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	not looking at this time. I am owned currently. Hello my name is Jennifer. I am looking for a very passionate person to be in a relationship with. I have had too many relationships for my age in my opinion. I want something long term and solid. I want a lot from the person I expect to spend the rest of my life with. So if you are going to lie about what you are don't bother. I don't want to waste my time. I have wasted too much of my life already looking for someone. Please no Doms that say I can train you and just beat subs down. Don't message me at all if you are that type. At any point you see something you don't understand about me ask and I will explain it to you. I try to make everything as honest and clear as I can. It takes me a little while to open up to others. I am shy at first but when I feel comfortable I start speaking up. I am a kitty at heart and I act like one most of the time. I am easy to understand if you take that perspective. I want a kind and loving master that can be firm when I need it. I do not make very good decisions most of the time so you would probably make most for me. I am very honest with my opinions and most people don't like that. If you don't like honesty stop reading. I want a master that understands that there has to be some normalcy in life. Every moment cant be bdsm for me. I want to play my video games, talk to my family and friends and still have all the kinkiness satisfied. Balance is simply what I want. I have not found that yet and really need it. Here are all the words that come to my mind when I think of the master i want. Male, long-term, respects boundaries, passionate, high sex drive, understanding, honest, creative, older than me, sadist, teacher, able to tame me, somewhat normal life, weird to others, confident, and someone I could spend the rest of my life with. I am working with someone working with subspace. Its opened me up to somethings. I have to make sure I am going to be safe with who i chose as my master. I enter subspace too easily and I am not able to say no. I am going to be more picky now that I know what happens to me. Here is another part that people wont like but I am honest about it. I am not racist I am generally not attracted to men of any other race but white (willing to reconsider it). I don't want to waste any ones time so I had to say it. Think of me how you will and deal with it. No older than than my actually parents ages. My mom was born in 1962 and my dad in 1958. I cant cross that line mentally. I usually look at messages though but I am picky. It comes from experience of my relationships and what I have seen around me. Now the hardest part is out of the way I can get to a better part. I have a few fantasies and I have trouble telling people what they are so they would have to be dragged out of me if you can manage to do it. I am willing to try most things once and I will give you my opinion about it. There are things I wont do especially things that cause permanent damage. I am a baby girl sub. But on most things I am open to try. If you don't try things how to you know if you like them? One BIG thing: I don't want anymore kids. If you are wondering why I dont want to have kids I will give the answer right now. I am unable to give up my time and life for another human being that is dependent on me for the rest of their life. I am mature but still like being a kid at times. I am not able to provide what a child needs to be raised. I am not patient and i have a hard time communicating with children of younger ages. I wont bring another life into this world when i cant give what they need to be raised right. If reading this makes you interested please message me and I will give more contact info if I feel a connection.

6/26/2014 6:36:08 PM

i am a happily owned kitty now. i dont want to meet up with anyone at all. i will be looking for friends only. if anyone cant respect this dont message me at all.

5/15/2014 12:17:06 PM

I am feeling like i am hitting so many walls and falling down a lot of holes. I am getting better and then everything around me starts to get fucked up. I have had more family members being sick or facing operations than i would care to hear about. I am overwhelmed right now. I need a break from all this crap. I suffer from depression myself so its harder to deal with everything like this. I just need to talk to someone.

5/10/2014 6:55:25 PM

Last night was awesome. I went to club101 and enjoyed myself thoroughly. Cant find the words to describe how i felt there. I was nervous at first but i was able to let go of myself and had lots of fun. I liked it more than i thought i would. I want to explore now. I cant get the thought of learning more out of my mind. I want more experience.

4/16/2014 6:08:59 PM

This is something I wrote today. It explains how I veiw my journey into learning about bdsm.

I feel like I have been standing in a doorway to another realm for 8 years. Just waiting for someone to let me in for a longer time than the last. I have been in the new world 3 times but I haven't experienced much. This time I hope I can stay in this wonderful world with my new guide. I hope this journey is much deeper and lasts longer. I'm having patience with my guide. I want to explore so much but I don't want to get lost by myself. I can't handle the other travelers on my own. I have to explore at my guide's pace. I don't know the rules or custom of this world. I want to learn them and be of this place.

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