I saw A Dangerous Method last night and it reminded me of my own journey and how dismal my search is going.  Can't seem to find my partner.  Someone with similar vanilla interests, intellectually curious with a serious kinky/dominant side.  

I think this site should start a recruiting program because I hear too many disappointment stories here.

But I endeavor, waiting for my prince whom I will serve.

I've been very inconsistent with my search.  I go through phases where I feel determined and other times where I'm totally turned off by this site.  I'm starting to think what I seek just doesn't exist, except in my head.  I'm not some hungry desperado who's looking for "rough white boys" to screw.  Some of the guys on here lack tact. Memo to viewers, screwing white boys isn't that hard for me, so if you think there is something unusual or taboo or even new about interracial dating you probably shouldn't contact me.  

I'm thinking that what I seek is just a fantasy, and it's a little childish to chase fantasies.  I'm after a committed relationship--a very special committed relationship where our intimacy has a bit of a twist.  I seek something that on the outside looks like a vanilla relationship between two healthy-minded, fit-bodied, progressive happy people.

Why is that so much to ask?