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Untamed Abyss- FL
That is where most of my BDSM online time is spent.

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7/27/2012 6:40:07 PM

I can't ever touch myself without your permission erotically. Next, you tell me I can never ask to. Do you not understand the mental affects this is having on me Sir? I follow your rules and there is no need to put chas. on me. But Sir, I am a nympho- you keep me from orgasm without you around. The mere thought of orgasm being taken away affects non nymphos greatly imagine that twenty times over. 

 

Now I dream about you, and you are on my mind when I am buried in my demanding job. I orgasm without being touched by simply reading. You consume my thoughts when I exercise. I am so horny all of the time that it is absurd. I carry on with a calmness like a pond of fresh water with no wind to stir it- but my mind is always on something erotic one way or another. 

 

No Sir, I am not complaining or trying to question you.... I am simply trying to adjust to this........I am coping- with my suffering.......suffering and smiling while people compliment me on my smile................. suffering in silence...............a suffering within myself so ugly that it is beautiful, something that I am proud to say I can do...........with an all encompassing warmth that makes my insides surrender to you without you near and with you far

 

 

 a void has developed in me............. venting.........

 

 

now i really can't deny you if the thought ever crossed my mind, no distancing myself......... from the fear of feeling desperate for you............. A desperate woman I have never been-for anyone or anything.................. and I am Sir surpassing the point of desperation for you.....you come near me and you inspire me to always do better by your words for myself................. to open my mind to you completely.......... to expand my horizons mentally, physically and in my every being............... to keep my discipline even with you near- looking far up at you  

 

You challenge me much more then you know.... have more faith in me then i have in myself sometimes....... push me over the brink and then pull me back again- in beyond infinite ways-

 

 

 


7/19/2012 11:37:08 PM

TO YOU 

 

Rules- I will follow them...Even without you physically around. For I am not my own anymore to give to whomever I so choose......and at all costs I must take care of what is yours.

 

You are so deep  in my mind that it does seem that you know even when I am only considering breaking a rule.... You always contact me just before I stray. I know not to question you or make you repeat yourself, and  if I should stray, I am yours to discipline... But with that being said, I can't bare even thinking of lying so I am completely honest to avoid the inevitable. I know not to say "no" or what I can't or will not do....... because should I do that I know it is likely that I will  regardless... Besides what good is my word or promise to you if I break it. I want so much for you to always trust me.


7/19/2012 11:36:10 PM

Submissive 

 

I really love the feeling when someone can get past all of my layers and therefore completely open me up dominating my mind, body, and soul. In this case, none of my faults apply because it is only my eager desire to please. I will take pride in everything that I do for my dom. I will aim to exceed expectations. For the most part every limit that I am known to place will cease to exist... I really take joy in being controlled because it takes a strong and intelligent special type of person to get there with me. They have to surpass many things and for that they deserve for me to give my all. 

 

Despite popular belief I am actually naturally a very submissive woman. You would never see that coming...if you knew me.... I have only just recently come to grips with that. I genuinely get a sense of self fulfillment and peace when I serve. Cooking and taking care of my surroundings among other things are things that are not chores for me, they are things I love to do. As long as I can consistently create and the situation is constantly expanding my mind in all spontaneity and creativity it puts me at ease. 

 

I take pleasure in greetings at the door, anticipating ones needs/wants, spoiling ones body, bowing, showing the respect warranted without reservation to the person who earns it, and so many other things... When I say that I am yours, I dedicate myself completely to you (not just my body). 

 

 

 

 

 


7/19/2012 1:39:02 PM

Fault Confession Ramblings (My rather dominant side)

 

I like to "cut to the chase" with a take it or leave it outlook. Although I am a very caring and loving person, it takes a lot for me to expose it- if I ever do. (I can actually come off as emotionless and carefree). I am sometimes really spiteful but looking at my innocent like face you would never guess it and my genuinely nice character, one could never guess it. I know the second i meet someone whether I want them in my life or not because I observe and notice everything... even if I choose not to make the person aware that I am paying attention. I tend to be extremely sarcastic when I am angry to prevent hurting peoples feelings. Once you are on my bad side, you stay there- no matter what I say to make you think otherwise (it takes a lot and I do mean a lot to get on that side) if i take you out of that category somehow, things will still never be the same between us.

 

People see me as very charismatic and engaging, but I am actually unreachable and evasive. There is a high amount of mystery to me that I do not deny. Once you think you have figured me out, you find that there are many more layers. I do not normally try to impress anyone, it just happens and people think it is because I wanted it to... Truth be told, it was the last thing on my mind. I am just as comfortable around other people as I am alone and I have to have a balance of both. As far as lying goes... I am a terrible liar, this is why I am either blatantly honest or completely silent if I am in a situation in which I may have to do so. My pride is extremely high... However, I am very open-minded.

 

I play dumb on purpose sometimes just to see where someone will take something and how far they will go. Chances are usually high that I know whatever you think that I do not, you just assumed I didn't know... If you make me happy, I will go completely out of my way to make sure that I make you happier then you ever made me. I am highly turned on by intellect, humor, open-mindedness, variety, ideas, uniqueness, creativity, imagination... I am anything but predictable with a little natural rebellious reputation. Once I make up my mind, it will be quite an arduous task to change it...I will take into account your argument, but I am rather stubborn- only I can change my mind.

 

I am unfortunately often judged by first impressions as to be "high saddity" (if there is such a thing and possibly quite often conceited). Trust me that is not how I mean to come off- I am not really thinking about how I come off until someone actually says something to me. Once people start really talking to me they usually find that I am nothing like how I may appear....I just carry myself differently. After all.... looks can be highly deceiving!  


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pherries
 
 Age: 25
 Baltimore, Maryland