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| I am looking for friends. That’s pretty much it at this point. ANY relationship I might have now or in the future will start with friendship and work from there. I’m not saying that I’m closed to the idea of a relationship, but I just ain’t jumping into that river feet first and hope for the best. I need to make a few things VERY clear. First, NO NO NO Poly relationships. I am not good at being a "third wheel" and I refuse to be in a relationship and feel lonely or left out, so I just won’t go there. Second, if you lie to me, GOOD-BYE. I have let that kind of thing slide before and I will not go there again either. I don’t care if you tell me your hair is pink when it’s actually purple, or that you have 4.5 inch toenails and you have 6 inch toenails---if you lie to me about something unimportant, you’ll lie about the more important things.
Let’s see, what else….if you are looking for a sugar mommy or a money sub or anything on that order, you’re barking up the wrong tree---I support the ones that I am responsible for---anyone else will either work or be independently wealthy or have some other LEGAL form of income.
Ok, so you’re probably thinking to yourself….THIS claims to be a submissive? Hmmmmmm…well, yes, I am, but I am NOT the typical….I am completely abnormal J I have a life, a job, self-sufficient, single mom. I am not a "I need a big strong Dom to pull me out of my misery and take me away." Nope, I have learned over time, there ARE worse things than being single. I AM responsible for my own happiness… and with the help of some very good friends, I have realized the kind of person I really am. I am a strong person, and when faced with adversity, I will face it head on and come out of the turmoil even stronger. I will not bring anyone into my world that cannot add to my world….if I ever do become involved with someone, it will be someone that understands what this means.
Well, now that I’ve totally freaked some folks, scared others, and left some scratching their heads…I will add a little more. I DO play with others….lol. I am just very selective of WHO I play with….I must know you or have friends that know you that can vouch for your "safety"…and even then, it will be in a safe venue. I have some hard limits, but many of my limits morph to the person/situation/etc.
Now, if you’ve read to this point----you’re more than welcome to message me….lol.
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It's been a little over a year since I last updated this. And what a year it has been--a very strange year. I"m still single---just staying that way to keep my sanity at this point. I have had a love affair with the medical community over the last 6 months. Had my appendix taken out---apparently gangrene is NOT a good thing and if it had completely ruptured instead of perforating---well, I probably wouldn't be here to update this. I didn't have a clue---thought I was having kidney issues...lol. Less than 2 days later, they were talking about sending me home, but apparently you can't go home with a large internal hematoma/blood clot---so back into surgery and this time, they left a rather large opening to make sure everything did what it was supposed to do.....large enough (and this is not for the faint of heart) to put your hand into it past your wrist with some wiggle room---how do I know---imagine my surprise when my doc showed me that. Yes---it was quite amazing. Then 3 weeks 2 different hospitals---and a week after I got out I went back to work...yeah, i'm nuts. And all that was happy birthday to me---it all started 3 days before my 41st birthday. WOOOOHOOOOO...what a party that was---I got a bowl of strained cream of chicken soup instead of cake---OMG..NASTY CRAP!!!
The most amazing part---thanks to my doc who said I was NOT to be allowed outside during the 2 weeks at the second hospital and the help of some amazing pain medications---I quit smoking. It's been 6 months and I haven't had a cigarette (not saying that I haven't thought about strangling someone for one). And the next most amazing thing---thanks to the back to back surgeries and probably those years that I smoked---I now have Asthma--but it's controlled with meds and getting better. I also have had kidney stones and vertigo---yes, my medical history is fun---but hey---it's life. I SURVIVED!!! The "open wound" they left has FINALLY healed and looks WONDERFUL!! Imagine the fun someone with a medical fetish---ummmm no, wouldn't have happened--- HA HA HA HA HA---We did discuss turning it into a coin purse...would have just needed a zipper---or I could have been a surrogate Kangaroo...
So....what's in YOUR wallet? |
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Sitting outside listening to the rain falling...love the sound. Thinking to what I thought life would be right now and realizing I may not be there yet, but slowly I will be. It makes me think of what I truly want and sometimes it makes me sad. I always thought by now I'd have the home with the fence around the yard, the husband coming home from work, making dinner, etc...yeah, I have part of it. I have the kids I always wanted, but its me coming home, cooking dinner, doing laundry, homework with the kids, baths and then bed...and getting up the next morning to start all over again. But its my life and I guess i'm ok with it.
People ask what I really want...and its so simple, yet out of reach. I don't want a man to complete me...because I am already a complete person. I want someone who will ADD to my life...and make it OUR life. |
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Guess I must be getting old :-) I have grown weary of watching the drama young folks tend to drag around with them. Seriously, its an addiction and they have no clue anymore what it means to actually talk to someone they're having a problem with. Let's just send hateful texts to someone rather than talking to them...then try to slander them on a website because heaven forbid you act like the adults you claim to be. Sorry...just an old person's rant about the unfortunate changes I see....while I still can see :-) |
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Is stupidity contagious? Ahhhh...Ahhhhh...AHHHHHCHHHHOOOOOO |
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Well, I guess I should have put this in my intro, but I didn't, so I will now. Yes, I am a BBW, if that is a problem, it's yours and not mine.
I was talking to a "nice" guy, and he asked what I look like and what I do for a living. OK, I told him both, he stopped talking to me. So I don't know if it was an issue with the BBW or the fact that I don't make enough money :) Either way, his problem, his loss :) |
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OK, I had REALLY hoped I wouldn't have to say this. I will NOT be sending out pictures just because you graced me with a few lines of meaningful emails. Sorry...not gonna do it. I'm 4'3" tall, 743 lbs, and happily own a third nipple in the middle of my forehead....c'mon baby!!! |
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Off to get ready for work...yes, WORK, unfortunately, I'm not independently wealthy and haven't struck it big in gold, oil, or the lottery! |
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| Age: 45 |
| Wildwood,
New Jersey |
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