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What to write.....what to right? I am Velma, hence the my name "jinkies" someone will appreciate the cheesy humor I hope. Nice to meet everyone out there in the on-line world. I am so excited and terrified in such a sweet contradictory storm of feelings about choosing how I want to live the rest of my life. I have struggled long time between the vanilla world and the lifestyle. Like a great war inside me eventually one side had to win out or risk burning out the soul. As I make this profile I feel like a vanilla girl who just accepted a engagement ring. Because I have taken that step of my life away. I am committed to living in the lifestyle as a slave and am not ever looking to be married in the vanilla way. I am a college graduate with a degree in communications. I currently work for the Forrest Service. While I desire to live and be a consensual slave. Maybe I will be the right one for you? In the vanilla department: I am a bit of a nerd. I don't think I am particularly much to look at. I have what I would call an average body type. I enjoy reading and music. I listen to all kinds, I am an old soul deep down but I love the beats of my generation as well. In the lifestyle department: I have played around quite a bit. I play with a local group from Denver when I travel back home. I would be described as true sexual masochist, a nymphomaniac, and the absolute bottom the lifestyle totem pole. I am docile and shy, a bit off and quirky, but I am unique and like no one else. My pleasure is pleasing others and while young I have the maturity of earl life and lifestyle experience that most my age don't have. My father died when I was young and my mother often was to busy shooting up with heroin or meth to bother with my younger brother and I. I had to pretty much take care of my brother and our home after my dad died and my mom went to drugs to deal with her grief. My mom ODed when I was 17 and then my grandmother took custody of my brother and I was free to go to college. If not for my grandma stepping up in our moment of need I would have never been able to better myself and go to college. But in full disclosure, the scars of my childhood are still with me. And while I have never had suicidal thoughts or tendencies, I have my own issues and sometimes suffer from depression. I am sometimes, even though it embarrasses me to admit it publicly, "a cutter." I never cut to harm myself, I do it for the endorphins it releases. It helps sometimes. Because I swore to myself and my brother that I would never do drugs and I never have. Even though I do sometimes struggle with depression, I am generally happy and easy to be around. I am a follower, not a leader and I don't let my issues bring anyone else down. My personal pains are suffered in private and alone. For many reasons this lifestyle is what is best for me. But also it is naturally who I am and what I was probably born to be.

3/12/2017 6:09:10 PM Woah! Message Overload. Let me try and help stem the tide. I have no interest in being someones daughter, I am not a little. I have no interest in hypnosis, cybering and really cannot reply to one line messages. There are just way to many messages to deal with and no way I can answer them all. So those who write an actual message will get a better chance of a reply. I will scroll over all messages and even if it looks like it is being deleted unread, it is not. Its just quicker to scroll over the short ones then to click on each one.