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Ok i keep getting asked what this is so I'll just type it here so I'll just tell everybody about it here.
First off I dont know what it technically would be called or diagnosed as, but thats what my therapist unoficially called it. And I have yet to meet or talk with a similar complex. And I doubt Im the only person in the world who has this, but I just dont think many people still persue their sexuality who deal with this.
Its basically a sexual claustraphobia. I'm not nervous around women or prude or anything its just when i get close to an orgasm its too much for my brain to handle or something and I go into a kind of panic attack. It's almost like its a stronger sensation for me or that my brain recieves the signals that way. In such a way that it totally overwhelms me and I freak out. Maybe its the loss of control over something so big. Either way I cant really handle it without some kind of coersion.
An orgasm isnt painful or horrible for me, and I'm as hormone drivin as any guy. After its over I always realized I enjoyed it. It's more like being tickled, you arent in any danger or being harmed but you cant handle it and you squirm and protest. And thats what I do. I have never actually orgasmed without having been tied up and forced through it. So I beg and squirm and protest.
I think my brain and body are in a constant argument because everything works normal physically. I still get horney. I still get my head turned when I see the right kind of girl. My body is always more than willing to cooperate even when my brain doesnt want to.
This is a really wierd thing for someone with a personality like me to have I think because Im not a meek or timid kind of person.
And when Im the one "performing" Im really quite dominant in the bedroom. And I love to touch and be close with someone. I cant handle being touched. lol
So if anyone has any other questions or comments feel free to email me. Im pretty talkative and I love meeting new people.
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