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The connection I seek, I find at times a little difficult to articulate. I often refer to it as a TPE Masterslave relationship, but that usually carries connotations of an emotional distance between the two partners. Whereas emotionally and romantically, I enjoy being at a similar level to my partner, despite the power distance.
One sub, with which I had a great emotional connection, perhaps described it best (paraphrased),
Both partners are in a way looking for someone to help. She wants to help make him the happiest man possible. To be there for him. To take care of him. He wants to guide her into that role and show her how to be perfect, and to take care of her as well.
The power distance is there I need it. Simply, I feel more confident and comfortable when I have control over every aspects of my life. But thats not just it, I want to own you and to use you, to ify you, to enhance my life, to bring me pleasure. I would like you to doll yourself up for me. I would like you to do the dishes for me. I would like you to submit to me. I want your intelligence as well its not all just about sex. Thats my vice. We all have our vices.
I could live the single life. Yet, there is just something lacking in living that life in devoting all of that time and energy completely to my own ends in pursuing dozens of relationships that ultimately amount to nothing more than a whisper of yesteryear. No, I would like to pursue something more meaningful and enduring. A timeless embrace two lovers staring into each others eyes in reverence, showers of compliments, comfortable silences.
You see, there is something incredibly rewarding in having a partner that gives their life to me. There is nothing more motivating. Their every act, every movement, and every pain an act of devotion. That devotion, spawns a well of responsibility on my part. Suddenly that selfishness becomes altruistic, and I am able to give my devotion to them as well.
Wake me in the middle of the night if you need to. The irate part of me can always use the inconvenience as punishment, for a later time. However, there is nothing more satisfying than hearing my partner sound asleep.
In this way, we build a kingdom together. A kingdom, but it need not be so grand. Perhaps all it amounts to is a solid home, a magic carpet ride of experiences and adventures, many sleepless nights in raising little ones, culminating in a pair of old souls telling stories of adventure to a group of grandchildren around a camp fire perhaps the best stories remain untold.
I am also looking for someone attractive, who can be a good match for me. Ultimately, I am looking for depth, loyalty, and commitment. Passion is great but transient, so Id like someone who is as committed as I am to a strong foundation from which that passion can grow.
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