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Forgiveness is what i give to myself for not being true to my earliest realizations, desires and needs. At fifty finally i am ready to accept happiness as only it could be provided to one with such slavelike tendencies, ambitions and dreams. I have known it all my life and let time pass, valuable time where i should have been in a different body, a collar, a chasity device, in service and completely marked and owned as femme property. From a young age i had feminnine traits, played with dolls, played house and evolved into complete adoration and awe of the female form and the female presence rather than the typical lust real boys enjoy. In my adult life my career lent me many dating opportunities and afforded me a few great long term relationships where i always found myself being looked up to as a man with a career who always cleaned the house, did the cooking, decorated around holidays and all the traditional domestic work. It was always ebnough for my female partner but always fell short for me because i knew though i was acting out my needs as a submissive i was always recognized as a superman of sorts and was expected to make the decisions and treat my partner as the flower in the rain whom would melt if she had to have charge of our partnership decisions. It was alright but who needs alright when great is out there. i was always able to give my partners what they wanted in life but never able to provide for myself what was important.
Thirteen months ago I took the most significant strides I have ever in my life. The most subtle came first as I looked in the mirror and wieghed my longest desire which was being a woman. i have known i was one since elementary school and physically the concept was simple to see at least for me when reaching puberty and playing sports with real boys. i was good at many sports but in the shower while i noticed they were growing hair on their chins and under their arms and some even on their chest while i had none. Even at fifty years of age i do not have chest or underarm hair. It never grew. How wonderful if resources that are in place now for kids like i was were availabel then. Surely I would have been a delicious little girl much much earlier. On that day thirteen years ago I decided the short business like haircut was to go and i would grow my hair and evaluate my chances of becomming a passing girl. I had no clue where to start lol.....times have certainly changed. i do know now and i am on my way.
My hair is now down to my shoulders and i have been in gender therapy for awhile now and as i am my therapist is convinced i am a perfect case for sexual reassignment.. That relaized i have started female hormone treatments and am doing ok with it. There is no more waiting for the perfect time as that passed long ago. The time is surely now and it would not be proper in youth or now to become a female unless i were a slave while doing one and to grow into the role of a sweet girl who is enslaved. As surely as i was meant to be female just as surely as i knew i should have been i also knew i was submissive to the core.
Knowing that it is little wonder my professional life was spent in the service industry.. i am a culinary grad who graduated at the top of my class. i have worked in five star hotels and smaller restaurants and have been written uin several publications. I stayed in the professional cooking field for years and swtiched to the hotel managmeent side of the industry. I have been a concierge, a desk person, a housekeeping supervisor, a guest services manager and finally a GM. There is nothing like serving all kinds of people and the positions i have handled professionally set me up perfectly with many experiences neccessary i would think to a prospective master or mistress.
On a personal level my relationships have also set me up for a winner first time slav ery effort as i was very domestic, very eager to please, did the shopping for kitchen and household items, the yardwork, the repairs around the house and entertained her friends at all gatherings in the house. I just never had the good fortune of hooking up with a Dominant woman who spotted my incredible need to be submissive in all matters.
On a personal level, i see myself as a slave to a female however in light of the fact that i become more feminine daily i do not think a man is out of the question. Fact is i find being owned by a couple to be most intriging and perhaps one of my favorite wants and needs now. i will as a woman who is enslaved have to learn to pleasure men, and practice learning a specific woman if that is the case but....i am open to all scenarios at present even another trans.
Here is what i hope.....i hope for a no holds barred kind of slavery. i do not wish to be allowed limits or thuoghts and my master/mistress.or dominant couples one thought concerning me as their slave is to encourage a 100% female lifestyle in slavery to them. They expect hard work, eager learning, and total feminine presence 100% of the time. i am very relocatable as i have got to move anyway due to the fact there are simply too many people i would have to explain to when i go female all the way. because of knowing so many people a normal and healthy transition would be impossible here. That said i will move next month regardless of being owned or not owned. i know i have to be female now and further will work as long as it takes to find an owner or owners with proper use, teachings and the life i was meant to have as a female slave
More about me is i am not really into pain in fact i am no good at it lol....i am a real wimp anytime i get hurt and that fact as it is anyone who loves to inflict pain would have to take me along slowly and get me up to the tolerance level they need me at. i do not take drugs and drink maybe once per year which i can do without because i really and truly believe a life of slavery includes no parties unless i am serving at them. i also have never been with a man and up til now thought i never would be however i know in most couples cases it is either paramount and a deal breaker or highly prefered. i can get by my straight past and kneel in front of a master to recieve what i am told to and be honored and interested in nothing but giving pleasure. i am just sure of this but can't explain how since it has never been done.
I invite potential Masters to talk to me concerning any opportunity there may be to live in slavery to them, i especially invite all Dominant Couples who need a domestic and general household slave to contact me concerning service to them, and i invite Female Masters to also write me with concerns if possible slavery to them especially ones who enjoy chasity, feminization and cuckholding. In this unique case i am willing to marry and as it is with all other opportunites that would be secondary to being collared and taking a permanant mark on my body that means i am owned by the person or persons whose name is tattooed on me for good.
I look forward to sincer replies and will move on March 1st to anyone or out by myself but as at that date i am off somewhere in some position to live as a female. i do hope it is with someone from this ad who agrees with me in saying She is a total slave a diamond in the rough and a worthwhile candidate for permanant slavery

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bianca24nicole
 
 Age: 55
 Pine Bluff, Arkansas