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| This seems like a strange place to be, only because it did not seem where I would find myself! Looking at many of the profiles, it seems clear who is being honest and who is being playful or deceptive, but you never know. I want to make it very clear that I am being honest and very, very genuine. I've had to struggle with myself, wondering if this is the right thing to do. All I ask is that you do not make me sorry for my choice. I'm not going to screw around with anybody's feelings and I sure don't want my feelings to be ignored.
A lifetime ago, I found out I was submissive. I was in the service and stationed in Europe. Germany, to be exact. Whether it was good luck or bad does not matter, but I was shown the lifestyle, deeply enjoyed it for a number of years while I was in Germany and, later, England. Severe and rigid bondage, extreme latex, heavy rubber, pain, humiliation, flogging, whipping, abuse and more. So much pain, so much pleasure. Unforgettable. Then, I returned home, fell back into a vanilla life, fell in love, got married, had a family. Never realizing I could not forget the past.
I was a faithful husband even when the internet made it so easy to explore the kind of life I had known. I kept my fantasies private, learned how to control my frustrations. And, now, I find that I can try to connect, again, with those intense experiences and my submissive role.
I say I am submissive but know that I have the strength to be a slave. Yes, I am older. I do not perform like a young man. But, for a true dominant, that is not what matters the most and you know how to manipulate and control my sexual responses. Also, I say I am bisexual, but that was forced behavior and a long time ago.
This is an honest search, though I am not exactly sure who/what I seek. I say that because it seems as if the lifestyle has changed a great deal. I am healthy, but not young. I am clean and hygenic. I am not in a relationship. I will need to give more thought to what my limits might be, but they are not overly restrictive. I know what I am and what to expect.
My desire is to find a chance to finish learning about myself. To take my submission as far as it will go. Even to slavery? I do not know! I am prepared to serve male, female or couple. But, I strongly hope for a female element simply because I always responded strongly with a female presence. If you are seeking a pleasure slave, please be creative and maybe a bit on the dark side.
The picture is very old and I am sorry for the lousy quality.
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