Happy Red Heart Day people!!

Intial responses to messages I receive:

No. 

Fuck no. 

You MUST be retarded.

WTF is he smoking??

Awww, thanks dude.

Why am I looking at your ass?

Ummm.... ok.

Man, you REALLY need to get laid.

Interesting.

So I'm on this new kick now... and I have a desire to drive a mo-ped. No I've never driven one before but its a new challenge for me.

I've always gotten a foolish thrill from driving the carts in Wal-Mart, so I can just imagine how giddy I'll get when I hop on a mo-ped.

I couldn't make this up if I tried- this is from some random "Dom":

Hey slave girl, I am all powerful Mr. Geriko. Your first assignment is to send me a picture of your face with Slave #69 spelled on your forehead.

...... ok.

Apparently there are some a-holes that can acknowledge when they act poorly... and then they disappear. I'm sure it was for the best, but whatever. No longer a problem so time to move on.

Yes gentlemen, sorry can go a very long way.

Dear Trent Reznor,

I would gladly let you tie me up in a small corner of you basement and do everything under the sun to me, if only you would grace myself with a glance. You sing my emotions, and I willingly allow my ears to be raped by that gift of your voice. The music you have been so generous to share with us mere humans is my own salvation. Thank you.

You are my "Perfect Drug".

Everyone else can kick rocks.

Its sucks that I have to dampen my profile with this entry but it needs to be written. I have been on this website long enough to have developed my own personal filtering system. This process eliminates 80% of the men who think they have a hold on me simply because they are listed as a Dominant and I'm listed as a slave.

I strongly believe that 3/4's of the guys on here have come to this website as a means of finding a woman who they can fuck whenever they want, and then tell them to fuck off when they're done. Any idiot can beat a woman, but the men who understand how to do it and why it needs to be done are few and far between (and they sometimes live in California).

I know you guys have it hard with the female species. So many different  types of demands, moods, baggage, and drama to go through. Some of the heartless ones have stepped on you, or used you, or just rejected you like you were nothing. Because of this, most guys have lost who they are as a person because they keep changing who they are in hopes of pleasing someone. Yes, even you "Dom's". I can go on and on with this but I don't wish to write six pages on my journal.

Do you know that my picture helps me sort out the solicitations I receive? Its only up there for 2 reasons. A) To show that I'm a girl and B) To give douchebags a step up in showing themselves.

So yes, I am real, and no, I'm not a fake. Just understand I have my reasons for not replying to your messages, and they're good ones.

Ok... I am by no means bitching about the guys that message me, but I think several people (including myself) would get a kick out of this for the sheer stupidity present. ENJOY

This is from concreterose32

He said:

Hey I'm manny an artist poet and musician, inked and kinky, check me out Maybee I peak your interest, there r a lot of fakes on here, but I'm for real anyway send me a pick let's get something started, happy holloween what you wearing tonight?

I thought you stated you weren't a bitch, why didn't you send a pic when I asked you to, what you don't like dick or something at least write back

I said:

Then he said:

Your profile should say ergogiousebitch not gem, I bet you none on here wants your ass that's why your mad, low class, probably got like three kids looking for a sugarsaddy or something, teasing people like your all of that

He then blocked me so he wasn't able to read this, but I'll put it up here  for your amusement:





Air horn + unsuspecting victims = laughing so hard you almost pee on yourself.... True story. =)

Hmmm.... a deviant brute... Yes, I like that idea very much.

Breathe in right away

Nothing seems to fill this place

I need this every time,

So take your lies, get off my case

Someday I will find a love

That flows through me like this

This will fall away

This will fall away

Dear Amsterdam,

Thank you for sharing the greatest music one can ever hear.

Cheers!

Wow....I literally found the most perfect song... YAY!

"There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight

My biggest fear will be the rescue of me
Strange how it turns out that way, yeah

Could you show me dear... Something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting
Could you show me dear... Something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting

Theres something about the way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
More subtle than something someone contrives
Your movements echo that I have seen the real thing

Your biggest fear will be the rescue of you
Strange how it turns out that way, yeah

Could you show me dear... Something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting
Could you show me dear... Something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting"

Ok....i'll admit it... I'm hungry like the wolf.

I'm SO tempted to get in trouble and then give the cop a semi-hard time so he'll try to put me in place without getting himself in trouble... Do you think the courts would overlook a desperate woman? :P

So I have this book. It BDSM erotica, but the stories in it are not the ones you typically read. The people in it describe how they feel and its a very detailed mental perspective. The subs decribed the emotions flowing through them, instead of how much juice is flowing. It was one of those, "Hey!!!! That's EXACTLY what I'm looking for!!" moments. This is what made me realize I didn't have to daydream about finding someone to use me, punish me, reward me, and cherish all the things that I can do for them and myself. Someone like that really exists! Now every girl wishes she could find some kind of prince to call their own. In my case however, I always wanted the deviant king. Why the king? Well the "king" is in a position where he knows what he wants and how to get it. Right?

Now- I am very determined to find someone that I complete because I know it will be something of epic proportions. I just know it will. BDSM based relationships are MUCH more than "vanilla" relationships. Therefore the foundation on which a relationship is built is so much stronger and deeper for obvious reasons. I've managed to pin-point the reasons why I can't work in "vanilla" relationships. I'm just too submissive and passionate about the things I love. I'm the one that goes above and beyond just because I need to. I love to please. I genuinely do. I also love kink... Do you see my problem? :P

But I will wait until that blue moon appears and the gods take pity on me and show me my king... until then I'll just watch Two And a Half Men.

I think being able to utilize my brain cells may be a disadvantage for me in the BDSM "world". Why is that? Well for several different reasons. I know a lot of things that people in their 40's don't know and I have common sense in almost all aspects. Think about that one for a second... Common sense really isn't that common.

I'm seriously considering doing some kink porn just to get some real experience... Have you seen Mark Davis in any of his kink shoots? You can tell he was meant to hold a submissive woman in the palm of his hand. Its in the way he looks at them, the way he indirectly enjoys stimulating a woman, the way he fucks them. He is TOTALLY in control.

Being a very instinctly driven female, I react to natural dominance. Have you ever seen a wild animal and tried to get their attention? They perk up and show an interest. Their eyes look, searching and questioning, and at the same time calculating whether or not its worth exploring... which bring me back to my point...are you worth exploring?

I swear this song sums up every possible BDSM driven relationship I've ever encountered:

I know this will be something
I remember in my head(something i remember)
sharp words push me back
hanging on to anything I can(anything I can)

why do you tell me
only things I want to hear
why dont you tell me
this could just dissapear

at the same time
you keep tracking treasure down

cant stop im soked tonight
wanna find something I believe(something i believe)
open up take me in makes no sence
help me understand(help me understand)

why do you tell me
only things I want to hear
why dont you tell me
this could just dissapear

at the same time
you keep tracking treasure down

you tell me of pirate-ships and fairytales
you have me wishing that everything
was real

Ok...so Transformers- Rise Of The Fallen is on, and after that is American Horror Story... this is going too good, something's gotta go wrong. :P

Sharkbait! Moo-HA-HA!!!! <-- from Finding Nemo