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Hello, I'm just looking because this is a big fantasy of mine and just met a Dom that has showed me some stuff...so I thought I would be brave and learn more. Not sure I want to be lifestyle but have learned a lot about myself in my short experience with my Dom and it has been good...but he is part-time. I am all about growing and learning about myself and would love to grow with a man that is strong, patient, intuitive, intelligent, compassionate and firm. But like I said, I'm very new at this and still a bit skiddish. No man has been what I need him to be in order to completely surrender yet, but I know in my heart that I want that...with the right man. I see complete surrender and submission as a beautiful, tender and vulnerable aspect of life...in all things...a BIG risk but worth it...again, with the right man.

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11/5/2004 10:52:38 PM

Disclaimer: The descriptions desribed below can only be, at best, one-dimensional and grossly incomplete...how can it be any other way?  Who can describe themselves and their desires in just a few lines?  I will say, for practicality reasons, that I have a picture of myself to send if asked, I am a smoker (that matters to many so I thought I'd tell you up front), looking for a man roughly between the ages of 30 and 42. 


11/5/2004 10:47:55 PM

Who am I?

A strong woman that doesn't submit to just anyone.  My desire to fully surrender to 'my Man' feels as if it flows through my body so strong at times I wonder if the strangers walking passed me feel it too.  But (sorry fellas) I have to deem you worthy of the powerful intensity and vulnerability of my emotions, my strengths & fears and my surrender.   This takes sooo much trust and a good match of philosophy, shared objectives, and personalities or it could be disastrous.  If that sounds arrogant to you, move on to another woman that fits your needs and be well.  If that sounds like the intelligent way to find a good match for myself...for Your sanity and mine, please continue reading!  



What I want in a Dom?

You have a humble heart and a strong demeanor.  You are quick-witted, wise and have an inner strength that is derived from a deep place within that just 'knows'.  You know what integrity is and posses it.  You also have a great sense of humor and 'compassionate patience'.  You know You have control.  You are not perfect but will face Your pain &/or mistakes with Your head held high, taking responsibility for what's 'Yours'...deriving pleasure when learning & growing for Your own betterment.  You have a personal connection with Your own truth (which You believe is malleable b/c You are always learning and growing) and see Life as more than the mundane day-to-day existence.  You delight in a high-spirited, challenging woman whose submission, once given, is equally enjoyed for it's depth, truth and pleasurable release.  You see the desire in me to serve, give pleasure to Your every day, and to find a firm but fair hand to contain me, make me feel safe, teach me, guide me.  You desire more than just bedroom play and less than ultimate reality.  You see, protect and guide 'the girl' full of curiosity, emotion and need.  But at the end of the day you see 'the woman' with her own intelligence, wisdom, opinions, and goals that I'm passionate about.  (psst! both are me...but don't tell anyone, k?) *grin*  You see the need in me to be highly stimulated on ALL levels...mind, body and soul!  
 
If You believe that I am someone You would enjoy, relish, bask in, and derive lots and lots of pleasure & laughter with...message me! 


11/2/2004 4:44:12 AM
oh...and in reference to my last entry: how did I deal with my selfish indulgence of 'poor me'?  I sought to selflessly serve!  
It was not sexual (unfortunately) *grin* but very physical.  I am continually reminded, it's who I am, what I love, in all things!  To exhaust my mind, body and soul to give to another brings me more pleasure than anything in my life!

11/2/2004 4:09:53 AM
I felt excitment plummet into disappointment last week.  Wow that hurts!  I'm not afraid to feel it and am not ashamed to admit it.  Watching the little trick-or-treaters this weekend I realized that there is nothing wrong with wanting something...and expressing that clearly and so there is no mistake.  Being upset that I didn't get it...and expressing that just as clearly.  All my feelings will be for You and You will know exactly how You are affecting me...can you handle that?  It is my way...honest, direct and without the games that adults often play.  There is a beauty to it...a simplicity.  For the one that can see the rational woman behind the sometimes emotional whirlwind...I would serve Him with all my heart.  Am I fiesty, yes!  Am I strong and do I know what I want, yes!  Will I tell you about it...most definitly yes!  After trust is established and we know eachother well enough, and WE BOTH AGREE to move forward, will I serve passionately...YES, YES, YES!
Ever learning with a hopeful heart~me

10/26/2004 7:29:19 PM
I should take the time to be a bit more creative here...but after a few online experiences/conversations, I should add...insecure, cruel men looking for lapdogs to remind them that they are great because they don't have enough inner strength to know it themselves...should NOT contact me.  I am high-spirited...a handful that doesn't trust very easily...and very new at this...so it does not come easy.  I am difficult without even meaning to be.   For any True Dom willing and foolish enough to take me on...I would make you very proud!  I would give my whole heart if you have the heart & integrity of a Master/Teacher (and a lot of aspirin!) LOL 

Signed, Hopeful Heart

10/17/2004 9:52:32 PM

I've only been on this site for a little over 24 hours and have already encountered some situations that lead me to believe it would be in my (and my potential Dom's) best interest to give more detail about the person I am.  I am a free spirit with a good head on my shoulders.  I am intelligent, funny, emotional, erractic, hard-headed and big hearted.  I try not to judge and to look for my own life lessons in everything that life presents me.  Surrendering to a Man is not only a BIG turn-on to me (but it is that!).  I have come to see that it is a huge opportunity to learn and grow with a man who appreciates the person I am.  I am strong-willed and loyal...and in this decision to search for a true Dom, I will be commited to the station I have chosen.  Don't get me wrong, I definitely need to be 'reined in' so to speak and have dreamed of a man who can 'contain' me and help me keep my feet on the ground more often.  But I also have been taking care of myself quite nicely since I was 18 or so and am proud of where I am in my life at the moment in regard to my apt, job, freindships, etc. as well as how much I have grown and expanded...heart, mind and soul.  If I sound like a woman you would be proud to call your sub, please message me.  But consider yourself warned...I am a handful!   ...with the willingness to learn and submit completely


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sweetChyld21
 
 Age: 32
 Los Angeles, California