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| 2nd try here. You: are or have been engaged in some kind of self destructive behavior. it may be a suicide attempt, it may be that you were cutting yourself, eating your hairs, or something milder like avoiding social contact and/or cutting yourself out of your own family and friends. Whatever it is, at some point in your life, you have been, consciously and willfully or not, acting against yourself. Ideally, you are now understanding why. But, whatever your own understanding may be, you are definitely aware that you are or have been lacking something. You are looking for it. You crave it. You may ascribe your current condition to a family issue, or a psychological issue, or a trauma event . If so, yes, I kind of already know you. Not the particulars, and I would be privileged to gain your trust about this, but the mechanism you are acting upon. You are feeling imperfect, unaccomplished. You believe that you are a misfit, unable to meet up to expectations that were or are being thrown at yourself. You understand that these expectations are not yours. That you are bound to be someone else. And you can hardly cope between keeping an expected facade and being yourself. Me: my age and size do matter. 40ish, weight/height proportional, a successful professional in my own right, a bit removed, a tad aspergergian, perhaps like yourself, it doesn't really matter. The truth is that I am looking for someone like you. The reason is that I have known people like you and I am quite unable to build a bond with someone lacking you what you take as a flaw. How is it that it didn't last? Simple enough: I build you "up", you spread your wings, fly away and then I loose interest. My kink is in playing Prometheus, being him for a time, but I have no intention to see my liver being eaten out again and again by an eagle ;-) So yes, I am as flawed as you are. I know it. I live by it. And you can be my fire. I wil burn you. Because this is what it takes. And because this is what you want. Currently quite interested in metal bondage, sensory deprivation and dependence. Sorry, no chat here. And to you being added means that I will send you a message later on ;-)
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