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DSo my life has been on busy ball of hell. Hopefully I have reached my quota of bullshit for the next 6 months. I ended the month of November with my boyfriend cheating on me. We are no longer together. I don't give second chances. That was a hard pill for me to swallow to say the least. But everything in life is a learning lesson. I learned a lot about myself and my life. One piece at a time, one day at a time, one foot in front of the other. December welcomed in surgery for my mom. Having to help take care of her was a great distraction from my personal hell. At least it made the time go by quickly. I had a great Christmas with family and friends. Best Christmas I have had in a long time. January was off to a decent start until my brother broke his ankle yesterday. So now I have 2 people to take care of. Oh well those are the breaks and this is what family is all about. On a more happy note if there is one, my Sgt. And I are reconnecting after a falling out and some movements around the department. I am glad that things are getting better for us and we are hopefully going to continue to grow and move in a more positive direction. She likes to hug. And she is about the only person in my life that likes hugging. Lol. Inside joke. And for any of you that care, I finally saw my best friends foot. It was a long hard fought battle but determination and patience finally paid off. He is all about this effort and reward system these days. I love him so much, well some days when he isn't pissing me off. I told him this new game we are playing sounds an awful lot like some bondage shit. What do y'all think? Well maybe one day we will get around to some fun stuff like some spankings or something. I need to learn to stop being such a bitch to him. Well I am a work in progress as always. OK I think I have poured my heart out as much as I can. Have a great one y'all. |
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So just for future reference I am in a relationship with someone that is non lifestyle. But we mix a little of this with what he is used to so I have hope I can convert him. But we will see. |
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Talked to one of my friends the other day. We were talking about lifestyle stuff, she is a newbie. And her smart ass mouth says "this is all your fault you turned me on to this" .... I am sorry that I introduced you to the best things in life. Yeah my bad.
It kills me to say this but I think about you more than you know. I think about you often. More than I am sure you would imagine. Oh well there is nothing that can be done about it now. |
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I haven't posted in a while I know. Its been a busy month. On the heels of a big fight with my best friend things are much better. I guess sometimes you gotta argue with someone to clear the air sometimes. I have been on vacation for the past week and let me just say, I didn't take enough time off work. But that's always the case right? I have been working on baking pies lately. I finally nailed down a good key lime pie recipe. I don't eat them but they are my best friend's favorite. I would rather stick with cakes they are easier. But I guess that's all I got for now. |
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Well I finished the "fifty shades." It had its good moments and bad. I don't really care for the way the author made this lifestyle look like something you wake up on day and say fuck it, I am done. But hey well can all dream right. I am sure it would be ok for newbies. Maybe I will give to my friends and let them think that is what the lifestyle is like. Hell they will probably never know the difference anyways. |
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So I ordered my fifty shades of grey books yesterday. The media has labeled this series of books mommy porn. What makes me laugh is this storyline is about BDSM. Now keep in mind these three books were all New York Times bestsellers. First I want to thank the author for taking this lifestyle mainstream. And apparently quite eloquently. But secondly I wanna talk about how a law enforcement friend of mine is the one that insisted that I read these books. Keep in mind this is the same friend that not 6 months ago flipped her fucking shit on me when I told her I was into this lifestyle. Funny how quickly things change for people. So now my friend is all about this lifestyle. She told me how her and her husband played a little and how much she enjoyed it. Needless to say I laughed. I told her she needed to read the master's creed and go from there. I told her one day she is going to look at her husband and tell him this is the man I need you to be. Sadly I don't think her marriage will survive her desire for this lifestyle. But we shall see. So in closing I would like to say thanks to E.L. James for bringing BDSM to mainstream america in a delightful way. And bringing a friend to understand me better, and sex. |
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So apparently I look like a child in my uniform. For those of y'all just tuning in I work in law enforcement. And in our jail we separate the inmates that have charges of sex crimes against children. I get more crap from those creepy fuckers than anyone else in the jail. Last time it was a creepy love letter. This time the inmates were fighting cuz one said I was the cutest and sweetest guard they had. The other guy didn't agree. So they literally fought one another. First off gross. I wanna scrub my damn skin off. Secondly ain't none of them got a damn thing I wont. And lastly you would think when I tell them I pack heat they would leave me alone. But no. All I can say to the one that "likes me" is Texas is coming for your ass buddy. And we all know Texas don't play around. I hope that governors warrant gets here quickly loser. Ok that's all I got for now. |
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So I went bowling with my best friend last night. We go bowling on the Thursdays I am off from work. And well after last night my best female friend and I are convinced my male best friend just enjoys torturing me. Its no big surprise to me. I tell him often he is a sadist. But what really shocked me was the day I told him I like sex when it hurts, he said yeah me too. I was like wow. Then again I usually feel that way after we talk and hang out. We talk about some serious topics. Like last night he was telling me about his idea of romance. Needless to say he is going to make some lady a damn good husband one day. He was talking about taking his wife breakfast in bed, flowers, foot massages, giving her a bath. All kinds of juicy stuff that girls love. But what threw me for the biggest loop was I was talking on the phone to my brother. I told my brother I loved him. And my friend hauls off with I love me too. Oh and I think he wants to meet my sister. He is the most complicated one person I have ever met in my life. Oh well, I gotta get some sleep. I gotta go back to work tonight. Did I mention my best friend laughs his ass off cuz I am mean. Yeah he does. Silly man. Have a good weekend. |
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I had a really awesome birthday. Went for dinner and cake with a really great guy. He is pretty much my best friend in the whole world. Now if I could only convince him to stop showing me his package. We were supposed to have a rule about no talking about his business. He doesn't listen to me, ever. He says he isn't lifestyle but he sure acts like a sadist some days. Maybe I will convert him to the dark side sooner or later. Lol. I am not holding my breath. Smiles. He is the best and that's all that matters. Hope everyone is having a great week. |
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A friend of mine wrote this to me and I was left speechless and asking myself where do we go from here? And how the fuck did my life get so complicated in the matter of a week. All comments welcome....
You don't have to be afraid of messing anything up. We talked about it like mature adults; i know you have those feelings for me,and you know how i feel. And like you said,I'm not a little boy. I'm not gonna get scared,avoid you, ...and run for the hills like a kid. You know I genuinely care about people for who they are. I get to know people for who they are; I don't try and focus on the bad or good in someone,I just see everything and care enough about them to accept them for who they are. I don't just see what people do or say,I actually care enough to find the reasons why, because the intentions that drive a person to do or say what they do and say is what makes them who they are. I look deep into someone and try to see the real person. If you want to act on the feelings you have I'm not going to push you away. I know you are not selfish,I know you would be doing it because you care about me. I know you are not doing it out of a selfish desire to try and change my mind,my feelings,or the way I think of you. If I stopped being your friend because of the good intentions you have towards me then I'd be nothing more than an ass,a jerk,and selfish kid; plus i'd be hurting you deeply by not accepting you for who you are. Don't be afraid because of the unspoken rules, regulations,and restrictions society has placed on itself when it comes to human relationships... Those social stigmas are encouraging selfishness and are some of the main reasons why people keep themselves trapped I a cage of unhappiness,sadest part is they don't see they are the ones causing their own unhappiness by not being who they are and not letting others be who they are. Now if your intentions for acting on your feelings are selfish and you are just trying to force me to change how I feel... then I would have a problem. I don't do or say anything because I want to control others,manipulate how they think of me, or force them to change the way they feel towards me; I do and say only because I care about them for who they are. I want everyone I care about to be happy being who they are,every aspect of who they are deep inside. I have a strong sense of self that prevents me from falling for all those restrictions society has created to hold us in a pit of depression and sadness. Everyone needs to know they are welcome to be who they really are when they are around me, do and say what you want because it comes from the hear,as long as you have a good heart. I will never judge, avoid,run,push away,hurt,or be a kid and only think of myself; because when I care about someone I genuenely care about them for who they are and not what I could get out of them for my personal gratification. |
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Today is Master's birthday. God how I miss that man. (No he didn't die, I just fucked that up too). He turned this lifestyle into an honest to goodness art form. Any new dom would be lucky to learn a thing or two from him. Hell he was my favorite drug. Instead of always chasing that first time feeling again, every time was a brand new high. In the middle of a play date I would have given him anything to be able to cum. The one time he let me to took a matter of minutes. Ahhhh talk about pleasure. I think I melted on his chest. All the other times he would tell me to give him a good reason. I never could think of a good enough reason. From the first time to the last time he was amazing. I am truly saddened and miss those days with him. There aren't enough I am sorries, or I would give anything to fix it in this world to fix what I fucked up but I wish there were. Anyways, where ever in the country or out he is today, I hope you have a happy birthday, Master. |
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So I added some new pictures cuz let's face it everyone likes to look. Not a whole lot has been happening around the jail. Got a love note last week. I wanted to scrub my skin off. The note said one of the inmates was deeply lustful in love with me. Creepy I know. Especially considering the person is on aggravated stalking charges. But don't worry this sub is now packing heat. Consider yourself warned. And funniest thing I heard from a co worker was she said when she isn't in the mood she tells her husband she wants to make love. I laughed so hard. She says it works better than saying you have a headache. Told her I would have to remember that one and try it out. I have never made love to anyone in my life. In case y'all didn't already know this I am one of the cold heartest bitches you will ever meet. Idk what to tell you other than life sucks. Well its work time, let's put on our uniform and go be mean to someone.... |
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so a friend of mine who is non lifestyle offered to put me to bed tonight. I was like are you gonna read me a bedtime story? He was like yeah whatever you want, but its gonna end with love making. I was like I thought that the princess was supposed to get the prince. He laughed. I keep trying to talk him into giving me what I want, he looks at the pictures but he could never do those things to me. Too bad I guess. I need someone to tuck me in bed, and give me what I need in life. Maybe one day I will get it right, instead of fucking it up all the time. But I got a joke.....
Lady was smoking and pumping gas. Her arm caught on fire. She ran towards the front of the gas station where she was shot by a police officer. He was cleared of all charges. She did have a firearm after all. HAHAHAHAHAHA |
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I am not staying at that motel again, something kept biting me. Wait it was the person sleeping next to me. Nevermind. He left some nice bruise bites on my tits. But we wont talk about what I did to his back. The scratches are mostly gone but not the places I broke the skin. He said he wanted the best orgasm I have ever had, well he got it and then some. The next day I was sitting on an ice pack. He was laughing. He was like is that really an ice pack. I was like yes. Then he was like and your saying that with a smile. And the quote of the wekkend was... I don't have sex with boys that have sex with boys.... lmao... there is a story behind that quote, but I will save that for another day. He liked it when I rode him but I liked it more when he had me in the bitch in heat position fucking and slapping my ass. But I didn't like it at all when I broke the rules and he paddled my ass. His new paddle hurts... Needless to say I learn my lesson, quickly. All and all is was a great weekend. Would have been happier if we could have played more but there is always next time.... |
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I read something this morning that was talking about how hard normal relationships are trying to blend two lives and two opinions into the same space. Its a hard road. With lots of bumps and some mountains. But what I took most from what I read was if it doesn't work one way. Try another. Don't just say fuck it and walk away. Which I am really bad about. Then I thought about all the people I seen come to jail this weekend. Some of those people have messed up the rest of their lives. All from one bad choice. One error in judgement. I don't want to be that person, the one who walked away cuz shit got hard. I need to stick it out and see it to the end. I need to give it every chance possible to work. If it doesn't then its not because I didn't give it my all with an open and honest heart. I need to apply my same none judgement in relationships that I do at work. I need to not take things so personal. |
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Scotland the brave on the radio. Irish cream in my coffee. Now all I need is a man in a kilt and my night will be perfect!!!!! Any takers????? a pretty man in a kilt is just the bee's knees...... |
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Here are some words to live by. If someone tells you what they want and need without making you play 20 questions and you fail to give it to them, they will find someone that will. So grow up, put on your big pants, and be what you claim to be and someone needs you to be. Instead of being a fucking black hole. Someone once told me that nothing in life is free, there is a price to be paided for everything. What you need to ask yourself is am I willing to pay the price she wants to have what I want. Its give and take people.
Random thought in the "been there . |
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Needless to say I have had a lot of things on my mind these past couple of weeks. And with all the reading I have been doing its giving me more questions about myself and others than I can answer at this time. I keep going back and forth on how I feel about several different things. I am extremely hormonal at this time and therefore refuse to make any serious or hard and fast decisions. However one or two things will happen over the next few weeks I am sure of it. Some might like it and some might not. And well being the southern belle that I am "Frankly my dear I don't give a damn".... stay tuned for the next episode of this show I like to call "Been there, fucked that up." |
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Before I go in for another day of stupid let me tell y'all about the winner we had last night. We were doing her intake. First stupid thing she says is "I wanted to be a cop til I found out all the stuff y'all have to remember." I stated mute, considering she got picked up for driving suspended. Guess that ticket was too much to remember to pay as well. Next stupid thing. She has a green leafy substance in a cigarette pack. It doesn't smell like marijuana. This dumb dumb ass says "its synthetic marijuana, its not against the law. I read the news." I am thinking to myself, did he tell you that you have the right to remain silent? Try it. And lastly her dumb ass comment of the night is "you can smoke it and see its not real." Yeah bitch that's how we test stuff we just fire it up. Be glad she chose another career path. |
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Holy shit... does that count as praying... I mean it is Sunday after all. I haven't prayed that much during sex in a long time. OH MY GOD!!! I think the biting just turned me on that much more. Its not fun it doesn't hurt some, right? So sad it wont last longer. :( needless to say SEMPER FI has a whole new meaning. Wait, I think it was his awesome ninja... either way. All the great sex aside, cuz that's the easy part, what an awesome guy. I think it hurt worse when he said you understand why I gotta go than him saying he had to leave. But yeah I understand and know even if I wanted him to stay he had to go. Our lives and our jobs don't give us the option of saying we don't feel like working today. Being an adult sucks. Anyway enough emtionals for now. Uploaded one of the bite marks that looks kinda like a heart. |
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Got my first write up at work this morning. It was a verbal so I am not too worried about it. Here's what happened. The inmates are not allowed to sit on the table tops. I had one sitting on the table. I told him to get off the table. He gets off the table and gets right back on. He sits there with his back to me. I tell him two more times to get off the table. He don't. So I push him off the table. Well I had to do a incident report and use of force report. So he got in trouble. I got in trouble for not asking for assistance. Oh well. You live and learn I guess. |
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I added a picture of my ankle. Bless my heart, I jacked it up on Monday. So I am chilling and on light duty at work. Those are the breaks sometimes. I also changed my fingernail polish today, its like a bright pink. Looks cute I guess. And lastly let me say I am not here looking for a Dom. I mostly get on here and check messages and chat with folks. I got something I am interested in seeing where it goes. So take it or leave it, or as always I have free attitude for anyone that don't like it. |
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I enjoy cooking and baking so I added a picture of my creation tonight. Chocolate covered pretzels. If only I had some strawberries. Yum yum. Oh well it will be strawberry season soon. |
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So I am off this weekend and I am totally skanking it. I am gonna chill in my sweats and piss off and do a whole lot of nothing. Let me help you with a visual. Camo housecoat, blue shirt, red pants, purple socks, and leopard house shoes. LMAO. I apologize in advance if you encounter me. Ok now that you are done laughing. People are killing me tonight. Can I see more pictures of you and do you wanna be dommed online? Really you stupid bitches are killing me. As fucking if!! I need live and in person not bullshit. Damn get a life. Well they got blocked so they wont be bothering me for the rest of my life. Lol. Oh and my fingernails are blue this week. |
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Y'all are gonna love this I promise. So I was at work last night cuz I work the night shift. I get a call from a wrong number. No big deal. I get 2 more calls this morning from a restricted number. Work shows up restricted so I am like shit what did I bring home. No instead I hear. "Who dis?" I am nice and tell the lady my name 3 times. She asked me a 4th time. I am like OFFICER XXXXX. She is like oh is that your name. I am like yeah it sure is. She was like "I am tryin to figure out why your numba on my baby daddy phone." I am like was it at 2 or 3 in the morning. She was like yeah. I am like it was a wrong number. I spent more time on the phone with her than I ever did with him. Needless to say she didn't call back. |
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Look people really please stop with the you have beautiful legs, how slutty can you be, and the what are you looking for. Really. Is that the best you have? Duh I know I have pretty legs. A.) I own these fucking legs, Duh! B.) I also own a mirror. As for how slutty can I be. Easy answer as slutty as he tells me to be. Damn really. And I last but not least what am I looking for. Ummm not you. Oh wait I am here to find out what flowers are best to plant in the dead of winter. For fucks sake really. Get a life. I feel sorry for you if the quality of submissives you generally deal with are idiots. Some sluts actually have some depth and education. I have both, try not to be scared. I also have an attitude and a smart mouth to go along with all my other great qualities. Hahaha.... now for the people that are keeping up with this fantastic adventure better known as my life. I FOUND HIS TICKLE SPOTS. I almost got my ass beat. All I can say is thank goodness we had to be quite. LOL. I so totally see myself not being spared twice. Giggle. What fun is life if your not naughty sometimes right. I need a nap. In closing, thank you again for a beautiful night. |
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I broke the rules. I did it with intent but not with malice. I want to know more about you. Since you are not so forth coming I will take matters in my own hands. I am willing to admit I fucked up the first time around. While I maybe wicked I do try to learn from my mistakes. Punishment whatever it maybe won't kill me, but it will make me stronger. And in the end it will answer some of the questions I have about you. How far can I push you. How far do I wanna push you. And how often do I really wanna push you. It will tell me how creative you are. Then again I may have even more questions than answers and that always sucks. I can't be good its not in my nature. But I am really good at being bad. |
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I will share with y'all a story that was sent to me....
How would you like to be stripped bare and bent over a bar stool and have your hands handcuffed to the legs while you're helpless to stop me from using you for anything I can think of? Like to be controlled and have your ass smacked while you're helpless to do anything but take it? Feeling me bending your lithe little body over the stool pulling down your tight undies as I flip up the miniskirt you're wearing,letting the cool air hit your supple little buttcheeks. Pinning you by putting my strong hand on your back as I bend down blowing slightly on your puckered little asshole watching you squirm as your slit moistens. Thats a good dirty girl,I say,placing my tip of my tongue on your clit and slowly tracing it up between your legs navigating my way up your asscrack 'til I get to the small of your back, watching your eyes close with delight. Pulling my tongue from you smacking your ass hard watching it wobble and turn red as you jump a little,still squirming over the stool...clutching both your asscheeks in my hands,kneading them like dough before slapping them again watching as your pussy gets wetter and wetter with every punishing blow I put on your ass. Pulling your hair back,yanking back your head as I buckle a collar around your neck,fastening a little chain to it and then hooking it to the stool... |
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A guy that opens doors... Wow who knew they still existed. And well we won't talk about the rest of it but damn I was shaking all over.... Giggles... |
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Well I have not been on in quite sometime. Apologies for that. Life has been crazy to say the very least this year. So many changes, and so many more to come. You know someone could have been nice enough to tell me my pictures weren't deleted. Oh well hopefully they will be now. Not to worry though I put a picture of my legs and feet up for those of y'all ( I am southern don't hold it against me) that are into that kind of thing. All has been mostly quite a the jailhouse as of late. We got rid of most of our problem children. Either to doc or time served. All that sets us up for is more to come. I still get hit on just about everyday. I am currently trying to convince them I am lesbian. I know that sounds terrible but alass its true. I think that's all I have for now. Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and working a Happy New Year. |
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Well its back to work tomorrow after being at training for almost 2 weeks. But I am ready for it. I miss my shift. Well I miss some of them more than others. ::Snickers::
I have deleted my pictures due to work reasons. Last thing I need is a co worker running across them or god forbid an inmate. YUK!!!!
and my joke for the night... Whenever I fill out an application and it says notify in case of emergency I put "DOCTOR". What's my mother going to do?!?!?! |
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When someone says "something smells good" I should probably not yell I queefed.... but its funny.... |
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So we were reading some inmate mail at work tonight... this one lady is going to send her locked up husband some hair.... gross... can anyone say contraband.... |
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Ok so let's see if I can't save myself a whole ton of mail to be deleted. If you live in a state other than Georgia or Tennessee, please save me the let's chat and get to know each other emails ok. I am not moving and unless you are moving to one of the 2 above listed states, then there is no point. Please also save me the you're cute emails also. Trust me I have heard it and so long as I keep going to work I will keep hearing it. Not that I think I am porn star quality or anything but when you have a population of 75% males that are doing time, well your going to get hit on. I don't like hearing it from them, I don't like hearing it from you either. However, if you have something worth wild to say then by all means please do so. Also if you wanna im then forget it, I usually don't have time. I sleep days and work all night. Ok I think that should about cover that..... now for a joke....
This one for the ones that really know me.....
A man walks into a sperm bank wearing a ski mask and carrying a gun, he demands that the woman at the counter "take it out". "We have no money sir, this is a sperm bank", she replies. "I don't care" says the robber, "take it out and drink it down!", he damands. Scared for her life she drinks down a sperm sample. "Do it again" the angry robber yells, and the woman complies. Taking off his mask the woman realizes it's her husband... he looks her in the eye and says "see I told you it wasn't so bad".
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I do believe I have see it all after working all weekend... they brought in a lady in full leopard print. As if that's not bad enough she had her underwear on the outside. We asked her why she had them on the outside and she said the deputy said put the rest of your clothes on so I did. I asked the deputy did you drive through the trailer park, flip the light on and arrest the first person you saw? |
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How can you not laugh when football announcers say double teaming a tight end??? And my other favorite is penetration in the back field.... LOL.... I LOVE LOVE LOVE FOOTBALL. GO VOLS. ROCKY TOP!!! |
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New advisory on condom boxes reads like this... if our product fails then happy father's day. LOL. |
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You Sir are a vagina. At least I have an excuse if you wanna call it that, I have one. Gosh people are on my nerves today. |
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This is a joke my brother told me..... try not to be offended....
why doesn't a woman need a drivers license? There is no freeway between the bedroom and the kitchen.
I roflmao. It was hard not to.... |
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Joke of the day..... wait wait wait.... what happens when you work at the prison/jail.... does that just mean you're screwed all the way around?????
Work and Prison
In prison: You spend the majority of your time in an 8x10 cell.
At work: You spend most of your time in a 6x8 cubicle.
In prison: You get three meals a day.
At work: You get a break for 1 meal and you have to pay for it.
In prison: You get time off for good behavior.
At work: You get rewarded for good behavior with more work.
In prison: A guard locks and unlocks all the doors for you.
At work: You must carry around a security card and unlock and open all
the doors yourself.
In prison: You can watch TV and play games.
At work: You get fired for watching TV and playing games.
In prison: You get your own toilet.
At work: You have to share.
In prison: They allow your family and friends to visit.
At work: You cannot even speak to your family and friends.
In prison: All expenses are paid by taxpayers with no work required.
At work: You get to pay all the expenses to go to work and then they
deduct taxes from you salary to pay for prisoners.
In prison: You spend most of your life looking through bars from
inside wanting to get out.
At work: You spend most of your time wanting to get out and go inside
bars.
In prison: There are wardens who are often sadistic.
At work: They are called supervisors.
In prison: You have unlimited time to read e-mail jokes.
At work: You get fired if you get caught.
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I was bored at work last night and wrote this. It isn't to anyone specific, the words were just there. I do think that anyone that reads it will find some part of it that will apply. Either way enjoy.
You're talking crazy again, and I don't think that I can handle it this time. Sometimes you just say the most insensitive things. DO you ever stop and think before you open your mouth? Does it even bother you to know that you hurt my feelings? I gave you all I had to give, you took and took. But you never had anything to give back. Surely after all your took you would have some little something, even a piece to give in return. Are you completely incapable of expressing human emotion. Have I not shown you I am trustworthy enough to share your thoughts with me? What's on your mind? What are you afraid of? What do you wish for? What do you desire? What makes you tick? What drives you on, when you're just too tired to continue? I can't go on like this anymore, always wondering. I need something more to hang onto than the things that I think up in my mind.
Happiness is that place in life between peaceful and content. I need to find that place, I seem to have lost it. I think that I put it down somewhere but I can't remember where. Can you help me find it again? DO you even remember where that place is yourself? Sometimes I wonder if I just dreamed it into reality. And just when I think I have found it, I sadly realize I have not. Or did it just slip through my fingers? You told me a long time ago, you knew the way. Do you still? That could be a great new adventure for us. Will you take me by then hand and lead the way? Let's make this adventure be full of love and laughter. No matter the trials and tribulations we may find a long the way. We can over come them together, can't we? Nothing can be too hard if we work as a team. We must let go of the bad times, they will only hold us back. Forget all the sadness that has happened in the past, it can't hurt us any longer. The journey may be long and winding, but it will be worth it. I promise. I know that we can do this if we try, but we both must be ready for the challenges, willing to compromise, and ablt to make this leap. Will you take this trip with me? Will you make me go it alone? I don't want to feel alone anymore. Especially when you are only a few feet away. Do you take pleasure in causing me this pain? Some days the pain is just almost to much to bear. I just need for this pain to stop for a while. So that I may catch my breath. Some days it hurts far too much to even take a breath. It burns, my throat, my lungs, and into my soul. I only want the best for you, even if its not me. Remove you're hand from my throat, and your dagger from my heart. I am pretty sure I can heal again. I always have in the past. We were good once, and I think that we can be again. I simply need you to come along with me. Look inside yourself and find that person that made me smile, that got my jokes, and put up with my quirks. If you can't find that person than this will never work. Don't wake up one day and wonder why I hate you. Just look inside yourself, measure your own actions, and you will have your answer. This will be the last time I beg and plead with you about this. I am tired and need some rest. Until then I will dream of the days I felt your breath on my neck, and the warmth of your arms. You can be whoever I want in my dreams, but you will always be the same in my soul....... |
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Sitting here watching a snail race before I go to bed for the day.... and you wont believe who won.... yup a snail.... ahahahaha |
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First I want to thank everyone for the prayers and your compassion. As for me.... if I don't know what pain is then I really don't know what compassion is.... a really smart man once said that. It was in a different context but it applies across the board none the less. I hope that everyone is doing well, and taking stock of their own lives. I know that I have. I know who the people are that mean the most to me, and the ones that never really did. and for those of you that need a jokes today..... i have a cute but not terribly funny one for you....
A skeleton wanted to go to a party but he realized he didn't have NO BODY to go with.... smiles, have a beautiful and blessed day..... |
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I know that everyone tunes in for my jokes.... you may have to wait a while to get a new one.... I AM HEART BROKEN... my small town was ripped apart this evening by a tornado. All of my family is safe, thank God. Some of my friends lost everything and are still stuck in their homes and have lost basically everything, but at least they still have each other. So take a moment and reflect on what matter the most to you. Do they know what they mean to you? |
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New joke....
Husband and wife are sitting at home, when the tornado sirens go off. The husband strips off all his clothes and runs outside.... His wife comes outside and says Leroy what in the hell are you doing.... Leroy says waiting on the blowjob of a lifetime.....
let me know what ya'll think.... I lmao.....
I love it when my friends that have known me for years start talking or introducing me to new people. They all know that I am a freak but what they never see coming is that I totally like being submissive with the right person. They never see it coming....
Have a good day ya'll.... |
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After a long absence i have a new joke... this may be my new personal favorite...
A husband emerged from the bathroom naked and was climbing into bed when his wife complained, as usual, I have a headache! Perfect, her husband said, I was just in the bathroom powdering my penis with crushed aspirin. You can take it orally, or as a suppository, its up to you!
LMFAO!!!!!!!!
OK so I usually spend one day a week in middle Tennessee and I want some pussy. I don't need to be dominated nor do I wanna dominate you (i can if you just need me to) but mostly I just wanna taste some pussy.... so if you live in that area and need someone to eat you hit me up. I don't wanna do you and your dom.... JUST WANT SOME PUSSY!!!!!
Have a great day.... |
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Why did the fish get kicked out of school????
He had seaweed.... ahahahahahaha....
I know it juvenile but it's cute none the less. |
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...."you know the pale blue of luc skywalker`s light saber before it was digitally remastered..." LOL... loving watching the Big Bang Theory... Bless Jesus talk about a fantastic fun filled weekend... more gspot orgasms than this little slut knows what to do with....but i didnt spend my whole weekend in blissful release.... I got some serious "geek" decorating done... i have a new career path i do believe. LOL.... hope everyone is ready for the super bowl... |
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Ok so I have dyed my hair a pinkish purple.... I have already put the pictures up... hope you enjoy them. Its already starting to fade so it will be a different color in a week or so. I totally love it. So in light of my new hair color I got a hair color joke. Sorry its a blonde joke but funny. I love blonds myself!!!!!!!!!
A dumb blonde was really tired of being made fun of, so she decided to have her hair she would look like a brunette.
When she had brown hair, she decided to take a drive in the country.
After she had been driving for a while, she saw a farmer and a flock of sheep and thought,
"Oh! Those sheep are so adorable!"
She got out and walked over to the farmer and said,
"If I can guess how many sheep you have, can I take one home?"
The farmer, being a bit of a gambler himself, said she could have a try.
The blonde looked at the flock and guessed, "157."
The farmer was amazed - she was right! So the blonde, (who looked like a brunette), picked one out and got back into her car.
Before she left, farmer walked up to her and said.
"If I can guess the real color of your hair, can I have my dog back?" |
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OK so let me clear up just a couple of things real quick....
I am submissive because its what I want for my life. That doesn't mean that I have no self esteem, and need someone to treat me like dirt. It simple means that I want someone that can handle me, and lord trust me I am hard to handle. I am sick of men that are here because they are not getting what they want at home. If you are married and screwing around on your wife cuz she used to be lifestyle and isnt anymore, or she never was... You have 2 choices hit the next button, or get a divorce. Its not that hard. If you start running some line of shit on me, I will tell you to go fuck yourself, simple as that. Told someone today as a matter of fact. He was offended, I don't care. This is my life and I am going to enjoy it, every damn minute of it.
Now someone I am sure is going to say well you can't top from the bottom....NEWS FLASH ... you have to top me first. And if you think its going to be a walk in the park well your dead ass wrong. However if you like a good challenge from a female, come play with me. You won't be sad.
Lastly I smoke, if you don't like that either well piss on an electric fence....
Have a good day.... enjoy the jokes.... |
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Well I think that since I am a smoker, and people like to give me a hard time (not the kind I want) I will do a smoking joke....
Two voices, one male and one female, overheard on a plane:
"I think everyone's asleep, let's go"
"This one's empty ... no-one's looking... you go in first"
"It's a bit cramped - let me sit down"
"Have you got the condom? Quick - put it on"
Sniff sniff
"Ah perfume - you think of everything"
"This is great....." (long sigh)
Static on the loud speaker then a new voice.
"This is the captain speaking, to those two people in the rear toilet. We know what you're doing and it is expressly forbidden by airline regulations... Now put those cigarettes out and take the condom off the smoke detector!"
LOL....
Life has had some ups and downs lately, but I still totally love being me and love my life. Hope everyone has a great day!!! |
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Well its been a while since I have posted anything so let me come up with something good for ya'll, I have been buried under all this snow that got dumped on the southeast.
<Sings> You've got to kiss an angel Good Morning... then it changes to... and I don't want you and I don't need you. Don't bother to resist or I'll beat you...
Charlie Pride and Marilyn Mason... no they don't go together but thats whats on the jukebox in my mind today...
Joke time....
A little boy with diarrhea tells his mom he needs viagra. The mom ask why on earth do you need that? The little boy replies "isnt that what you give dad when his shit wont get hard. LOL
ya'll have a good day, until next time.... |
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shit i was going to do that happy butt dance to go with the songs spinning round in my head but I don't think its going to work.....hmmmm.....
I will sing this song so it will get out of my head spyderman... spyderman... he does what ever a spyder can....(then it changes to) twinkle twinkle little slut.... now i spank your naughty butt....
LMAO!!!!!!! what a combo right... go figure....
I guess ya'll would like a joke, no????
One friend says to another "you should put your phone number on your facebook page, so all the girls can call you..."
the friend answers "its already on all the bathroom walls...." lol.....
When you are sexting, do you get a phoner???? i am just wondering....
Hope everyone is happy and well....
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OK so this is my favorite joke of all time.......
What is the speed limit for sex?
68 cuz when she hits 69 she blows a rod
LOL!!!!!!! |
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This lol was sent to me in email and just wanted to share it......
Why was the tomato blushing????
It saw the salad dressing ......
<Giggles> Hope that everyone has a great night |
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Just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. We got 6 inches of snow here in the south. First white Christmas in numerous years, so all in all it was a great day. Hope that everyone got everything they wanted and spent it with someone they love. |
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Since I have insomnia I thought I would find a joke for it, someone needs to laugh about it cuz I sure as hell ain't.
What do you get if you cross an insomniac, an agnostic and a dyslexic?
Someone who stays up all night wondering if there really is a dog.
I might go to hell for that one, nah it will be for something much worse.... |
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