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i'm on my way out of a marriage and hopefully on my way into a new relationship. i'm hoping to find an intellectual equal (i have an ivy league degree) and a man who is strong enough and confident in himself that he doesn't need to posture. And he needs to be patient - due to the legal proceedings, i can't afford to have an affair until the divorce is final. But play, mutual self-gratification, etc is all fine with me! i'm a hard core submissive with a slave deep inside of me. i love inescapable bondage... resistance play... fantasy kidnapping... impact play...

12/14/2006 11:47:24 AM

Some days don't you feel like too much is happening at once?  Things are again changing in my life in a major and I'm not sure what it means yet.  Until then, I'm going to be inactive here for at least a few weeks.

12/11/2006 4:23:48 AM
I'm feeling sad today.  The soon-to-be-ex may get the kids for all of Christmas, which will leave me pretty much alone.  I'm not sure what to do.  Maybe it will work out differently.
12/9/2006 4:45:37 AM
Many are writing me and for them the bdsm aspect is foreplay.  That is a legitimate need, and one that I respect and have enjoyed in the past.  But if you can't participate in bdsm as an end to itself, I'm not the right match for you.  I'm simply not available for sexual activities right now.  Don't worry about me though - I have opportunities to play at least weekly, and I'm quite skilled at self gratification when I need that physical release.  And it's not usually connected with a play session - that sub-space is very satisfying!
12/7/2006 7:39:46 PM
my journal entries make it look like i am alone in the lifestyle right now.  i'm not.  i'll explain the situation when i get to know you, but rest assured that i am free and even encouraged to pursue play partners.

be comfortable with the idea that our first play might be in a group setting - a very accepting and extremely private group.  you might get to play with others as well.  and you can watch others play.  from a sub's point of view, it's about the safest way to play with a new partner.  i like safety.
12/1/2006 3:03:28 PM

i'm in a totally different place than i've ever been in my life.  i'm very happy and content.  i am whole, all by myself.  i don't need something or someone external to complete me.  what a concept!  so why am i here, looking?  it's easy...  this kind of happiness is meant to be shared.  i'll be the submissive and even the slave of a man who is equally content with himself.  there is no desperate searching going on here... when we find each other we'll be fascinated by each other's life.  the dominant/submissive part will just fall in place in a very natural way because of who we are.

11/7/2006 4:37:24 PM

perhaps i'm unusual...  i see in a lot of Dom profiles promises to reveal a new world of the wonders of submission...  i don't need to be shown that world, i've been in it, lived it, loved it.  the one i am seeking is equally experienced.  one who is tired of the "wanna be" subs.  one who values my commitment to chastity until my marriage is dissolved, knowing that the same fervent obedience will be applied to promises made in the future.

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 Age: 35
 Tokyo, Japan