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As a teenager, i was a very short, shy, wimpy kid who was afraid of Girls. So naturally, i didn’t have any Girlfriends. i therefore had no choice but to jerk off. In fact, i soon became a compulsive jerk-off. i used to jerk-off at least 7 times a day, and often a lot more. But jerking off used to fill me with such self-loathing, and other negative feelings about myself, that i never, never, ever, admitted to anyone that i ever jerked off. As time went by, not only did i continue jerking off, but i developed a deep fascination with BDSM. i soon added a repertoire of self-bondage, self-flagellation, and other self-inflicted forms of BDSM to my jerk-off sessions. Perhaps BDSM acted as an expression of my self-loathing. But instead of my self-punishment freeing me from the guilt of jerking off, it only made me feel like even more of a pervert, and augmented my feelings of self-loathing. Of course, being the type of kid that i was, i used to get relentlessly teased by the other Guys. But what i hated the most was when Somebody called me a jerk-off. Yet, it’s not like Anyone actually knew that i was a jerk-off. Maybe They suspected, but it’s not like They really knew; because as i said, i never admitted to Anyone that i ever jerked off. jerk-off was just a derogatory expression that Boys of that age used. But when Somebody called me a jerk-off, it used to wound me down to my very soul. It wounded me so deeply, because deep inside, i knew the truth. i knew that a jerk-off is exactly what i was. The only way i survived my childhood was by promising myself that one day, i’d get back at Everyone! i'd get back at Them all! i’d get back at Them by marrying the most beautiful, sexy Woman in the world. i’d get back at Them by making Them all jealous over what a beautiful, sexy Wife i had. And then it would be okay. It would be okay, because not only would i be getting back at all my childhood tormenters, but i wouldn’t have to loath myself anymore. i’d have a beautiful, sexy Wife who would be glad to let me fuck Her whenever i wanted, and i’d never have to jerk off again. Amazingly, i did end up marrying an amazingly beautiful, sexy Woman! my Marriage started out just like i hoped in all of my dreams. It was more than i could ever have wished for. But little by little, things started to change. Little by little, i learned that She wasn't fooled. i learned that She always realized that i was still the short, wimpy, nerd i was as a boy, and that the reason She married me wasn't to be the submissive little wife. She married me to make me Her slave. And She knew just what to do, all the right strings to pull, to accomplish Her aim. Alas, it wasn’t long before my Wife made me into Her full time, 24/7 slave. As time went on, the manner of our sexual relationship also changed accordingly. Eventually, She told me i was no longer fit to have any sexual contact with Her, or for that matter, with any other Woman, ever again. She's made it clear that i will never again have any sexual contact with Her, or any other Woman, for the rest of my life! Now, the only way my Mistress Wife lets me cum is by jerking off. So once again, i’m a complete and total jerk-off in every way. i have come to accept that i will remain a complete and total jerk-off for the rest of my life. But there is one difference between my situation now, and when i was a boy. Now, i love being a jerk-off! i love it, and i’m so proud of it! my Mistress Wife has helped me see that a jerk-off is what i am, and what i was always meant to be! Being a good sex-slave to my Mistress Wife, and a real and true jerk-off, is what i excel at! It’s my fate, and i couldn’t escape it even if i tried. So i’ve learned to just accept that i'm a real and true, complete and total jerk-off, and enjoy it for all it’s worth. And by doing so, i’ve never been happier in my whole life! So i got married, hoping to have A Wife who would let me fuck Her whenever i want, and i'd never, ever have to jerk off again. Instead, by getting married, i will never, ever fuck A Woman again, and will remain a jerk-off for the rest of my life. How wonderful is that! But now, my Mistress Wife says that if i’m really and truly to accept myself as a jerk-off, there is something else that i still need to do. i need to acknowledge that as a complete and total jerk-off, it renders me inferior to other, Superior Males. But She says there’s only one way i can truly learn to accept this. She says that to learn to acknowledge and accept my inferior status to other, Superior Males, i must proudly proclaim my inferiority directly to another Superior Male, and tangibly demonstrate it to Him. But how do i go about doing that? my Mistress Wife says i must willingly offer myself to A Superior Male, and show Him that i'm happy and proud to allow Him to treat me as an inferior male should be treated. She says the only way i can truly demonstrate that i fully acknowledge and accept my inferiority to Him, is by getting down on my knees, and willingly and proudly suck His Cock, and worship Him in any other way that He demands! So i’m now very eager and anxious to have some Superior Male train me to be His cocksucker. When i can proudly declare myself as not only a complete and total jerk-off, but a real and true cocksucker, who loves sucking Superior Men’s Cocks, will i know i’ve fulfilled my destiny. When i can do this, finally, i’ll be completely happy and content with whom i am. i can't wait!

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asubgirl
 
 Age: 18
  Arizona