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Yes, the misspelling is intentional. I love exploring the dichotomy of my two different mindsets, and I love myself, so I combined them into a terrible pun.
I am a 33-year-old switch male, seeking a play partner with whom I can experience intense positive energy and fulfillment.
As a switch, i have both submissive and dominant tendencies. They are two equal but opposite sides of the same coin- nearly everything my dominant side loves doing to helpless, vulnerable women, my submissive facet enjoys having done to me.
In long-term relationships, i prefer to be the dominant partner. I believe in leading through strength, intelligence and compassion, not just making decisions but standing by those decisions and their consequences. On the flip side of the coin, in more casual "play-partner" style relationships, I enjoy being the submissive party.
In both cases, what I find most rewarding is giving of myself to ensure that another remains happy and satisfied. As a dominant, I can offer strength, support, guidance, intelligence, and a promise that I'll always have your back. As a submissive, I can offer compassion, a desire to please, an eagerness to serve, and a quick wit and insightful nature.
My dominant side is strongly masculine, logical, caring, and protective. My submissive side is intensely feminine, compassionate, emotional, and vulnerable, craving both strength and tenderness, and more. As such, i prefer feminization in my submission and submissive scenes. Oddly enough, i do not like sissification or bimboification or sissy humiliation- because although i enjoy having cute outfits chosen for me, I identify as feminine when I'm indulging my submissive desires, and being treated like a sissy or a dude in a dress really jars against the energy i want to feel in a scene.
I'm absolutely fine (and even enjoy) some humiliation, as long as it's something that would humiliate a biological female.
The last time I got to indulge my submissive side, it took the form of a les-dom style relationship. We experimented with cum-eating and light anal play, and even made plans to attend some fem-dom events with me not only dressed, but collared, gagged, and chained as necessary/appropriate.
Sadly, those plans never materialized, but there is still a faint lingering hope that I might get to live them out.
The cum-eating was difficult, but enjoyable. It's not something that I have been able to force myself to do since then. I want to do it to make my domme proud of me, to demonstrate my willingness to please her and serve her. I have no desire to do it for myself. I'm in a similar place with anal training (although I do very rarely easy myself onto a small dildo when masturbating if the mood strikes and i'm feeling intensely submissive. My other fetishes include bondage, public bondage, humiliation, teasing, forced orgasm, orgasm denial, and tickling. oh GOD i love being dressed up in stockings or lingerie and having my ankles locked in stocks for some intense tickling. i LOVE sexy outfits, cute dresses and flip flops to cocktail dresses and heels. A cute maids outfit with a locking collar and a list of household chores and the promise of a reward if i get them all done is a scenario that has absolutely no downsides to me. I love and crave both domestic and sexual submission.
Other things that I fantasize about (but i honestly have no idea that i would enjoy them if I played them out) include enforced or "encouraged" bisexuality (and i'd be more than happy to explain what i mean by "encouraged" in a further message if you like, public feminization in a non-kink or similar environment (years ago a play partner planned to take me to burning man where I would spend the entire weekend as her feminized slave girl, and auctioned off each night to be used (within a set of rules that we had both previously agreed on. I still have her "Itinerary" she wrote, and read it every once in a while to give myself a pleasant little thrill). Sadly, those plans also never materialized. There are other fantasies i keep locked up in my head, but those are for another conversation.
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