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How to describe oneself in a few paragraphs? I will start by the choice of nickname on here - esotericsubmiss - esoteric -- a: designed for or understood by the specially initiated alone b: requiring or exhibiting knowledge that is restricted to a small group ; broadly: difficult to understand 2 a: limited to a small circle b: private, confidential 3: of special, rare, or unusual interest That is definitely a good start. I'm definitely not for everyone and difficult for some to understand. I'm a strong willed, independent, intelligent woman who has not submitted to anyone in a long time. I have not even attempted to find anyone in a long time for a number of reasons. 1) Because I was in a marriage where I was the Dominant partner. 2) Because since then, so many men on sites such as this, end up frustrating me to the point I simply give up. 3) Because when I have 'thought' I may have found someone, they either end up just 'playing' at the lifestyle or they were outright lying about who/what they are OR 4) Because it starts out good but ends up with me being the one in control. I'm a strong woman who needs an even stronger man. I would like to give this another try and hopefully I can just ignore those that need to be ignored and move on to the next. I'm extremely selective, especially where my submission is concerned. I will not just 'settle' and I will take my time. I am very hopeful that should I find the right Dominant, it will be the last one I'll ever want or need. I'm looking for a man that believes that real submission starts in the brain. Someone that can get inside my brain and stimulate it. Someone that can intrigue me into following him instead of being an 'ass' just because he is Dominant. Someone that can just look at me and make my heart skip a beat, as well as, make me obey instantly. I'm looking for a man that 'needs' complete control. Someone that knows how to exert that control and his will without being a 'dick' about it. Someone that is concise and consistent with his rules/needs/wants/desires/expectations. Someone that is not just 'playing' at this to get off or to abuse. I'm looking for a Dominant that gets excited over having that level of control over another. Someone that honestly believes that this type of relationship is the best for him and for me. I'm looking for a Dominant that has no qualms about marrying his submissive when the time is right and is not of the mind that he should not love his submissive (ridiculous thought in my opinion). I have been in the lifestyle and on both sides of the fence my entire life. So trust me when I say that I know what I'm seeking. I also feel that I have a lot to offer to the right man. I believe I am a very good submissive with slave like tendencies to the right man. I am monogamous and have no desire to used by anyone that does not own me. However, if someone wants to 'watch', I have no problem with that :) I am bi-curious and would love to go down that road one day, but not with a Dominant woman. I would prefer it to be a submissive woman if at all. However, I am not looking for a poly relationship. Just something on a part time basis if we were to ever go down that road. Oh...btw...I suck and oral service (pun intended) lol I have a very bad gag reflex that I have never been able to get past. If that is a deal breaker it is best to know upfront. I know this is a lot and I do apologize if it sounds contrite, but again, I want to be upfront at the beginning so we can save each other time and confusion if I'm not the person for you. I will not 'cam' with anyone, but I will send a pic once we have talked a few times. I also have no problem talking on the phone but not after the first or second mail. I also will not chat on this system, but I will on yahoo once we have talked here for a bit. If you have a 'dick' pic on your profile, I will not respond (no matter how impressive you may think it is). There is definitely more to who I am than what I can put here, so please write and if I feel there may be something there, I will write back :) If there is something in my profile that offends you or pisses you off or you simply do not agree with, please don't bother messaging me about it. Simply move on. We are all adults here. I hope. More to Come. I will make updates/additions as I think of them in my journal.

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5/26/2012 9:43:29 AM

Word of the Day: Obviate


5/25/2012 7:27:41 PM

wonders idly if my day can get any worse :(


5/25/2012 4:45:45 PM

It is days like today that I really wish I had someone to help me..take care of pent up anger, frustration, disappointments, and all the other emotions that I'm dealing with :(

 

Bad Day!


5/25/2012 4:21:33 PM

Word of the Day:

factious

 


5/24/2012 3:36:13 PM

I am posting a new 'word of the day' on another site and thought I would do it here as well with a different word. I have a love of words.

 

Word of the Day:

 

Osaphobia



Maybe I have this!! lolol


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just4funBwild
 
 Age: 31
 NEWARK, New Jersey