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Ok so I promised a rewrite, here it is...

The pics I have are very limited simply because I want you to see the beauty that is me, that part of me that cannot be portrayed in a picture; who I am should be more important than how I look...on that note, I am not 6oo pounds with a wart on my nose so if that's what your into move along.

A few years ago I began looking deep inside myself, trying to figure out why every relationship I had had ended in frustration.....I was the common denominator, so I must be doing something wrong, right? Wrong; in fact, I was doing everything right with the exception of picking the right guys.

The problem I had was I had been choosing guys who didn’t know how to nurture me, they couldn’t or wouldn’t accept me for the wonderful person I am, they let me believe that I was incapable of making them truly happy and thus I was unhappy. I know now that I had chosen guys who were incapable of being truly happy with anyone, they tended to focus on the negatives and not the positives; I am a positive person and I need a positive partner.

So what was I doing that was so right? I was doing everything I knew how to do to make the man in my life happy; I have always done this and I always will....it’s who I am; I’ve been called a natural sub, maybe so...I’ve been told I’m unique *shrugs* sure ok, I can go along with that.

I’m really just me, I thrive on praise, I laugh at stupid jokes, I have blond moments, when I’m curious about something google is my best friend, I will dance around the house using my hairbrush as a microphone and I take pride in my work...pretty normal right *smiles*

Ok then there is the side of me that never quite feels good enough, when I accomplish something I then need to do more, I need to feel as if I am constantly improving....I strive for perfection and yet I honestly believe perfection is impossible.

I need someone in my life who will cherish me for who I am, someone who can be patient with me and push me at the same time, someone who can see the beauty both inside of me as well as on the outside, someone who can and will nurture in me the belief that I am good enough, that I am perfect to them.

D/s to me is so much more than what happens in the bedroom...to me it is about mutual satisfaction in every part of the relationship. I want that relationship, I want....no I need someone who can and will appreciate me in everything I do whether it be serving him in the bedroom or washing the dishes. I’ve spent enough time with guys who didn’t appreciate me, guys who seemed content in bringing me down, I need a guy in my life who will lift me up.

I am looking for my best friend, my confidant, my tormentor, my lover, my Master. I know he’s out there, and I know when we find each other the sky will be the limit.

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6/8/2012 10:15:21 PM

*sigh* my life has been so busy lately with so many exciting things...but when I do have a little bit of down time I realize how much I'm missing having that special someone beside me.


12/6/2010 11:49:10 PM
I found this some time ago and just love it, thought I would share....

Some partners are helpful and some are not. That is why it is important in life to find partners who are "swimmers". Cause when you are with a "drowner" you become the "flotation device" they latch onto and leach off of and soon you are two going down. An equal partner is someone who will paddle with you to the goals you both share.

***it was brought to my attention that this could be misunderstood as shallow. When I read this quote I think of the abusive situations where one partner is not willing to give...in no way do I think that a situation where one is is not able to give due to illness or disability. To me this is about the willingness to give, the love and caring and concern for another. 

Thank you to the person who pointed this out to me :)

10/16/2010 12:09:42 PM
I have received more than on message recently from men who state in their profile that they find piercings and tattoo's a turn off.....I have one tattoo, not a tiny discrete little one that is well hidden but one that I proudly display and I have thoughts for a second one. I also have more than just my ears pierced (belly button and tongue).

So if these things are a turn off for you I figured you should know....that's all, have a nice day.

8/28/2010 11:59:03 PM
I want to take a moment to recognize the good guys out there, I get many very respectable messages often just to say hello...or to make me smile. Yes, you really do make me smile.

Sadly these guys get over shadowed by the jackasses who think that I owe them something after no more than 2 messages.

I met a wonderful man here before, and I know there is someone right for me here now but I am finding myself frustrated by the jackasses and logging out quickly.

So...to all the jackasses, please leave me alone so I can find that great guy who's right for me here.

Ya, I don't really think this will help, but I feel better for having written it...and I'm smiling again and that's what's important :)


5/25/2010 12:52:34 PM

I recently had a conversation with someone about looks and attraction and how important looks are.

Initially I was thinking that I was quite shallow because how a person looks is important to me...but digging deeper it is not their height, eye color, skin tone or anything along those lines that will attract or repel me....it is how they appear to be groomed, do they seem to care for themselves; extremely overweight is something that concerns me, less because of how it looks and more because I would worry about health implications; are they smiling or frowning in the picture makes a difference to how I would view this person.

A persons attitude can often show through in a picture and to me attitude is very important; for example, it's fun to look at something like the firefighter calendar, but I probably wouldn't want to date anyone in it, they often seem arrogant to me and arrogance is not an attractive feature; someone who may not have perfectly blue eyes, a chizzled jawline or perfectly straight teeth may have a wonderful attitude and to me this is much more attractive.

Yes a picture is a snapshot of only a fraction of a second in a person's life but just as a first impression in person will remain engrained in memory so will a first view of a picture.

Just something I've been thinking about.


5/10/2010 12:08:29 AM
Maybe it's just me but people who don't know how to use spell check are one of my greatest pet peeves...especially when they are trying to give a good impression of themselves. Don't get me wrong, typo's in IM's don't bother me in the least, but in a profile you have plenty of time to edit and check spelling, if you can't take the time to do that then how much time do you have for a relationship?!?

4/3/2010 5:40:55 PM
I guess I'm back from my hiatus...but only sort of, you see I had been making the internet a priority in my life and I needed to step away from  that for a while. I'm back but I don't know how often I will be here, my real life is too important to put on the back burner.

3/9/2010 12:12:19 AM
ON HIATUS!!!!!

2/28/2010 8:30:46 PM
TEAM CANADA ROCKS!!!!!!

2/17/2010 1:19:24 PM
Updated my profile today.....please write to me not to my picture

11/3/2009 11:15:25 AM
Call me narrow minded if you like but looks and age do play a factor in who I am attracted to. I am young for my age so someone slightly younger will get my notice first, as well I take pride in how I look and I would hope you do to......that aside I have many friends all ages, sizes, colors and all over the world and I find it amazing how knowing someone as a friend and gowning that bond seems to supersede  any first impressions.

11/1/2009 6:54:24 AM
Please don't be offended if I don't accept chat requests...it seems it takes me forever to open the chat page and unless I have plenty of time I just won't

10/31/2009 5:05:08 PM
I had wonderful luck here before, spent a year and a half with an amazing man, sadly it couldn't last forever and so now I'm back, hopefully I will be as lucky again.

12/29/2008 3:13:15 PM
It would seem Santa was late last year...3 months late and he found me a better model than the one I had anticipated :) This Christmas was wonderful for us, hope it was for you to.

9/9/2008 4:25:49 PM
some of the most pathetic conversations happen here...a typical example....him-you're sexy...me-thank you...him-I wanna fuck you...me-flattered but I'm owned....him-but I wanna...me (banging head on desk)-as I said, I'm owned....him-he will never know...me-ummmm NO!...he either disappears or keeps persisting until I have to be rude or block him......I'm wondering why I even pretend to be polite to these wannabe's...guess that's just me :P

3/31/2008 12:59:53 PM
I am not looking to meet people at this time...I am open to chat but please don't expect anything beyond that

3/12/2008 10:36:19 PM
I have added a pic of me that a wonderful friend has taken for me...might leave it up, might not, the reaction it gets will determine that.

12/26/2007 1:23:59 PM
Well Santa didn't bring me what I really wanted this year...there wasn't anyone sitting on my couch in the morning wondering where his coffee was...maybe he's just running a bit late *crosses fingers*

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 Age: 23
 Colorado Springs, Colorado