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well, 6 months have gone by and i still have my collar and im starting to feel my submission growing and quite fankly ITS SCAREY because Daddy isnt here to help me through it and some of hese things i need to explore and no one to help me explore them. no im not askin for volunteers just ranting BUT anyways..the reason for my jurnaling at ths hour is ive met/known a few goos guys and they have made some very wise statements. i wont mention names i shall let them keep their prvacy but if they see this the know they have it on their profile..
1)It is not the kiss of the whip, but the whispered word... To please one's flesh lasts but a moment; to touch one's soul lasts a lifetime.... my interpritation would be this is totally accurate. Yes, i love the whip but if it werent for the soft hand carressing my kneck whispering naughtys into my ear, the moment would be lost..it truey enhances the experience. his words have the tendency to "make you beg with desire or cry with joy." both of which ive done less than 90 sec apart..lol
2)It’s said that before you can master others you must master your own life....
A strong Master,is one that knows who and what he is before anything else. He is comfortable in what He has achieved in the world..2 different men, same concept.
so were am i going with all this, i dont know..just som thoughts to ponder for those that are lucky enough to have wonderful Doms that master themselve as much as they master there sub/slave and for those of us that enjoy whips and canes and wht not, ponder over what the whispers and sensual words do for you while the whip is catching you n just the right spots. Would likesome feedback on my mental out pourig today..ive had a lot to think about after a recent scene and come to trust mself to know when ive had enough and the Dom to be able to read my body launguage and know whats enough and whts too much. So far ive never had an issue with a Dom going to far, it was an onlooker but we wont go there.. sowhat if i like black and blue welts on my ass? i know im not the only one...and Sir, if you are reading this its been 8 days and im still black and blue :D;)
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ok so i guess i have a lot of cathching up to do n my journal. i am now collared and am not looking to play. period. except maybe an occasional female Daddy approves. i love being collared and am trying my best to learn how best to make Daddy happy. with him not being home much (due to work) it hard for me to get my training. As a result i keep getting my self in trouble with Daddy. Anyone that might have suggestions how to keep oneself in check when Master is away would be reatly appreciated |
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i had a play date yesterday with an older dom and things went great. i had a great time and was definitly satisfied. However afterwards i was missing Daddy even more. After doing much considering and thinking things through (still need to talk with Daddy and find out why im going through these feelings and if he wants me out playing) i have decided to keep my playing strictly online for a time.i know this is dissapointing to those of you that i have talke to about possibly meeting but i just felt as if it were a betrayal to Daddy..even though i had gotten permission.feel free to message me if you know why im feeling as i do.... |
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ok so i will forwarn you that my upcoming statement is not my attempt at finding a submissive to play with or own or anything to that extent. my intent in this journal entry is to find a submissive female or male, or a slave male or female that is willing to talk to me and explain some of the ways to respect/disrespect Master, some things that please Master, somethings that a new submissive or slave should know..whatever knowledge youa re willing to share would be awesome. Daddy has asked me to do this because although he is wanting and willing to train me, he isnt home enough to get thing accomplished very efficiently and he thinks some learning on my own will help. My goalis to please Daddy and serve him to the best of my ability. to prove my loyalty and sincerity in this matter. |
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i had a very good valentines day. Daddy came through ft wayne for the nite and spent it with me. waking up with him sat morning and getting my ass fucked was very nice. and then that nite i went and played (with permission of course) and got flogged and whipped and a riding crop to my nipples (damn tha was hot) and had a great time. now tonite im going out for dinner with my b/f to celebrate. over all i had a wonderful valentines day. hope everyone else did as well |
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I guess im a little to eager and jump to conclusions too soon. I was under the impression i was getting my collar while Daddy was in. I didnot. I am dissapointed in my self for assuming what i did not know for sure. Im sure it will all work out in its own time im just impatient.. I do not know why but it is also my place to have faith in Daddy and know that he knows what is best for his little girl and when he says i am to be collared then it will be. Until then i will not question Daddys decision. im sure he knows whats best.
Wow! i had suchan amazing time wit Daddy while he was in. He is such a kind and caring Daddy. I am a very lucky little slut |
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UPDATE: the hand is healing and i am able to type now without pain. It still hurts some but not nearly as bad. i am answering and responding to emails again..but this week i may be a few days behind cause i have a lot of training to do. Daddy is coming home. I will post a pic as soon as i get my collar. He is supposed to go pick it up when he gets home |
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Hello..if you message me and i dont respond back in the next week or so, gimmi a lil bit of time, i will respond. I have injured my hand and it makes it very difficult to type. I can click and read with one hand so i am still reading messages, just waiting on hand to feel better before i try and do much typing. :) |
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well i would say im contented but that does not even begin to descibe what im feeling..i have finally found what makes me happy and what im meant to do..ive always had vanilla relationships until my last b/f. we decided to try swinging but he decide it wasnt for him. One of my encounters led me to my Daddy and hes WONDERFUL..everthing that makes me happy. we have so many interesting things in common (such as the nasty kinky things we wanna do together) Even though this is a new journey for me, i am thrilled to have the honer of being his nasty little one. Kinda makes me blush but i still get butterflys in my stomach when we talk.;)especially since im a newbie i know i dont deserve his experience but im hoping he will teach me to be an obedient nasty little slut and slave..we shall see :D |
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OK well this is my first entry, not real sure what to put here so for now ill just put what im really wanting..Im horny and havent had sex in a week (for me thats horrible, i have a very active libido) ok well its only been a few days but its been a week since i had satisfying sex..have ya ever had sex with some one just so they will shut up about it and get off your back about having sex, well thats what my boyfriend is doing..anyways, the sex last weekend was awesome, definitly less vanilla. I gotta say i learned a valuable lesson real quick, water isnt a good lube. Tried getting fisted in a jacuzzi and i was sore for a day or two...ok well until i find something more interesting to comment about..CYA |
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