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After making significant life changes it is time to rewrite my profile.? My original profile can be found in my journal.

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I have been a slave to KnightofMists since 2005 and at the end of 2007 I moved in with him and Alandra.? The time that we spent long distance was an extreme challenge that brought us closer together and strengthened our relationship immensely.? The work we did during that time has made the transition to living together very simple.

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We view an M/s relationship to be one that is focused on the transfer of all authority from the slave to the master.? There is no aspect of mine or Alandra?s life that he cannot exercise authority over.? Any perceived authority that she and I have in our lives has been delegated to us by him.? He will exercise his authority in the manner that he chooses and those things that he has no interest in controlling he will delegate back to us.

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In our relationship, poly is about being a family.? All three of us have individual relationships with each other, but the most important is the relationship between the three of us.? Some of our strengths as a family are that we focus on what is best for the relationship and we are all on the same side when issues arise in life.

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The M/s structure is the foundation of our relationship; it requires absolute obedience on mine and Alandra?s part and his commitment to his moral code to ?harm none?.? The family is our primary focus and SM play is one of the ways that we like to have fun.

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He is very sadistic and our play can be intense and thrilling.? The only rule we have in play is that we are to be uninhibited in our reactions.? I tend to become aggressive during play and it is not unusual for me to fight back.? However, play is only a small part of our lives.

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We enjoy traveling to weekend events and tend to be most comfortable at Leather events though we do not identify as Leather.? It is an opportunity for us to interact with others and share our views and thoughts on what makes us successful.? We also get to indulge our desire to dress up in wear and costumes.?

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Some we have met, view us as high protocol and somewhat formal in our interactions.? Most of our behaviors are second nature to us now and just a part of how we work together.? Most of them are unobtrusive and would not be noticed by others.? Other than the fact that there are three of us in this relationship, we do not appear to be much different than many mainstream couples.

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He and Alandra both have profiles here and all requests for chat or emails should be sent directly to him.? I come here to participate on the message boards; to hear other people?s thoughts and deepen my own understanding of the life that I live.

Knight's Kyra

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3/13/2008 6:43:53 PM

This is the original profile that I wrote in 2005.

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I have traveled a long path of self-discovery to get to where I am today. Each day I take new steps along this path and learn more about myself and how to be true to the inner-girl. In November of 2004, I began exchanging emails with my Lord, Knight of Mists, and He became teacher and friend helping me discover my own path in this lifestyle.

Early in the friendship we came to realize that this was more than a simple exchange of ideas and thoughts between a Dominant and a submissive.  The possibility of a deep lasting relationship was there. However that would be a path full of challenges and obstacles. There was a slow learning and growth of the relationship and feelings quietly grew while I challenged myself and worked on improving me. Then there was nothing left to do but answer the question "is this real; can I give myself to Him completely?"

In May of 2005, I flew to meet my Lord and His girl. From the moment He touched me, I was His. As I got to know His slave alandra, I found a kindred spirit; a woman to share myself with and to just sit together in comfortable silences.  The sheer perfection when the three of us together cannot be explained.  There is an energy and natural flow with our interactions that many have commented on. 

Each day I grow and become more confident in the choices that I have made.  More confident with myself and who I am and who I am becoming.  I am learning what my strengths are and how to develop them.  I am learning that these strengths are what make me a valuable slave to my Lord.  I am never more at peace than when I am within His grip and feeling the gentle touch of my sis. 


This path I have chosen is not always an easy one.  There has been pain and growth along the way.  Each challenge brings renewed commitment that I am His and that I am where I belong. The distance challenges us all and there is much time still until I will be within arms reach of them both. Home is where the heart is and my heart is with my Lord and alandra. One day I will go home for good.  

6/21/2007 7:27:20 PM

Looking back I can see how far I have come in the past two and a half years.  The path from single, independent, strong woman to devoted slave in an inter-dependent relationship has been filled with many growing pains.  The first shift in perspective was just remembering that I was no longer allowed to do what I wanted and that I had to consult someone else to find out what they wanted of me.  For the things that were fun and rewarding it was an easy shift to make.  It has not been so easy for the things that are contrary to the choices that I would make.

 

Then I had to learn to gracefully do the things that I really did not want to do just because he said to do it.  There were times that I was not so accepting of my role in the relationship in those moments.  Grace in submission is not a phrase that would have been used to describe those growing pains.  At times I am not so sure who I was angrier at, him for making me do it or myself for choosing to do it.

 

There is no mistake that in all of the steps I have taken, I have made the choice to go there.  He is certain to remind me that it is my choice, my consent that keeps me doing his will.  Many times that choice is automatic and done without much thought and other times it is made after painful contemplation of the consequences.

 

Lately, I find myself at peace more often.  The niche that has been carved out for me in this relationship has become more comfortable.  I am more certain of my place with him and Alandra and my faith in him is growing every day.  I have just come through another growing pains period.  I am learning to accept what is and have faith that this is where I need to be. 

 

The path is getting easier for now and I can see where I need to go.  The next step is letting go of making the decisions in my head.  Even though it is not my will that I obey, I am still mentally making decisions that he chooses to make.  Doing this is stressful when my decision is not what he decides.  I need to let go of going through that process and wait for him to tell me his will.

 

I tend to hold onto the familiar even if the familiar has not brought me happiness in the past.  I have clung to the mainstream, monogamous conditioning because it has been all that I knew.  Letting go of that is terrifying and freeing all at the same time.  I think that this is as much about accepting me and what makes me happy as it is about accepting him and our relationship.  To love is to accept; to love me I have to accept that this strong, independent woman is happier and more at peace as a devoted slave to him than I have ever been in a monogamous, mainstream relationship.
11/8/2005 4:02:05 AM
It was one year ago today that I met my Lord.  I went into a chat room with the desire to just meet people who shared the same interests that I did and learn what I could while I worked up the courage to actually go to a munch.  My first night in chat, I met my Lord and was immediately welcomed by Him.  When we chat now in the same or similar rooms I always smile to myself as I watch Him greet newcomers like He did me knowing that the simple attention can make such a difference.

He and I started emailing that same night with no expectation other than to simply enjoy the interaction.  I had no thought in my head to have a relationship with Him, for the simple fact that I wasn't really looking for one and because He and I lived about 3,000 miles apart.  All I wanted was someone to answer the questions that I had and to be available to answer questions in the future.

Gradually, the interactions grew to be more and more.  Trust was slowly built; thoughts and opinions were shared, respect was earned and feelings grew.  He became friend and confidant with no expectation of submission on my part.  He encouraged me to ask questions of Him and others to gain multiple perspectives.  He helped me discover that my desire was to live this life every single day and not stay out on the edges.  Hours and hours of thought provoking conversations explored my deepest desires and the things I have always tried to suppress in myself.  I discovered that I had the courage to go to munches, play parties and meetings.

The path to starting this relationship with my Lord was not a reckless one.  Due consideration was given to all the risks involved and steps were taken to minimize them.  On April 30th of this year I offered myself to Him and became His slave.  The amount of growth that has occurred in the past six months exceeds all my expectations.  It has not been just growth in the lifestyle but personal growth as well, learning about my character strengths and seekeing to enhance them, discovering my weaknesses and how to improve them.

THe relationship with my sis helps balance the intensity of my Lord.  It is a relationship full of laughter, teasing, quiet talks and comfortable silences.  Being in a poly relationship has given me the best of both worlds.  I get to revel in the sadistic nature of my Lord and let Him take me to new heights of pain and pleasure and I take comfort in the peacefulness of a kindred spirit in my sis.  Our relationships are full of laughter, love, challenges and growth.

Being His slave is not a role I perform; it is the life I lead.  I have learned that being a strong, independent woman is not contradictory to the life of a slave, but it is an asset to my Lord and His House.  I have given Him the riegns to my life and I have trust and faith that He will guide me in new directions that will only increase my value to self and to Him.  I am most at peace and content when I am wearing His collar and pleasing Him.

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