I am making changes to this page because my journey has brought me to a new path. I no longer need this for what it started out to be on my journey and its time has past. So for now I just want it to be a special place of thoughts and my journey.
Be Well
Diamondgirl Perfect love is rare indeed - for to be a lover will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain.~ Leo Buscaglia
There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away…."
Enjoy your journeys.....
Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for your evolution of your consciousness. How do you know that is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at this moment.
10/13/2013 9:26:38 PM
In starting a new chapter in my life I am going to take my stories, poems, and my experiences of this journey of kittygirl's and put it in a book. I am working on a title of it and how I will set it up.
5/11/2013 4:39:34 PM
Reflecting and moving forward to a new chapter of my life.......
Life is about accepting those moments that you really didn't want to accept because you had to come to a truth about them, yourself and what you actually had......
My experience with a BAITER!
What's a Baiter you ask.......???
B ackstabbers
A busers
I mposters
T akers
E xploiters
R eckless
In the D/s world is what we call the predators. The fake ones and they have no regard to the ethics, rules or regard for the 's' in our worlds.......
6/20/2012 12:04:36 AM
Why? To become my enlightened, cleansed, soul searching and to cleanse my soul of past hurts. I have de-cluttered many things from my home and will be doing another big de-cluttering this weekend to finish off the fast.
I have learned many things about others, myself and my journey so far. I have looked back and reflected on my past and asked how did I come to this place in life. It is interesting how we can make a choice, or choose to do something and how by that one decision can change our path and set us on a new road.
I am not perfect and never will be. I am who I am and I am truly loving who I am and who I will become. During my life I have had people in my life that had certain expectations of me, expected me to be a certain way. And then for whatever reason decided, I was either 'too perfect' or 'not perfect' enough. They instead of truly looking inside of me and accepting who I was ...wanted to change me. Or started to look for the 'flaws' of why I wasn't perfect for them, or good enough for them.
(Les Brown......................I will add it when I find it)
Do you know when you look inside of someone and you see something YOU do not like about them.. It is actually your own flaw you see. People are a reflection of YOU! God, your higher power places people in your path so that you can learn from each other. So that they can help you to move forward on your path to either enjoy your journey or you can decide to live a sad lonely life. It is your choice, you have the power and control to decide what type of life you will live.
You can decide how you will see people, how you will view them and what you will get from them. It is your choice how you decide to see them. You will either find the good in them or you will choose to see the ugly, negative side of that person. Anything you focus on you will bring more of that into your life and that is what you will get more of.
We view things through our own experiences, our own view and how we have seen them. Through our own 'truths' and that doesn't mean it is actually facts, that it actually happened either. So you could be carring around a 'painful' moment that you truly believed happened, or that someone did you a great wrong. And by actually fact they never did. You just felt and thought it happened. But they view and see it differently.
Then what, well you could be carring around this 'painful' moment that will change your path, create an event in your heart, mind, body, and soul that will a forward from that moment, you will treat people based on that moment in time, you will treat others based on that information and you will make choices based on that experience.....
Makes you think deeply doesn't it?
What if......
You felt someone lied to you? Or cheated on you? Or made a promise to you? Or you viewed them a certain way and decided to make choices based on 'your facts'
And for whatever reason your 'facts' are tainted. They are not completely true....
You are walking around with all theses feelings of hurt, pain, disappointment, sadness, angry, bitterness,...ect.....you get the point.
Now you are creating in your mind 'all' men or women that are anything close to this 'type' of person are the same. You are making choices based on this information. Giving your self 'self talk' based on what you viewed in the past. And now maybe even 'protecting' your heart and soul from others. walking around with the story of .... One day I want love, One day I want that perfect person. They will look like this, be like this and your creating in your mind what they will be like.
Then what happens when they actually walk into your life? What do you do? Well at first your happy. Your full of joy and excitement. You jump in and move forward. But then all those fears, angry, bitterness, guilt, betrayal come to surface. why? Because you never learned to let go of the past, you never learned to actually forgive the one in the past. You now have a scared heart, you don't want to be hurt again. So you are holding onto your past and regrets. You create all those feelings and FIND fault and flaws in this 'new person' that you have in your life right now. Because why would they be any different then every person in your past? You never learned to let go of the past hurts. So now you decide to find all the flaws in your new partner so that you can live that same STORY you have told everyone....
I am scared to be alone. I thought I found my soul mate...BUT...... You are a victim, a basement dweller of your own sad story. You have become what you hate most. The 'poor me' I can't find my love....they only live in my mind......
It goes back to "If you see a person they way they are, they become less then. BUT if you see a person more then they are they become greater then you ever expected"
So many people do this. They find someone that fits and then they start to look for all the reasons why they are not perfect, why they won't fit, all the flaws until they have created in their own minds there is something wrong with that person.... Then ironic has it that they will run as fast from that person who was right for them has everything they want in them that will make them happy. Jump in arms with someone new, actually settled, take less then what they want. Just so they can still live the story of...See no one is perfect, I won't find what I really want.... Just so they can still live that 'story'....... It will never happen for me.....
Meanwhile, they were scared of what they had. They had to face their own demons, they actually had to look in a mirror and realize they are not perfect, there was things in them selves that had to change and because it is easier to change the people in your life then actually take ownership and CHANGE your own self and grow as a person. You stay in your CZ of who you are......
How many of us say we want something and then when it actually happens we embrace it? We actually look inside and say. I deserve this? I am more then good enough to have this and enjoy it?
Not many, most self sabotage and ruin the very things they want in life. Most don't actually open their hearts completely and embrace what they have so they do not get hurt. Not realizing they are already hurt and just did more hurt to them selves then any other person could........
There are five people in your life right now that you spend the most time with. That you are the closest too and you tell them everything, you trust them, you share moments with. Reflect, look at them, take a long look at each one. You don't need to tell anyone, or share this. But take a moment and see them through your eyes....As clearly and honestly as you can.....
Write down what you see, what is your view of them. How do you feel about them right now? What do you admire in them? What do you respect in them. Now what are there flaws? What upsets you about them? What would you change in them...Common we be honest.....They are not perfect.....No one is....
Those are the things you need in you, those are the things you need to learn as a person, those are your life lessons, those are the things you HATE about your self..... Each one of them are reflecting YOU. They are your mirrors in your own life. You can either grow and be a better person then you are right now. Or you can be less then you are and not move forward.....
It is your choice? You are in control of your own life. What will you do with it. And are you going to be one of those ones who said.... I wish I did, should of could of people are will you be one of those ones to say
Dam I live the best life and I am sure glad I didn't miss anything and actually lived with an open heart......
Reflections......
By Diamondorchids Sept 18-2009
6/13/2012 11:52:44 PM
submissives are a precious
gift from God and they are angels to be treasured and cherished, If given the care 'right' for that submissive their wings will spread and the 'One' will receive such amazing colourful rays of love from heaven that will touch His soul. This is a journey that is meant to last a life time and to be truly enjoyed through all parts of that pathway, too embrace the very essence of her, to breath her in, to take her to places she has never been, to want to go deep within her to touch and feel the very core of her soul, once you have crossed those path ways hand in hand and you take in the breath of her, You know you have lived in the glorious rays of the heavens above...
12/17/2010 1:18:53 AM
This path is unknown to me. It seems that "Ice" did more damage to my soul then I really wanted to admit and I still have more deep work to do still. his deep cuts go further then I thought and I still hold the pain of him that prevents me from opening up my heart and letting anyone in. From his damage that was done it seems that I allow certain ones to mistreat me and I self sabotage from the ones who wouldn't hurt me.
I'm left with how do you know who is telling the truth, who is actually being honest and in my confusion and not wanting to express certain things about me. And not even able to explain certain things or make sense of some things how do you express that to another. Because I couldn't find the words I lost someone dear to me, but then if you really have a friendship in the first place should you be perfect with no flaws and not damaged goods.......sadly I am that treasured gift that sits on the shelf damaged and a lie is a lie doesn't matter how you explain it. Is it a lie to another if you lie to yourself......what if you didn't want to admit to your self it.....? is it still a lie.......? what if there is no words, no label or anyway to express it .....then is it still a lie.....?
If I wasn't real, and it wasn't real.....and if I lied.....then that must mean....you weren't real, you weren't speaking the truth, then you were a lie and who lied first......You or me, or was it just a dream...............
I found out that he was with someone else before and he was with her and shared moments and pictures with her but would send me the same pictures and tell me a story......they had a life together and planning there future together. but to me it was a lie, the biggest betrayal of all kind. He had no intention of ever being with me. He just used me and tossed me aside......how can anyone speak so many words, so deeply and not mean a one......
How can someone say they have your best interest at heart and then take your words and your weaknesses and toss them back at you as a weapon. How can someone know your pain, your hurts and then do the same.....?
How can they say they understand how your soul works, know you so well and then cause you a deep hurt.....do they really know you I must ask.......I say no.....cause if they did they couldn't do the things that cuts your soul and cause you damage.......
Where does that leave me now....... Empty, a heart of stone, I don't like I can open my heart....it has been sealed....I don't feel things like I did before. I feel like I am locked up and sealed my soul so it can't be touched again. My heart doesn't trust anyone now and I don't believe anyone's words. I can't trust myself with their words and I don't believe any of them......
My path I feel is better alone, then to feel that pain again..... The risk is to high of a price because I don't think I could survive it again......Keeping diamondgirl.....I think she lost her sparkle....
I walked away from the lifestyle and peaked my head in but because of my own scared heart, self sabotage and not wanting to admit certain things to myself. I made a mistake and didn't speak fast enough.......it cost me a price..... So in this life time there is no more kittygirl, no more little girl.....she is closing the door on that time, place, and life and pushing it down deep, she will forever sleep in this lifestime.....
Just one lifetime wasn't enough for her and in this lifetime she sleeps and next life time she will awake, but her spirit can't take anymore......"Keeping M, staying M, this rare diamond hides some of her facets.....
8/31/2010 3:47:03 PM
I have entered a new chapter and journey on my path. I am now Owned and loving this new path.
His girl
5/4/2010 9:33:35 AM
Update:
Some might of noticed that many of my pictures have been removed. The ones that were removed were placed on here as a gift and of my submission to that person.
Due to what has happened and due to my career I have chosen to removed them and soon will be removing the rest of them. However, I will replace new ones of me because I believe that people should be able to see who they talk too and you will realize that I am who I say I am. Diamond
5/4/2010 9:13:00 AM
"The cruelest
thing a Dom can do to a sub is to let her fall in love
when he doesn't intend to catch her fall."
These words are so true!
The cries of many subs with now deep wounds because someone truly didn't know what they held in their own hands for a short time. And now caused a soul to bleed and has written on them and changed them.
I found this on another person's journal.......
2/22/2009 4:56:23 AM
There is a poster with this jackass name and picture beside it that said DUMBASS!!
royalpain on 2/22/09 at 5:44 AM:
IF YOU WAS MIND I WHIP YOU EACH DAY BITCH
WHY would some of these jerks ever think that is going to make a woman/sub ever talk to them.. *ROLLS EYES*
Where is my Bat!!!
2/19/2009 9:44:46 AM
""I do not want to be the leader at home. I refuse to be the leader. I
want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying
over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life,
his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don't
mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a
woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don't mind being
told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, to do on my own all that I
am capable of doing yet I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by
the will of a male at his time, his bidding." ~ Anais Nin
2/13/2009 10:31:30 PM
101 ideas to make Your slave feel Owned (i.e. loved)
One
of the main factors, for me in feeling truly Owned is to be constantly
reminded throughout the day of Master's control. These reminders can be
subtle or really obtrusive. The more often a slave is reminded of her
submission, the deeper it becomes....and the more fulfilling. So here
are some ideas You might want to try... And no matter what rules You
decide to make Your own, please....be consistent. If You are unwilling
to take the time to enforce the rules You make, then there may as well
be no rules at all. There is nothing in the world that will make a
slave feel less loved than to have a Master/Mistress who ignores her
transgressions and does not exert Their Dominance.
1. Have her wear slave bells. The constant soft jingling of the bells is soothing and a certain reminder of her submission.
2. When she has broken a rule, talk to her as You punish....and make her speak in detail about why what she did was wrong.
3. Make her take her shoes off every day as soon as she enters Your house.
4. A beautiful, special collar will make any slave joyous. Take
the time to select the right one, and have her wear it as often as
possible.
5. Have her call You each day at a specified time, no excuses.
6. Give her anklets and tell her she must wear one of them every day, no excuses.
7. Whenever possible (i.e. no curious young-uns about), have her kneel before You and ask to accompany You upon the furniture.
8. Choose her hairstyle and go with her to get it cut to Your specifications.
9. Whenever possible (i.e. no curious young-uns about), have
her display herself whenever You come into the room.....legs spread,
shirt unbuttoned. No matter what position You take, she is to be sure
Your view is unobstructed
10. When around the kids or vanilla friends/family, make sure
she has an alternative title for You besides Master.....such as "my
Love" etc.
11. Use her sexually in a rough, selfish way when You feel like it....interrupting whatever she was doing.
12. Chose a food that she dislikes and have her eat a small portion every day for a week.
13. Have her crawl to bed each night.
14. Bring her a stuffed animal each time You go out of town. ~grin~
15. Choose her clothing each day.
16. Have her get Your daily wardrobe ready for You the night before....laid out, ironed etc.
17. After punishment, have her kiss Your boots and thank You for loving her enough to correct her.
18. Have her bring a warm towel and wash and massage Your feet each day after work.
19. Get her tattooed (Your choice of art and location).
20. Get her pierced (or preferably if You are trained, do it Yourself).
21. Get her branded.
22. Respect, but push her limits.
23. Ask her each night what she did that day that You would not
have approved of. *grin* This gets her in the habit of being completely
honest, and also makes her conscious of the things she could do better
each day.
24. Teach her exactly how You want her to kneel, and demand perfection.
25. Reward her by allowing her to please You sexually.
26. Supervise her workout routine.
27. Each night she is to kneel next to the bed asking
permission to sleep with her Master, and each night she does, she is to
kneel by the bed in the morning and thank her Master for the privilege.
28. Have her polish Your boots weekly, on her knees at Your feet.
29. Negotiate until you are both comfortable with the terms and then sign a contract.
30. Giver her a writing assignment: "The definition of Pain - 1000 words"
31. Have her keep a diary of her journey into submission.
32. Instruct her that she may never get herself something to
eat or drink in Your presence without first asking You if You want
something.
33. Some evenings, keep her on a leash and take her with You
no matter what You do....even if You do not speak to her or include her
in Your activities.
34. When appropriate, she is to speak when spoken to.
35. Reward her by giving her delicious pleasure.
36. On occasion, share her.
37. When it suits You, instruct her not to make eye contact with You without Your command.
38. Have her keep her body clean shaven at all times.
39. Conduct random inspections of her body to make sure she keeps herself to Your specifications.
40. Make her wear a butt-plug under her clothes whenever she goes out alone.
41. For transgressions: have her write Your name on the bottom
of her foot and tell her to remember she is walking on You with each
step. (This is harder to do that You might think....)
42. Master the art of the meaningful piercing stare.....
43. Give her reading assignments.
44. Test her on the reading assignments, to make sure she learned the appropriate lessons from each.
45. Instruct her to keep her toenails painted perfectly everyday, and check to see that they are before bed
46. Make it her responsibility to put the toys away after play and punishment, and to keep them clean and neat.
47. Reward her by letting her name her favorite scene, toys, etc.
48. Call her Your slut, Your pet, etc.
49. Have her make a list of the 10 things that make her the most self-conscious, uncomfortable or embarrassed.
50. Work with her, having her do the things on the list (if possible), so that she conquers those fears and hesitations.
51. Sometimes, pamper her.....wash her body and hair, having her remain perfectly still as You turn her and move her about.
52. Hand feed her like a small child on occasion.
53. Have her eat from a dog bowl on occasion.
54. For transgressions: make her wear a sign to the next public function naming her crime. (ouch)
55. Praise her dedication when she has pleased You well.
56. Instruct her that she is never to touch Your body without permission.
57. Have her write a meditation about her submission, devotion
and trust in You....to be said aloud each night before falling asleep.
58. Some days allow her no clothing whatsoever (when practical).
59. For transgressions: deny her play. No pain for you, bad girl....hehehe.
60. In the same ilk, For transgressions: deny her orgasm.....give her sex, but she can't cum.
61. For transgressions: Command that she is to be silent for a
week. She may not speak, and will take whatever pain or pleasure You
give as silently as possible.
62. Treat her like a pet in front of friends, making her present herself, turn herself, etc.
63. Giver her a writing assignment: "The definition of Obedience - 1000 words"
64. Have her wear a toe ring.
65. Tell her one morning that she must cum for You 15 times that day, and then write about the day.
66. Have her wear nipple clamps under her clothing out to dinner.
67. On Your birthday, let her receive Your spankings.
68. Spend time training her how to move gracefully to please You.
69. For transgressions: stand her in the corner like a 3 year old.
70. Always flog her after completion of a task, even if it was satisfactory. A well flogged slave is a happy slave.
71. Speak about her as if she were not present.
72. For transgressions: deny her any D/s at all for a
week.....letting her do just as she pleases, not allowing her to serve
You in any way, no punishment, no instruction, no play, banning titles
of respect, etc. This will shame her and certainly make her strive to
please You when it is over and she is in her place again.
73. Defend her honor to those who would disrespect Your prized possession.
74. Pet her often.
75. Make her be webMistress for Your huge site, DallasBDSM. hehehehe
76. Whenever possible (i.e. no young-uns about), have her sleep in a cage.
77. Buy her sexy or slutty clothes to Your liking.
78. Teach her things....expand her knowledge.....in a patient Fatherly way.
79. When You are away, call her and have her masturbate for You.
80. If You choose to play with others, make sure Your slave
knows who is first in Your heart.....and that some things are just for
her.
81. Remember her birthday.
82. Lead her with a loving fist in her hair.
83. Wake her each morning with an assigned task for the day.....and make sure it is done by day's end.
84. Teach her patience.
85. Videotape Your sessions and watch them together.
86. On long trips, have her wear double dildo latex underwear.
87. Hand feed her chocolate.
88. Have her place her regular wear shoes in a line by the
front door. They should be in a straight line with the laces tucked
inside, or the buckles buckled. Inspect them periodically.
89. Keep a list of her transgressions in a little book....let
her slip for a while...thinking You are not noticing.....then one day,
bring out the book and have a day of atonement.
90. Tickle her just because You can.
91. Have her be perfectly still and quiet while You bring her
extreme pleasure.....when she moves or makes a sound punish her then
return to the pleasure.
92. Keep her locked in her collar when You are home. You place
it on her.....having her kneel. Wear the key to the lock around Your
neck.
93. When possible, have her cook and serve Your dinner wearing nothing but an apron and collar.
94. Buy her a Polaroid camera and give her assignments to take pictures of herself for You in certain outfits or positions, etc.
95. Remember to kiss and caress away her tears.
96. Don't be afraid to bring her to tears, for they are Yours as well.
97. Take her and the dog to the park, both on leashes.
98. Caress her, whisper into her ear that You love her, nibble
on her belly, lick her thighs and make love to her until she cries.
99. Have her fall asleep with Your cock in her mouth and tell her You expect it to be there when You awake.
100. Occasionally, fulfill her fantasy.
101. Master's word is the last word.
Addendum
102. Make sure that she is safe at all times....when with You and when
You are apart (to the best of Your ability). Keep her vehicle in good
working order, make sure she has emergency money and a cell phone to
call for help if needed.
103. Be consistent.
104. Take the time to talk to her.....learn her fears, her dreams and fantasies. Use Your knowledge.
105. When You go out of town, forbid her to shave her sex. Shave her Yourself when You return.
106. Specify exactly how she will address You in private and in public.
107. If You are willing to correct her each time she forgets
until it is a habit, have her refer to herself as "this slave" or "this
girl" etc.
1/20/2009 5:35:15 PM
**Warning** williams2love is a scammer
1/19/2009 12:21:51 PM
So why is it that most on here do not seem to understand the meaning 'Owned' .....?
What does it mean to ones on these sites?
Why do some tell you they have read your profile only to ask you if you would be interested in being 'owned' by them?
Or ask you do you want to 'play'....?
Do these same people walk into a store, club, bar, restaurant; some where out in public and some a nice looking woman. And just walk up and grab her, or maybe they walk up and say "hey want to grab a room at that hotel"?
I have a hard time thinking that they do. So why would you come online and just be so rude and blunt on here?
How can they even have any idea what the lifestyle is and do they actually comprehend what it is really?
Or has so many changed so much that politeness has disappeared completely......?
My meaning of being 'Owned'.......
in simple words:
Back off! You can talked to them with in reason, be polite. Ask permission to their Owner first! Or at least acknowledge the Owner to the submissive....*roll eyes* over how many egos can't seem to say...
"I find Your submissive _________, I would love to talk more with her if you allow"
It takes a bigger person, and a stronger Dom/man to show respect and politeness.
Anyhoo, that is my ramble for right now...... :)
11/14/2008 7:29:04 PM
PISSED OFF!
corrinne
Female Dominant, 35, Amsterdam, Netherlands
This PERSON has to class, Especially respect because they STOLE my picture and using it as their OWN! No really what person will EVER trust them! When they can not be honest about what they look like!
8/11/2008 2:11:40 PM
On this date I posted this journal...I post things some times as my mood is or when something strikes me. I at times read over what I write and see how I have changed, how I may look at things differently or how I view it today....
Today, my thoughts on needs and wants are very different. My needs and wants I can do for myself, I know this and I have survived for many many years. I have been through a lot in my life and it has made me who I am today.
I don't need my Owner, I don't need Him to do any of these things in my life or for me. I can and do for myself just fine. And I can live a very happy life. With or with out Him. I will make things work and have a great life.
But that is not WHY He choose me, why He WANTS her, He doesn't NEED her either, HE WANTS her. Just like she WANTS Him in her life, she chooses, she surrenders every day to be with Him, Because she WANTS Him in her life.
Honestly, there is a Dom/sub around every corner, on every street, there a dime a dozen. It is very apparent by how many messages everyone on here get. The difference is choosing the right one for yourself. Picking the right one who matches and WANTS the same things as W/we do. And the difference is that W/we Want them in O/our life, that W/we don't need them to be there!
Today, she wrote out how she feels and what they are for her now....and has been for a long while.....
In a moment of defining her needs and wants.....to what they are ......
4/16/2008 10:16:27 AM
HER NEEDS
she needs you to be consistent. she needs you to expand her limits. she needs to feel controlled. she needs her limits clearly defined. she needs her feelings validated. she needs to be heard and understood. she needs to feel safe. She needs reassurance. She needs to be needed and appreciated. she needs to feel respected. she needs to feel cherished. she needs attention. she needs to be treasured. she needs to feel cared for. she needs to feel loved. she needs to feel special. she needs to submit (to follow your lead, to do what you want). she needs closeness and intimacy. she needs to feel protected in your ownership. she needs to nurture (do things for her partner). she needs goals & tasks. she needs to perform for you. she needs to please sexually.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Today, she looked over
her list and journal of what she wrote and seen how much she has grown…Wow!
Actually these things have always been in her she just
really thought about how they really are….
This is what she found…
her wants and needs….
she want you to be consistent.
she needs & wants you to expand her limits. she wants to feel
controlled.
she wants her limits clearly defined.
she wants her feelings validated.
she wants to be heard and understood.
she needs & want to feel safe.
she wants reassurance.
She wants to be wanted and appreciated.
she wants to feel respected.
she wants to feel cherished.
she wants attention.
she want to be treasured.
she wants to feel cared for.
she wants to feel loved.
she wants to feel special.
she needs to submit (to follow your lead, to do what you want). BUT she wants
to submit to You.
she wants closeness and intimacy.
she wants to feel protected in Your ownership.
she wants to nurture (do things for her
partner).
she wants goals & tasks.
she wants to perform for you.
she wants to please sexually.
8/10/2008 4:52:23 PM
The gift
The Giver was alone, and the Gift unused: the Giver felt lonely, and sought to find someone worthy of the Gift. The
Rebel came along and saw the Gift the Giver possessed, and desired the
Gift for himself. Rather than ask the Giver for the Gift, or ask what
the Giver wanted for the Gift, the Rebel decided that social rules did
not apply to him, and simply said "Give me the gift."
The Giver
knew that the Gift was fragile and would be destroyed if mistreated,
and did not trust the Rebel; for how many of those who are impolite are
also delicate? But the Giver did not wish to offend, and so said to the
Rebel "I am sorry, but this Gift is for someone else."
The Rebel grew angry and blustered "But I deserve the Gift. I am special and I deserve that things be given to me."
The Giver, glad to have trusted her first instinct, merely repeated: "I am sorry, but this Gift is for someone else."
And the Rebel, still complaining, went his way.
The
Giver sat under a willow tree, contemplating the Gift and wondering
about the qualities needed to really appreciate the Gift; as she was
sitting there the sun and the breeze and the sound of the creek below
lulled her into a doze.
The Thief, who had overheard the Rebel
and the Giver, was waiting for just this moment. Dashing out from
behind a nearby bush, he made a grab for the Gift; grasping it he
started to run away.
However, the Giver was awakened by this and
reached out to stop the Thief. "Give that back!" cried the Giver. "It
is not yours! You have no right!" So saying, she reached out, trying to
retrieve the Gift.
The Thief said "I do not care if it was not
mine, I have possession of it so it is now my property." And so saying,
he pulled again at the Gift, hoping to wrench it from the Giver.
In
the ensuing struggle, the Gift was fouled, battered, and broken. The
Thief, deciding he did not want a damaged Gift, finally let go and said
"You keep it; it is now worthless."
The Giver cried at the state
of the Gift, which she had hoped to find someone worthy of; it was
dirty, pieces were missing and scattered in the grass around her, and
the intact parts were bent and dented. She began to believe the Thief's
assessment of the Gift: perhaps it no longer mattered who it belonged
to, worthless as it was.
But then she noticed that her tears
made clean streaks on the Gift as they fell, and she thought that
perhaps if some of it could be cleaned, all of it could; perhaps she
could make her Gift have worth once again. She took the Gift and its
broken pieces to the creek, where she began to wash them.
The
Gift was easy to clean, but in trying to wash the pieces that had been
broken from it, the Giver lost one. She began to lose hope again. Yet
she was still determined to try to repair the Gift.
Hours passed
as she fit pieces back together where they would stay. Some pieces she
could not make stay, however. From behind her, a voice: "Perhaps this
Glue could help you mend your Gift". She turned to see a Stranger,
holding a small tube of Glue. She took the Glue and thanked the
Stranger, then finished repairing her Gift with the Stranger's Glue.
When
she turned to give the Glue back to the Stranger, he was gone. She
thought to herself that this Stranger had thought her Gift worthy
enough to donate his Glue, and not even demand payment, nor even ask
for the Glue to be returned. Perhaps her Gift had worth after all.
And
as she sat and contemplated her Gift, she realized that the Stranger
was the type of person who would neither ask nor demand a Gift, nor
would he take, but rather he would give. And she thought to herself
that the Stranger was a Giver too. And who better to appreciate a Gift
but a Giver?
So she sought out the Stranger, and when she found
him, she tried to return the Glue to him. He thanked her, but said that
she should keep the Glue, in case the Gift should break again.
And
the Giver said "In that case, you should accept the Glue, for I wish to
give the Gift to you." And so saying, she placed the Gift in the
Stranger's hands.
The Stranger looked at the Gift, and said
"This is too precious; I do not know if I can take care of this Gift."
The Giver said "I believe that you can, and I will stay with you and
help you care for the Gift when you falter."
So the Stranger and the Giver took the Gift together, sharing in it and sharing it, and held it as an example for all to see.
8/9/2008 9:56:41 PM
Les Brown believes that what you do today will determine what your tomorrows will bring.
“You are molding your tomorrow based on what you do today,” he says.
“You can determine what your future holds based on how much time and
energy you spend working on yourself now. Find out what it is you want,
and go after it as if your life depends on it. Why? Because it does,” says Brown.
"Shoot for the moon.
Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars."
Les Brown
"You gotta be hungry!"
Les Brown
"Change is difficult but often essential to survival."
Les Brown
8/7/2008 10:22:42 PM
Seduce my mind and you can have my body, Find my soul and I'm yours forever. ~ by Anonymous ~
For a soul is locked up forever until the Owner finds the 'key ' and is willing to dare to open and she is willing to surrender over..... kittygirl
8/3/2008 9:46:23 PM
For me in order to really get to know people you have to talk to them. You have to find out how their mind works, especially if a Dominant wants to find the right submissive. You need to reach in and search through their mind, who they are deep within.
Most of us submissives keep things deep inside, you won't find them by a few words, a few pictures. If you think you know who I am by looking at a few pictures, exchanging a few words. Your sadly mistaken. You will miss out. I have many facets to this Diamondgirl. If you dare to think that spending a little bit of time with you that you have learned all you need to know....once again your mistaken. A person grows daily, a person changes over time and with each moment there is always something new to learn. There is so much you could learn from exploring the deeper parts of a subbie, if you only have the strength, the time, the patience, and the wisedom to know that a few words exchanged, a few pictures and even a quick fix on the web cam won't even come close to experiencing the deepst parts of a submissive.
I shake my head when I get these simple few words of Nice tits, nice eyes, here is my #, my yahoo, oh yes, I am sure you want to see my dick before you know anything about me. Now get on your knees bitch! LOL! Yes, that is a true way to a submissive mind....;)
And it is sad, because with so many messages like that you really start to wonder about men, Doms and it does start to make you feel jaded. Which brought about my journal of the creeps and nice ones.
The nice ones sit back in silence, they may speak here and there but not to often....The creeps are in way much higher numbers...
I am sure there are just as many woman on here that cause the Dominants to give doubt to subs, to not give them a chance or to have their own backs up and not want to open them selves up either..........
8/3/2008 8:45:23 PM
The nicer gentlemen often hold
back out of courtesy and respect while the creeps thrustthemselves into your face.
So very true
4/23/2008 11:21:13 AM
Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for
your evolution of your consciousness. How do you know that is the experience
you need? Because this is the experience you are having at this moment.
4/22/2008 1:49:35 PM
Sensual/Erotic humiliation; define in your own words what
it means to you?
Can be mild or moderate and is not an uncommon part of
BDSM. What do you consider mild or moderate?
To me there are many different ways of humiliation play
and so many different levels that are very unique to each person experiencing
them. Something that I think should only be explored once both know each other
very well and know each other’s limits. Humiliation play can go to mild to
moderate right to edge play and goes deep into the psychic of the person;
essence at their core.
Humiliation plays I feel needs to be done by someone with
experience; knowledge and when someone with experience does this I find it very
erotic and sensual.
This is one of those topics that are sensitive because it
has different meaning to each person, what one finds very erotic another finds
insulting.
Communication is very important when you go into those
‘areas’ a submissive has to be open, honest, express her/him self and this is
where listening to every word, and even more so important watching to their
actions and reactions to each pushing of their limits. Being cautious is
important when exploring this type of play.
For me humiliation play is sensual, erotic, feeling of
powerful exchange, loss of my inhibitions, very intimate part of O/our session
touches on my essences of who I am at my core that allows me to fly, and to let
go of who I am.
It is never ugly, demeaning, or does it ever make me feel
stupid, ugly, not worthy, or degrade who I am. But empowers me and I feel
stronger and more calm and has actually helped me to accept myself more deeply.
To be more true of whom I am.
It has been a struggle for me to accept and understand
what humiliation play actually is. Because of being conditioned at a young age
that what we call humiliation play; what I felt and wanted deep inside was
wrong. For instance wanting to be called “His little slut”, “His little girl”,
“His kittygirl”, being collared, wearing kitty ears and a kitty tail. All
humiliation play extremely sensual erotic for me however, being condition that
it is ‘bad feeling or just plain wrong.
It is about the deep intimacy between a Dominant and
submissive the power exchange they share to allow those inhibitions to be lost
and melt away and to search in those dark places that other wise most of us
would fear to go. They provide that safe place to explore and with their
experience, knowledge understanding of us we can explore into those dark
places.
What stirs my soul and lights those fires deep within me
are being put on display, being told to prepare myself for inspection by my
Dominant it is so delicious and very wicked. Being told to masturbate for His
pleasure and having to ask permission for my own pleasure release ‘denial of orgasm’
until He decides is so very erotic and sensual to me and one of my favourite
ones for sure.
Another one I find wicked and quite humiliating is
watching Him handle His own ‘equipment’, denying access to Him to and having to
use not ‘polite’ words to what I want. It is sort of an enforced voyeurism so
to say and extremely erotic for me.
Actually being new to this lifestyle a few years ago I
didn’t even realize that I had experienced and touched on so much of
humiliation play and so enjoyed many aspects of it that to me I so many of
these things I desired and enjoyed were actually humiliation play. Which made
my submission more intense and extremely erotic and stirred in my deepest part
of my core. Being called the ‘pet names’, being order to do tasks, eating from
a bowl, crawling on the floor, sitting in His lap in a certain way, exposing
myself or displaying myself for Him, making confessions, and using certain
words.
O/our meaning for humiliation and the ‘vanilla’ are
worlds apart and I so much enjoy the other meaning of it now that I have been
able to explore it with out being in a tunnel vision of black and white and to
actually explore the pleasure side of it. It is a wonderful process and truly a
soul-searching journey that I am happy to walk that path with Him.
Tom’s kittygirl April 22nd/2008
4/16/2008 9:16:27 AM
HER NEEDS
she needs you to be consistent. she needs you to expand her limits. she needs to feel controlled. she needs her limits clearly defined. she needs her feelings validated. she needs to be heard and understood. she needs to feel safe. She needs reassurance. She needs to be needed and appreciated. she needs to feel respected. she needs to feel cherished. she needs attention. she needs to be treasured. she needs to feel cared for. she needs to feel loved. she needs to feel special. she needs to submit (to follow your lead, to do what you want). she needs closeness and intimacy. she needs to feel protected in your ownership. she needs to nurture (do things for her partner). she needs goals & tasks. she needs to perform for you. she needs to please sexually.
4/14/2008 9:44:28 PM
It ain't what they call you, it's what you answer to. ~W.C. Fields
4/11/2008 7:36:48 AM
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 153); font-family: tahoma,arial,helvetica,sans-serif;">"You do not know how much they mean to me, my friends, And how, how rare and strange it is, to find In a life composed so much, so much of odds and ends... To find a friend who has these qualities, Who has, and gives Those qualities upon which friendship lives." -- T.S. Eliot
4/7/2008 10:48:46 AM
Well I have to just say this is a little rant!
Every month I get the same message word for word! From the same guy! And nothing in it every changes so this moron CAN NOT come up with anything new and DOESN'T notice that he sends it to the same people every TIME!
Does any of the subs/slaves fall for this line of CRAP!
Yes, my eyes are powerful and yes I can capture Him with my "feminine wiles" sensual softness something that mornon's like you will never know what it means to even experience or explore it because moron's like you never even take the time to get to know an actually SENSUAL WOMAN!
And yes, moron is now added to the long list of BLOCKED!
4/5/2008 11:18:06 AM
The flowering
(Work in process)
The Flowering of a submissive......
Many questions are asked and many answers are given.
How does a submissve come to life? When does she awake? How is she created? Does her Dom mold her, create her?
He
is the sign pointing towards awakening. As she learns, listens, reads
and with his voice and touch a shift takes place and she becomes more
alive then ever before. she awakens her inner knowing, her essence of
her core. The consciousnes self wakes up and lets it be known to all
around them.
Their purpose
is to not recreate the sub, or to mold the sub into what they believe
but to let her awaken her heart, soul, spirit and truly experience the
precious gift that has been given to both. An awakening is a shift in
our consciousness that has a voice and now she can be heard.....
4/4/2008 4:44:05 PM
the word LISTEN contains the same letters as the word SILENT..."
ALFRED BRENDEL - pianist
"you have two ears...two eyes and one mouth for a reason....one should ...look and listen twice as much as one talks..."
UNKNOWN
" The true secret of giving advice is, after you have honestly given
it, to be perfectly indifferent whether it is taken or not and never
persist in trying to set people right
"Hannah Whitall Smith ( 1832 - 1911 ) Evangelist and suffragist
4/4/2008 1:46:00 PM
"A wave of probability is coming from your past and colliding with a wave of probability from your future to create the your personal Holographic Universe in the NOW."
— James Arthur Ray
"Thought manifest as the word. Word manifests as the deed. Deeds form into habit. Habit hardens character."
— The Buddha
New Earth~~Eckhart Tolle
Chapter 1:
Quote: "Man made 'God' in his own image. The eternal, the infinite, and
unnameable was reduced to a mental idol that you had to believe in and
worship as 'my god' or 'our god'" (p.15).
Quote: "Humanity is now faced with a stark choice: Evolve or die" (p. 21).
Chapter 2:
Quote: "Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the
evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience
you need? Because this is the experience you are having at this moment"
(p. 41).
Quote: "When you can no longer feel the life that you are, you are likely to try to fill up your life with things" (p. 37–38).
Chapter 3: Quote: "What you react to in another, you strengthen in yourself" (p. 62).
Quote: "Awareness is the power that is concealed within the present
moment. … The ultimate purpose of human existence, which is to say,
your purpose, is to bring that power into this world" (p. 78).
Chapter 4: Quote: "To love is to recognize yourself in another" (p. 105).
Quote: "Life is the dancer, and you are the dance" (p. 115).
Chapter 5: Quote: "To see one's predicament clearly is a first step toward going beyond it" (p.131).
Quote: "Nothing ever happened in the past that can prevent you from
being present now; and if the past cannot prevent you from being
present now, what power does it have?" (p. 141).
Chapter 6: Quote:
"Being present is always infinitely more powerful than anything one
could say or do, although sometimes being present can give rise to
words or actions" (p.176).
Quote: "Whatever you idenitfy with turns into ego" (p. 181).
2/25/2008 3:51:43 PM
To make something very clear!
Any dominants that want to 'add' me as a friend now with this new great feature collarme has enlightened everyone with. I find it very rude that you want ask to add me as a friend when YOU have not even spoken one word to me or even know anything about me. And I expect that you need to ask permisson before you ad me as a friend. IT is a privilege and one I do not take lightly. The ones who are already added to my friends list are ones who I have shared conversations with and have started or have a friendship with them.
If you are looking to add knotches to your list of sub's go knocking on someone else's door!
IF you truly want friendship then send a note I won't bite..;)
2/18/2008 7:12:08 PM
You did what you knew how to do, and when you knew better, you did better.
- Maya Angelou
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"There are two kinds of strength: the strength to lead and the strength to follow; the strength to control and the strength to yield. There are two kinds of power: the power to strip another's soul bare and the power to stand naked." ~ Gurumayi Chidvil
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"Do
not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not
believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do
not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your
religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of
your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they
have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and
analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is
conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and
live up to it." - Buddha
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"In
order to experience everyday spirituality, we need to remember that we
are spiritual beings spending some time in a human body." - Barbara De Angelis
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"No one in the world can alter truth. All we can do is seek it and live it." - St. Maximilian Maria Kolbe
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"The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are." - Joseph Campbell
11/26/2007 10:59:56 PM
The Auction
There was a select few submissives and slaves were standing off on the side and
one by one they would be called up in front of the auction people. The lights
were bright so they couldn’t see out into the audience or who was biding on
them.
The rush and the anticipation of wondering what would happen
to her were making her body flush all over.
her mind was racing trying to figure out how she got her
self in this place in this situation.
Some of them were completely naked, some were clothed in
very little and some of them only had very little but provocative outfits
on.
she had put on exactly what was in the gift box that also
had complete instructions of this place and what she had to do. she put on the
little black soft leather boy shorts. Very sheer baby blue top that made her
eyes pop out especially when she had her eyes done up in the ‘wanton kitty look’
her shirt cling to her breasts and firmly fit but had that nice flow when she
moved. It gave such a graceful soft look with each movement she made and you
could see more of her sensual side.
You could see the gold diamond chain that was attached to
her velvet black public collar with a very ting lock on the center of it that
had a chain that dropped down the center of her breasts, which had two clamps,
attached to her nipples and the rest of the chain flowed down to her waist which
had very tiny diamonds that wrapped around her.
Her shorts were low risers so you could see her midriff and
her top was a wrap around that ended right underneath her breasts.
her hair flowed down and just curved very softly on her
chest so with each movement or breath she took it just pulled you in to wanting
to reach out and touch her.
she stood there waiting to be called not completely
understanding why she was in an auction because she always thought that He
understood she never wanted to be traded, sold, given away or ever touched by
someone else. But she loved Him, trusted Him, she already given her self to Him,
He told her she belong to Him and Him only. So why was she in an auction? she
knew she had to do Him proud and she wanted to please Him and He always had good
reasons why He did anything with her. So she surrendered to Him and what He
asked of her.
She watched and seen how the auctioneer treated the
subs/slave how he reached, grabbed them, caressed, touched, pinched, and how he
just went all over their bodies touching them every where. He would even reach
in a rough manner and stick his fingers in their cunts with sometimes a
roughness that made her just cringe with nervousness and such an anxious feeling
over came her. She didn’t want him touching her cunt, her lips, her clit because
they didn’t belong to him and she thought of being touched by other hands and
not knowing what would happen to her. she wanted to turn around and run but then
she pulled her self into that deep place inside that ‘little girl’ that just
knew that ‘Daddy’ would never do anything to hurt her so why again was she
here…mixed with all the questions running through her mind she noticed that she
had strange feelings building up inside of her. Parts of her were getting
excited, her body was warm, flush, and she noticed she was becoming wet. she
felt that was so wrong, so bad, to have those feelings well up inside of her.
Then she realized this was such a naughty thing to do have people watching you,
look at you being so exposed to so many people and not even knowing any of them.
She started to notice that the little girl was slipping away and the wanton
kitty, the bad girl, the sexy vixen, sensual woman was coming alive waking up
like coming out of a dream. Just then her name was called she didn’t move at
first she had to get a hold of her self. she wanted to walk across that stage
with such grace, sensuality, her sexuality to flow from her inner core because
if He was watching she wanted His heart to stop and be so proud of his little
kitty girl. She knew He was there she could always feel Him and He would never
make her do something like this with out being there to protect her and she knew
that deep with in.
she walked across the stage and her shirt flowed and she
heard soft sounds of ahas and soft moans. She knew she had done the first part
right she managed to walk with grace, style and her sensuality flowed from her
with such energy. It took the auctioneer a minute to gather his thoughts for he
got lost in her as well. She looked up only for a moment and gave him a smile
and gave him a look that seem to snap him back to what he was suppose to do.
He then looked out at everyone and said we have here a
‘submissive’ this one is very special because NO hands have ever been on her,
she is untouched, very well trained, her collar shows that she is locked and
shall only be given to her ‘True Master/Mistress’ He/She will be given the key
to unlock her and she will be owned by Him/Her and only by Him/Her and He/Her
will be able to do what He/Her wants with her (anything), she will give Him/Her, her will to will
her as He/Her wants.
Well her heart pounded and she thought but she didn’t want
anyone else or be with anyone else she couldn’t believe what he was saying. But
she kept her self in check because she wanted to not show her fear. She wanted
to keep this feeling, look that she worked so hard to achieve. He walked to her
and she felt her stomach flip and wonder omg is he going to touch me in those
veil ways that he touched and groped the other subs and slaves. But he didn’t he
only pointed in places and pointed things out came very close she could feel the
heat from his fingers and hands and it set parts of her on fire but she didn’t
want him touching her and she couldn’t understand why her body was betraying
her. It isn’t supposed to get excited and it isn’t supposed to want to have that
touch and she was starting to crave to be touched. Everyone knew why he wasn’t
touching her she was unspoiled, untouched and this way her ‘True Master’ would
be the only one to have their hands on her once they completely owned her. she
didn’t think of that cause her mind was racing in so many directions and
wondering if she ever did anything that would make Him want to give her away.
Was she bad and she was being punished? She went through the last few months and
trying to think of a time that would cause Him to punish her or teach her a
lesson. But she kept coming back to no she was good, she always did everything
she asked, she always tried to please Him and make Him happy. He said He was
very pleased with her. she was so busy going through all the things in her mind
that she totally missed how many had bid on her and they were having a biding
war on her. she snapped out of it and when she looked out and seen this bidding
war was between a few different people and she could see them slightly in the
shadows and she didn’t know who they were. The fear set in and her heart pounded
because she didn’t see Him anywhere.
The auctioneer then moved her shirt so her breasts were
exposed and she thought she was going to die of embarrassment but to her
surprise as well it made her feel even more naughty and she got a little wet
from the cool breeze gently touching her breasts. But he still didn’t touch her
skin all.
Then all of a sudden she heard Him say the words she dredged
“SOLD” and her heart stopped….what SOLD to who, how did that happen she knew she
didn’t hear His voice…How could He let someone else take her….
She did exactly what she was told she walked to the side and
he said …You will be taken right away Tina will take to you to your new
Master….she stood there for a moment in AHA wondering what had just happened to
her. Tina took this leash and clicked in the lock part of her collar. She
stopped for a moment and looked up and almost started to fight back and wanted
to cry for a moment but she didn’t. she knew she still had the key and no one
could make her give it. No one could make her surrender she could not give it.
But she would do as she was told because as far as she was concerned she was
still owned by Him and only by Him. So because He told her to go and do this she
trusted that He would keep her safe. He would still protect her so she went to
that deep place inside and held to that feeling of the love that wrapped around
her when she needed it.
Then went to the back of the place and out the back door.
Where there was this car waiting for her, Tina put a blindfold on her and tied
her bands behind her back and helped her into the car. Tina said to the ‘Master’
here is Your submissive she is bought and paid for. NO one touched her as was
instructed on her auctioneer slip. So she is unspoiled, untouched, as You wished
MasterT.
Her heart pounded and she wondered is it Him, did He buy
her, she wanted to scream out and ask, she tried to see if she could see through
the blindfold but that wasn’t working. she was placed into the car and she tried
to hear that voice, or breath she knew. But He wasn’t making a sound, His
breathing was so controlled, you could tell He was a Master of commending
presence and very much in control. she even knew what He smelled like and she
couldn’t get a fixed smell because there were a few scents in the air that made
it confusing to her. Nothing was said and she was told she wasn’t allowed to
talk or do anything until she was told she could.
It seemed like a long ride and finally they arrived at the
place they were going too. she was gently taking out of the car and helped into
the place that was to be her new place of service.
She was told once she arrived at her new place that she
would be guided inside and she was to stand her in her standing submission pose
so her ‘Master’ could look her over.
she was standing in the center of a room it seemed and she
stood there in the pose that He took pride in teaching her and she had learned
it very well. She had also learned to stand there for a very long time while He
looked her over, touching her, pinching her, having His way with her if He
decided. Until now she never had a Master/Dom touch her. In her training He
always explained what would happen, how it would happen, and what He would do to
her when He did.
See in her training they do mostly everything over the phone
she would stand there with a ear piece and He would talk with her, she would
stand there naked with her cam on and she would be blindfolded, and He would
talk to her over the phone and tell her what will happen to her in this pose.
So she was untouched, unspoiled and so waiting for Him to be
her first and only one.
She stood there with her heart racing and thinking over what
she was told to do. He told her in her note she had to do exactly what He
instructed to her in this pose. Which she thought He would be the one doing
this. In the note it said you would stand in this submission pose as your
Dominant, your Master looks you over and inspects your body. Remember you belong
to Me, kittygirl, I own you, I can only ‘share’ or ‘give’ you to others if I do
OWN you.
So once she remember what the note said she felt her guilt
slip away because HE did say she belong to Him and she surrender that to Him,
she trusts Him and she wanted to make Him proud of her. So she stood there and
submitted to what would happen to her next.
She then felt His touch on her shoulder, and then slowly
across her back, you could tell He loves the feel of her skin how soft and silky
it was. It was so silent there you could hear His breathing pick up. She knew He
was happy so far with how she looked and how she felt and that she was standing
in this perfect pose and was one of the best submissives He had ever witness in this position. Then He
slipped His fingers over her breasts and played with the clamps as He tugged on
them she could feel slight pain and the sensations went through her body with a
rippling affect. Oh she thought there is no way I am giving in to any
excitement. She can stand her and be the best submissive but she wasn’t going to
give in. she had this inner battle going on inside of her. she only wanted Him
to experience this. MasterT went from her breasts, to her clit, to her lips, to
her cunt and then her to ass. Just very lightly touches, taps, very gently so
far and nothing intrusive yet. MasterT kept walking around her and she could
tell He was tall, strong, firm hands and fingers and very good at being in
control because when His breathing would quicken He would take in a heavy sign
and then it would be back to a control breathing again. It showed such strength
and power something she always desired, wanted and needed. She was a very strong
woman and it would take a very strong man to be able to ‘take’ her and be able
to get her to surrender her will especially now.
He caressed and touched her ass, slapped it a few times and
the slight sting made her get excited and once again she felt like her body had
betrayed her and Him. She thought to her self she made the promise to do as she
was told always and that what would make Him the happiest is having her sexually
ad sensuality flow from her and become as sexy, sensual, as she could be. At
that moment she slipped into that submissive place and let her body float into
her sexually and let it flow from her. At that moment she heard His breath
quicken, and His movements became more direct, firmer, more aggressive, she
could hear His heart pounding in His chest that had that sexy rhythm with each
stroke He did. He reached and stroked her clit, slipping His fingers into her
cunt and she started to moan slight moans, she couldn’t help her self her body
was in a rush of excitement and it felt so good and she felt so very naughty,
dirty, almost a slutty feeling and she excused those emotions because she was
only listening to what He told her. There was something about this MasterT that
just felt right and felt like He knew her to well He just new all her spots, all
the spots that set her on fire and she couldn’t control her body. She was so
turned on, so excited and totally in subspace she couldn’t control her
movements, her sounds, she was almost going to faint when she felt MasterT grab
her in an embrace, His hands stroking her clit with a firm force, and as she was
ready to ripple into waves of the strongest orgasm she ever felt she heard the
words she so long to hear. “kittygirl, you have to ask permission to cum” “Do
you want to cum for your Dominant, your MasterT, for Me?”
Just as she floated completely into subspace and melted into
His arms and lost all control of her self, dripping wet with juices flowing all
over His hands, she said..
“kittygirl, wants to cum, she needs to cum, she only wants
to cum for her MasterT, My Love, My Tom”
And with that He said you can cum My Kittygirl, you belong
to Me now.
“Now cum for Me, your Dominant, your
MasterTom.
With that she came for Him and dropped completely into His
arms surrendering everything she had to give to Him for she knew she was home
and safe. He held her for a long time until she came too from her subspace.
He had taken off her blindfold and was holding her tight and
she looked up into His eyes and He smiled back at her. I can only ‘share’ you if
I truly own you, and I truly do own you My baby, My little submissive love,
OHMYGAWD I so love you.
Her eyes filled with tears because she truly understood why
He bought her at the auction and she fell even more in love with Him.
BDSM is a big umbrella that with holds all the others
within it to which each person holds their own meaning to them and how they
feel or view the lifestyle.
Dominance and submission comes from a place deep within
our core of who we are. It has very deep meaning to me.
In order for me to have a LTR there has to be more then
just a sexual relationship and it can’t be all ‘vanilla’ either. The WHOLE
relationship is an integral part of first a deep bond, intimacy, emotion, sensation,
sensuality, eroticism and sexual that W/we fulfill the deep-seated needs of
both of U/us. That has first been built on trust, honesty, communication,
understanding of each other, the more He invests in getting to know the deeper
parts of me and me learning what He needs as well in order for me to meet His
needs. The stronger O/our relationship is and the deeper my submission flows
and for me to give Him my will.
Yes I do want to be compatible and I want the whole
package because for me I cannot give my submission to anyone. It has to be
someone I truly trust and that W/we have taken the time to invest in something
more and deeper. For me it is a mind, heart, soul, then body experience; sex,
being naked, the most engaged intimate acts is a tool that He uses to bring my
submission to a deeper level or a way for me to express, share, those deepest
parts of my needs, wants, desires and please Him. When I am at my most
vulnerable place I go much deeper into my submission and my trust only grows
with each step for Him.
I find as well that when I am doing ‘things’ for Him that
I know He has told me or I knowplease
Him, I am in a state/mind set that has a sensual eroticism that comes from the
deeper parts of me.
So for me Dominance and submission has a very deep
meaning to be treasured. So I wouldn’t give my submission to someone who only
wanted sex or right from the start. They really need to get to know me from the
inside first.
10/1/2007 1:11:42 PM
submissives are a precious
gift from God and they are angels to be treasured and cherished, If given the
care 'right' for that submissive their wings will spread and
the 'One' will receive such amazing colourful rays of love
from heaven that will touch His soul. This is a journey that is meant
to last a life time and to be truly enjoyed through all parts of that pathway,
too embrace the very essence of her, to breath her in, to take her to places
she has never been, to want to go deep within her to touch and feel the
very core of her soul, once you have crossed those path ways hand in hand
and you take in the breath of her, You know you have lived in the glorious
rays of the heavens above...
Tom's kittygirl
9/23/2007 9:33:55 PM
"When we touch a new level of consciousness, a new world is created."
— Deepak Chopra M.D
9/17/2007 7:42:50 AM
Check out this movie:
http//www.thepetmovie.com
Let me know what you think and if you know of any other ones please let me know.
Thanks, :)
8/30/2007 12:14:52 AM
THE BRAVE ONE
Plot summary New York radio host Erica Bain (Jodie Foster) has a life
that she loves and a fiancé she adores. All of it is taken from her when a
brutal attack leaves Erica badly wounded and her fiancé dead. Unable to move
past the tragedy, Erica begins prowling the city streets at night to track down
the men she holds responsible. Her dark pursuit of justice catches the public's
attention, and the city is riveted by her anonymous exploits. But with the NYPD
desperate to find the culprit and a dogged police detective (Terrence Howard)
hot on her trail, she must decide whether her quest for revenge is truly the
right path, or if she is becoming the very thing she is trying to stop.
Interesting
movie idea and I seen the first preview this evening while I watching CSI. I
really do like Jodie Foster’s work in the past so this would be a movie I would
be interested to see. The idea of going and teaching your attackers a lesson or
wanting too is something I am sure anyone who has ever been attacked or harmed
understands.
Brings up some interesting
topics for sure doesn’t it? A good debate that would have people discussing at
great lengths and most likely some would be very passionate about too.
Something I can bet that not to many are going to see this one eye to eye or
everyone agree or feel the same. Actually I stand on the fence
of NO! They shouldn’t take things in
their own hands it leads in directions for so many other ripple affects and can
only bring you more pain. It is a dark place to be when you decide to hunt down
your attackers, to be the judge and jury as well decide what type of punishment
they will receive. Not a good plan for sure. First you’re giving away all
your power to someone that doesn’t deserve your time or energy but most importantly
your life. Second you have become just
like them or worse and you should of known better. Third one is losing your life
and living with the fact that you took another person’s life worth all of that;
I think not. Those are just some important
points that I think should make some change their minds to not take
it into their own hands. However I do think that the
laws need to change; and something needs to be done because we have way to many
people that play the ‘victim role’ now a day. And too many people do not take
100% responsibility or accountability for their own lives…. This point really hits home
for me because of something that happened in a small town close by many months
ago that involved a couple of ‘kids’ thatdecided to do a horrible act against an animal and long story short
everyone in the world has heard and given their opinions on this subject. Of
course there has been courts and lots of stories in the paper and sadly enough
you get enough people all fired up and crap starts to happen. Well a few weeks ago
‘someone’ decided that the laws weren’t working the way they should or as fast
as some would like. So they decided to take it upon them selves to become the
punishment team. Someone decided that shooting in this ‘kids’ house trying to
kill the kid would teach him a lesson. They missed the kid because he was in
the shower and the mother was walking by the living room when she heard the
sound. Since her son was in the shower she thought at first it was he but then
finding out he was fine. She looked around and noticed the hole in her window.
Now of course they missed them both and they are fine now. But this poor mother
has to live already with the fact her kid did this horrible act for whatever
reasons he has. Whether they are having troubles are not she is dealing with
what her son is doing. Then dealing with the small town of people doing all
sorts of things to her, her home and everything that comes with the out rage of
people who think that they are allowed to do all sorts of ‘vengeful acts’ to
other people. And now fearing her for her
own life and her child and of course she just wants this nightmare to end…… So what if she hasn’t done
anything wrong. She was the best mom she could be and her child totally screwed
up and now she has to pay right along with him. Because someone thinks he
should…. What if they hit the wrong
house? What if someone was visiting and they got the wrong kid? The problem taking things
into your own hands is you become worse then the ones your attacking and most
times you end up hurting more then just your attacker……
Is she really Brave or has she just become what
she hates the most????
8/23/2007 5:50:57 PM
I find it very unfortunate that about 90% of the people on here are not really into the lifestyle and it is just for kinks, fun or something to pass the time by.....
8/16/2007 12:16:06 PM
"Never try to teach a pig to sing. It wastes your time and it annoys the pig"
"In every girls life, there is a force, a presence, a Daddy,
a Dominant that she lives and breathes to love and honor."
"A Top is for tonight, a Dom is for how ever long they are needed,
a Master is as long as they seek mastery, but a Daddy is forever."
8/15/2007 12:27:39 AM
The Brat's Creed
If I want it, it's mine. If I give it to you and change my mind later, it's mine. If I can take it away from you, it's mine. If I had it a little while ago, it's mine. If it's mine, it will never belong to anybody else, no matter what. If we are building something together, all the pieces are mine. If it looks just like mine, it's mine. if it's broken.....it's yours!!! if you fix it i want it back!!
author unknown
8/14/2007 4:07:52 PM
From the book "A Return To Love" by Marianne Williamson
"Our deepest fear is not that we are
inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask
ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a
child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's
nothing enlightened about shriking so that other poeple won't feel
insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory of God within
us.
It's not just in some of
us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we
unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are
liberated from our own fear, our presence automaticclly liberates
others. "
8/12/2007 8:11:57 PM
I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who
makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naïve or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman. Anaïs Nin
When I let go of who I am, I become who I might be. -Lao Tzu ...
8/7/2007 8:48:10 PM
TOM JONES LYRICS
"She's A Lady"
Well she's all you'd ever want,
She's the kind they'd like to flaunt and take to dinner.
Well she always knows her place.
She's got style, she's got grace, She's a winner.
She's a Lady. Whoa whoa whoa, She's a Lady.
Talkin' about that little lady, and the lady is mine.
Well she's never in the way
Always something nice to say, Oh what a blessing.
I can leave her on her own
Knowing she's okay alone, and there's no messing.
She's a lady. Whoa, whoa, whoa. She's a lady.
Talkin' about that little lady, and the lady is mine.
Well she never asks for very much and I don't refuse her.
Always treat her with respect, I never would abuse her.
What she's got is hard to find, and I don't want to lose her
Help me build a mountain from my little pile of clay. Hey, hey, hey.
Well she knows what I'm about,
She can take what I dish out, and that's not easy,
Well she knows me through and through,
She knows just what to do, and how to please me.
She's a lady. Whoa, whoa, whoa. She's a lady.
Talkin' about that little lady and the lady is mine.
Yeah yeah yeah She's a Lady
Listen to me baby, She's a Lady
Whoa whoa whoa, She's a Lady
And the Lady is mine
Yeah yeah yeah She's a Lady
Talkin about this little lady
Whoa whoa whoa whoa
Whoa and the lady is mine
Yeah yeah She's a Lady
And the Lady is mine.
8/5/2007 2:43:06 PM
Funny how some feel the need to send people messages that are nasty, rude, with NO CLASS!
They can't find a nice thing to say so they feel the real NEED to strike out against someone they do not even know. They have decided to read very little words, look at a few pictures and JUDGE what that person is all about. You know what I see in that type of person. Someone who has been hurt, someone who has had their trust broken, someone who has jealous in their heart and is full of so much pain, hurt, bitterness and sorrow that they can't look past their own past hurts that all they see is the worse in someone else.
And for the record which I don't owe anyone a reason why my pictures are up and why each one was picked. But there is a special story behind each and every one. And in each one that was hand selected has special meaning that only someone who truly understands D/s really means at its very soul. They are a special and honor gift for my Love, my Dom and my only ONE. Tom's kittygirl
Class is in the eye of the one who has class Himself for He reflects what He see from His own heart and soul......
So what does your mirror reflect back to you?.......
8/3/2007 11:12:01 PM
Someone once said, "How does it profit a man to have
gained the whole world and lost his soul?"
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and
expecting different results. Albert Einstein
We cannot become what we need to be by remaining what we are. Max DePree
If you want to know your past - look into your present
conditions.
If you want to know your future - look into your present actions. Buddhist Saying
"We may not be responsible for all the things that
happen to us, but we are responsible for the ways we react when they do
happen."
"There's
only one thing more painful then learning by experience and that is not
learning from experience." (Barbara Johnson)
7/26/2007 7:16:27 PM
http://www.albanypowerexchange.com/Ds/mentors.htm
7/26/2007 1:58:30 PM
""I do not want to be the leader at home. I refuse to be the leader. I
want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying
over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life,
his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don't
mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a
woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don't mind being
told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, to do on my own all that I
am capable of doing yet I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by
the will of a male at his time, his bidding." ~ Anais Nin
7/24/2007 1:00:48 PM
Trust -
I
have watched over the past several years the devestating effect of a
submissive losing her Dom, Most of you know me well and if you do you
know I have experience this first hand.
Sirs
please cherish this gift that is given, do not take it's
responsibilities lightly, for you hold our most prized possesion in
your hand.
Sometimes
no matter how we try things do not work out as we thought they
would,but it does not have to be cruel, it does not have to be filled
with pain, it is how you handle the parting.
It
is much easier to give up the man you call you boyfriend or husband or
friend, but it is next to impossible to give up you Dom/Top, a
submissives can feel lost, neglected, and abondoned.
Do
not let this happen. Help her through it, take a little more time,
let her know it is ok to find someone else, you started this journey
together, and you have to help her through it's end, only then will she
be left with positive memories.
Goodbye
Author - Unknown
******************************************
I post this poem because it makes me think of so many Dom/Masters who might not take great care to say good-bye, for the ones who when first meeting a sub/slave don't take that great care to treat them with respect, that don't seem to realize how deep this goes. For the Dom/Master for whatever reason their part has to come to an end and then have to part ways....
A Dom holds a submissive in His hands, He holds a precious gift, her heart; mind; soul; spirit; and as He may have her body in bondage the true power is in the Mind.......
It doesn't end when He feels it has ended; it doesn't end when she feels it has ended; it only fades into an ever lasting path of exchange.............Once you touch a soul you can never take that mark back, the bruises may fade but the powerful words are always there.....
I am blessed that my Dom knows my truth and He holds me in great care and He allows me the courage to walk my own truth by His side and she is honored to knee at His feet...... Tom's kittygirl
7/23/2007 2:00:42 PM
Use your vanilla ‘old
school’ protocols/rules/manners when you are addressing me please.
My name is
Melina or Diamond girl that is what I am called in the vanilla world and if YOU
feel the need; desire; want; or Because of YOUR own belief; rituals; protocols;
rules; guidelines; manners what ever you base YOUR own D/s BDSM lifestyle
behaviors to be then you need to ask permission from my Dom if you want to be
called anything other then your given birth name.
On a personal note here: I
find it personally rude to not give your name after you have started a
conversation with another person that you are personally wanting to get to know
better or even as a friend. You wouldn’t act that way in a social setting and
it just shows a tad bit of EGO here!
By all means I do find it
funny, lighthearted, joy, and very humorous when some of you have been very
creative with your opening lines of the ironic sayings and how to be ‘address’
However,
please keep in mind there are still lines of etiquette, respect, and courtesy, that MUST be
given to my Dom of proper common etiquette of the D/s lifestyle and if any of
you have been in it for as long as you say you have THEN You already know what
YOU should be doing!
Thank you,
Diamondgirl
7/22/2007 11:30:37 PM
LMAO!
OMG you are all suck HOOTS, well some are just plain strange!!! But for the ones who took time, effort, and care to send some thoughtful words I did the same...:)
And for the ones who were just PLAIN dam funny! Well yes I did smile and laugh, so great job!
It is a nice break from the 'hye get on yur knes and call ME master'....(yes I did misspell that on purpose hehe)
So of course since I am going through a bunch of messages please be patient I will respond especially if you took the time and care to be thoughtful, respectful and funny.
And for all those ones who want pictures keep coming back I am sure more will pop up and I will save you the HARD brain power of asking for 'special' ones in such a difficult task of saying more then one liners....LOL!
Yes I have pushed my limits to show more sides of this 'Diamond'.... Enjoy!
PS. All web cam/get on your knees/ can I touch you, spank you, give me nasty pictures you are directed to 'icecop' and you can ASK for persmission by my Dom.
Stay tuned for tomorrow since I am sure more pictures will be approve daily....;)
7/22/2007 1:40:54 PM
Well a very interesting day today. They approve one of my pictures. Oh let the games begin now!! LMAO!
It amazes me on here that a 'dom/domme/master' and yes I did that on purpose will send a one line word and demand for me to address him/her as if they just have taken me over and expect me to send my best pictures right away.
With out even talking to me and finding out who I am...
Give me a break!
Yes, I know how to speak to Them in a respectful manner and I know my place when I should but don't think you can push me around...there is a lot of fire in this kittygirl!
As for anyone who wants to talk with me. I am open and honest and very upfront. So please say more then a couple of words and I may not always type with out making a mistake. BUT come on give me a break, you say 3 words and every dam word is miss spelled!!! Clue! hint! it tells me something about YOU!
And if you say your a 'dom/master/mistress/domme' and YOU don't even use proper 'Caps' DO not think I am going to bend down at your feet. Or tell ME to use proper wording. When you do not show by example yourself.....
Yes I am fun and full of smartass wit and if you don't like my style you can move on ward..... oxox kittygirl
7/21/2007 11:08:03 PM
Listening
to him, I hear the music..
Gazing
at him, I feel the heat..
Following
him, I climb the mountain..
I
get excitement at his feet.
(Verse from "Pinball Wizard" by
The Who.)
"We're
heading for something
Somewhere
I've never been
Sometimes
I am frightened
But
I'm ready to learn
Of
the power of love."
(Verse from "The Power of Love"
as sung by Celine Dion.)
7/21/2007 11:04:21 PM
I come to you on my knees
I come to you on my knees
tonight
Im feeling out of my place
I have a need that only you
can understand
this slave begs for your control
I need your absolute power
eclipse my soul with it
to remind me
I am your possession
I need you to cleanse me
of these feelings of insolence
Take your crop
and together we will go back
back to where we live
where I need to be
hear me cry out
and know that its for you
lead me into your fire
I will come and join you there
I want you to make me worthy
of you
the crop and the pain
they always bring me home
I need to be bound
completely lost
use my body
fill my every opening
burn out my improper thoughts
fill me completely with you
I need you to give me pain
to make me beg
taste my tears
let me pay the price for
belonging to you
take it out in my flesh
to remind me
take me to your edge
and then lead me farther
where we live together
I go there for us.
Unknown
7/21/2007 11:01:32 PM
Submission of a Precious Gift
I kneel before you..
My will and most
precious gift I give to you…
I offer up in quiet
awaiting your approval, waiting for you to graciously except.
You know the lines of my pleasure and the fine lines of my pain
With each day it
becomes ever sweeter with your embrace of every touch, every kiss, every word
that comes from your soul and in your soft breath
My soul is
smouldering embers that are kindled tormenting desires you have awakened in me.
I quiver captured by heat and hunger my soul yearns to hear you say with those
few little words that makes my will now yours
Sir, My Love,
Show me what you most desire as I have such desires too.
Speak your words to
my deepest oceans, as we are reflections that mirror each other’s purpose,
dreams, wants, needs and desires.
The desire of being
taken, to be chosen, the desire to surrender my precious gift of all I am and I
all I have………
With each step we
take we awaken our souls to embrace and celebrate our unbroken love.
