer games such as World of Warcraft, Overwatch, and a small online game Ive been playing for 17 years called Alter Aeon)
I love table top RPGs (I play in a weekly Dungeons and DragonsPathfinderStarfinderwhatever we decide to play at the time group)
I love movies (Mostly Sci-fi and fantasy, though not limited to that. I do enjoy the marvel movies a lot, but I dont think enjoying them a lone makes me a nerd)
I love TV (Almost exclusively the Cws shows like Arrow, The Flash, Legends of Tomorrow and Supergirl, but also comedies like The Office, Parks and Recreation, Brooklyn Nine Nine, Futurama, Family Guy and so on)
I love to read (Also almost exclusively Sci-fi and Fantasy The Sword of Truth, The Wheel of Time, The Mistborn Trilogy and the Lightbringer Series are among my favorites. I am open to trying other genres though1)
Writing interests is always difficult because I always feel like theres more, but these are the things that stand out most to me. Im always open to trying new things though!
So I suppose I should eventually get to listing my kinks. They are probably the least important thing when looking for a relationship so I figured Id save them for last. After all, they are important, but Im not just looking to have my fetishes fulfilled Im looking for something that potentially lasts.
I put in my profile that Im a submissive male. The reality is Im actually more interested in a slave-like relationship. That probably stems a lot from my lack of self motivation. I motivate well for other peoples needs, I like to please people. I want to serve a dominant woman whos needs I can do my best to fulfill. I can motivate when the goal is to make someone else happy, and I want nothing more than to be able to serve and please a dominant woman in long term relationship. I say slave-like because the term slave has very heavy meaning in my eyes. Its giving up everything for someone, and Im not entirely prepared to do that. My friends and hobbies are very important to me, and I need to be able to maintain them. Im very willing to be required to serve via domestic chores, not just entirely sexually.
My sexual kinks include but are not limited to CBT, Impact Play, Pegging, Bondage, Pain, Tease and Denial, Chastity, being forced to eat my own cum and general BDSM play.
Im mildly interested in humiliation play, but only mildly. The thought turns me on but I also dont know how well Id handle it psychologically.
My hard limits are
anything public that could cause me embarrassment with friends, family or coworkers
Anything illegal (this is a relatively obvious one, but need to be said)
Scat
Blood
Soft limit of anything involving urine (It doesnt interest me at all, but doesnt instantly repulse me ether)
I havent had the opportunity to explore my kinky side at all, not even a little. So I am inexperienced. I have done a lot of reading though, and know what my desires are and what I find to be to much. Im sure because I havent done much exploration there are plenty of other things that will interest me, and also probably plenty of other things I will find to be limits. I am open to exploring with the right woman though.
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