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More to come:
Once I am able to more accurately place my finger on exactly what my expectancy is, maybe my message to onlookers will be more elegant and less general.
That said, smile at a stranger today. They may just smile back.
A note:
To those who feel my profile to be a bit thin and wanting for information..
I am more complex than button clicks and canned xyz responses. Appreciate that I care implicitly what is written about me, and prefer not to open with 'lol im a sub b my master plz'.
(I think I threw up in my mouth a little writing that last bit >.>)
Addendum to note:
Please do not mistake my penchant for proper grammar and punctuation for disrespect. After all, I've had a great many years being trained in how to effectively communicate the written English language. I take pride in that dwindling art and I would hope that would be looked on favorably as opposed to willful disregard for station.
Bless.
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I actually stumbled into the life rather by accident a few years ago. I say this knowing that such a world existed, but didn't really think I had a part in it myself. So my knowledge extends beyond my actual experience, but I liken it to medical school. You can read about how to operate, and then you actually cut open a cadaver and find out just how ill-prepared cracking a book makes you when faced with the real thing.
My experience was actually rather wonderful, like finding the last piece in a strange puzzle that didn't make much logical sense until you fit it in and backed up a bit. As a whole, I'm grateful to him for inspiring me to seek out more of this world and understand what it fulfills for me.
After a year of being together, and thinking myself a devoted student and pet I was crushed when I received an e-mail stating the reason for a very sudden week long absence in my life. He didn't want to be responsible for being dominant to someone else. He didn't want a pet. He didn't want anything to do with this life and he was pretending be interested, because it interested me. It was suddenly strange, deviant and wrong.
Physical, mental, emotional abandonment is a tough pill to swallow. I still struggle with the ability to accept that his sudden decision not to be involved in the world of dominance and submission had little to do with me and who I was. Of course, this has unfortunate reprocussions against those who would walk the future of my path with me. For that, I can only ask for patience, understanding and a gentle hand to reassure that not everyone I meet is simply going to cut and run and call me a freak.
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| Age: 27 |
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