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I am 53 years old and recently divorced and have been involved and interested in the lifestyle most of my adult life. Most of my 20s and 30s were spent experimenting and learning about my path and what was right for me and it led me to the point of realizing that I was interested in and wanted a 247 Ms relationship. Unfortunately, there were few of the resources back then that the community has now and finding someone who was intelligent, not a doormat, and truly submissive and service oriented was much more difficult then (not that it is necessarily easy today). Back then, I oscillated between finding vanilla girlfriends and trying to introduce them to kink, typically with disastrous results and finding girlfriends on BDSM personal websites which were very different back then (not that they are good now). For the vanilla girlfriends for whom my introductions resulted in interest and curiosity it was always the case that the desire would end in the bedroom and there was no interest in anything close to 247 Ms. For the women that I met on BDSM personal sites, the kink and desire to explore 247 Ms existed but found that other necessary aspects of a relationship were missing (i.e intelligence, common interests, shared goals and desires). Most of the women on these sites that I met, I viewed as doormats, they wanted to serve and be told what to do and feel and think and had no opinions or interests of their own. After a couple of months these relationships would invariably result in boredom on my part as a relationship can not be sustained by kink and service alone (though I believe there are some Doms who want and seek out this kind of submissive).
I ended up marrying one of the vanilla women that was interested in exploring kink that I had fallen in love with. Unfortunately, after kids entered the picture, she decided she no longer wanted kink in our life and it resulted in resentment and hurt feelings all around (admittedly we had other problems in our relationship - neither of us was good at communicating with the other - we constantly misunderstood each others points).
I have continued to read and explore my thoughts on Ms and understand my kinks and desires and am looking for the relationship that I should of held out for when I was in my 20s. I am a professional, currently live in the western suburbs of Chicago, though grew up in the city and am a city kid at heart. I do have two kids that are part of my life - a 14 year old boy and a 11 year old girl that I have with me every other weekend and every Wednesday night.
I am not looking for a hookup or a short term relationship, but rather to start the work necessary to the bonds that are needed for a long term Ms relationship based on love and respect, service and obligation. If any of this is of interest to you please let me know. If not I wish you well and hope you find that for which you seek.
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