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| I'm equal parts evil bastard, bratty top, cuddly sadist, and sick twisted fuck.
> "I'd call you a perv, but that's sort of an understatement" - @Silverdreams, in reply to my comment about uses of fondue forks (via Twitter)
After exploring the world of kink for the past couple of years, I've discovered a lot about myself and have finally come to accept who I am. In this journey, I've met countless amazing people, gained skills and experiece I'd never expected to acquire, done things that exist only in the darkest fantasies of "normal" beings, and had more fun than any sane person deserves. More than anything, I've finally found a place I truly belong and a chosen family in which I feel comfortable.
The driving force in my life is a thirst for knowledge. I strive to pick up as much information as possible about anything I encounter. Every experience, be it positive or negative, is an educational opportunity. Parties, informal gatherings, classes, friendly discussions, and solitary study are some of the many ways I feed my addiction. The day I stop learning is the day I die! Yup, I'm definitely a geek.
Traditional labels are way too inflexible and I prefer to avoid them whenever possible. The chemistry that exists with my partner determines how I interact with them. I greatly relish the dominant part of my personality. Topping with a minimal D/s component is also incredibly satisfying. The discovery of my sadistic streak was both a surprise and a delight. I jokingly refer to myself as a *cuddly sadist*, as I both enjoy to induce incredibly intense sensation and then take time to focus completely on my partner's aftercare. With the right person, I might switch. Complexity is so much fun!
**Please note that just because I identify as a sadist, it doesn't mean that my only interest is inflicting pain.** I subscribe to Midori's definition of a sadist as one who enjoys inflicting intense sensation. This could be pain or pleasure, physical or mental. I also enjoy D/s play immensely and, with the right partner, am more than happy to allow my sadistic tendencies to take a back seat to my dominant side.
Communication is the key to all interactions in life. I am a strong proponent of being able to discuss any topic in an open and honest manner. Constructive criticism is always welcome. I believe that being a top/dom doesn't mean you are always right. Some may think that makes me less than a "twue dominate," but so be it. I'd rather check my ego at the door and let the connection with my partner guide us. Just because someone is a bottom/submissive, it doesn't mean that they are a doormat. Unless that's what we've negotiated, of course…
While seriousness has it's place, the ability to laugh is also important. There is an opportunity for humor in practically any scene. One particularly amusing discussion centered around a hand puppet and flogging to the the theme to a children's TV show. Giggling during a scene is highly encouraged. You'll notice I didn't say who would be doing the giggling…
One of my greatest passions is pervertibles. It's amazing what fun toys can be found in the kitchen or office supply store. Every trip into the outside world is an opportunity to add something strange, evil, and/or appalling to my toybag. There is a certain joy to hearing the words "what the fuck?!?" escape a bottom's lips when they see what weird implements I've pulled from my collection. Also, you really must check out my garden weasel! That is **not** a euphemism, by the way…
Above all else, my sadistic side loves to make people squirm. Whether I'm beating on surgical staples I've placed over a series of needles with a meat tenderizer, sizzling someone with a violet wand, sinking my teeth into the fleshy bit of a shoulder, or trying to find out just how many orgasms I can induce, I experience child-like glee at every twitch, moan, scream, or giggle I invoke from my partner. I revel in fact that I'm a sick, twisted fuck, albeit a cuddly one.
**I'm just a sweet, innocent boy, ya know… **
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