Today i was used again by my Mistress.  i was very happy to be able to get on cam and please her.  Today Mistress started by having me jog for five minutes and after i was allowed a beer.  Mistress is limiting my drinking to help me tone my body for my Mistress.  i am very thankful she is taking the time and help me get fit.  Mistress then had me weight myself and i had gained 2 pounds, so Mistress had me run for another 5 minutes.  Mistress then had me stand on my head against the wall and i was to stay there until she said.  i was unable to stay very long because i have a bad neck and back, so i got down to tell this to Mistress.  She understood but than had me do it naked.  i felt like her toy just standing on my head waiting for her to say stop.  im sure i looked like a fool, but it pleased my Mistress, so that made me happy.

Next Mistress had me lube a banana and fuck my ass and edge at the same time.  Mistress had me do this an additional 3 times before Mistress granted me a ruined orgasm.  When i was edging i was only able to last a couple of minutes because these ruined orgasms give me no relief and only make my need to for relief greater.  It has now been about two and a half weeks since i was allowed a real orgasm and Mistress says i still don't deserve one.  i wish that i could have a real orgasm so bad, but i know that it is only a wish and that Mistress will do as she pleases because she is my Owner.  The ruined orgasms give me no pleasure at all and it is very frustrating because cum comes out but i don't feel any relief.  i have no right to be frustrated because i am Owned and Mistress knows what is best for me so i only do what Mistress wants.  i really cant wait until Mistress thinks i deserve a real orgasm.  My goal is to please Mistress so that i can be on her good side.

At the same time i am also starting to feel that Mistress is my Owner because i cant do anything without her.  Mistress controls when i use the bathroom, what i eat, what i wear, what color shirts i wear, when i go out with friends, when i go anywhere, and what i drink.  Mistress pretty much runs my life and i am lost with out her.  i am very thankful that Mistress is willing to be my Owner and take the time to control my life.  Mistress thank you for all that you do and for being my Owner.  Thank You Mistress. 

Today Mistress and i were finally able to to met on cam after my last ruined attempt on Wednesday.  Mistress decided to punish me for me ruining our cam session and also for taken advantage of my curfew.  i don't know why i keep getting into these positions and i hope that i have now finally learned my lesson.  Well Mistress started the session out sit 50 sit ups and me edging.  Mistress then wanted to try another ruined orgasm, but a different way.  Today i had to jack off and when i was ready to cum i had to stop.  This is different from the last way when Mistress had me jack off and then pinch my cock so that no cum came out.  Well back to the second way.  i did it as Mistress wanted and it was way is way worst and is more of a ruined orgasm then the first way.  The reason is because unlike the the first way where i was able to cum as soon as i was cumming i stopped jacking off and it prevented me from having the feeling of an orgasm even though cum came out.  So it was like i got no relief even though my balls did (As Mistress says).  This way keep me very horny and feeling a greater need for release. 

Next Mistress had me dye my bush.  Mistress decided it would be punishment to have a blue bush and i agree that it would be very humiliating and embarrassing to have a blue bush.  i dyed it twice and it was only a little purple, so i got on cam to show Mistress and Mistress had me dye it again for her on cam and for the time she wanted.  i did this and it still was only barely blue.  i think it is because i have a very black bush, so the color doesn't show very well on it.  But while dyeing my bush some of the dye got on my skin and now even after scribing my skin very hard it wont come off.  This is even more embarrassing because now i have a blue cock base and a blue bush.  Once i was clean Mistress had me edge again and then do a ruined orgasm again.  This is one of the worst feelings to be so close to cumming and not actually get that feeling.  It is one of the best feelings to have an orgasm and now Mistress has taken that away from me too. i wish to have an orgasm so much and now i get to but i don't get the feeling.  i miss that feeling so much.

i am learning that i have no power under her and that she is actually controlling my entire life, at least 85% of it.  Mistress controls when i use the bathroom, what i wear, what i eat, what snacks i get if i get any, when i can drink a beer, when i get to have desert or sweets, when i have to be home, when i get to go out or go anywhere, and Mistress has me on a workout plan.  i am not complaining at all because i finally have what i have been looking for for so long.  i have a caring Mistress that is controlling my life and i want nothing more to give her more control but what more is there to give?  i am very happy to have my Mistress and i am happy for all she does for me.  i can only hope now that i can please her and complete any and all tasks or orders she gives me.  Mistress thank you for all that you do for me and for owning me!!!!!

So some how i have done it again and have taken advantage of the little freedom my Mistress gives me.  i was at a concert last night and i had asked permission to go to the concert, but i forgot to ask permission to go to anything else.  Well i ended up going to an after party show and then bowling and ended up pulling an all nighter.  When i was on cam with Mistress today i of course told her what i did and where i went.  So now as part of my punishment i am required to stay up till 1am and i have to message her at the top of every hour until 1am.  i am not on thirty minutes away which is exciting because i will finally get to sleep, but i will only be getting 5 hours of sleep, so in the last 2 days i will have been up for 43 hours.  i am beat and very tired and cant wait to go to bed.  i am taking this time up to reflect and see what i need to do to be a better slave, so that i don't get punished.  What i have come up with is that i need to learn to act like my Mistress.  i am not saying to act like a girl, but more think as she thinks.  For example, i know that she like me to eat chicken and turkey over beef, so i will eat of chicken and turkey.  Or i know what she demands from me in the way i respect her and treat her and if i act ho she wants me to act then i know she will be proud to own me and i will be proud to have pleased her. i also know she likes that i carry every task out to the exact letter that she tells me to or get punished.  We will see how much i improve over the next couple of days.

Tonight i was used again by my Mistress.  Tonight Mistress wanted to try a ruined orgasm on her pet.  i had no idea what this was but learned from Mistress that it was where i would orgasm but couldn't touch to finish. So what i was to do was jack off and then when i was about to cum stop and let myself cum.  Supposedly it gives a sub relief but not the pleasure of cumming.  i was giving two choices:  one to jack off till i was cumming and stop or two to jack off till i was cumming and pinch the head of my cock so that no cum comes out.  i choice the second for no real reason other then i thought it might feel better then the first.  i don't know what the first will feel like but  the second did feel great besides not getting the ultimate pleasure of a full orgasm. Mistress then instructed me to eat my cum.  She has warned me that i will be eating all my cum for the next 2 weeks. 

Although i was allowed to cum i got zero sanctification of having an orgasm.  Also it didn't feel too great because i had to pinch down so hard on my cock.  But i was lucky that Mistress let me cum and i really enjoy being Mistress guinea pig to try new things out on.  i do want to try the first option now to see which one would feel better.  i hope that my Mistress was proud that i didn't mess up i know she was worried because i have had a couple of close calls while edging this week.  i think it was because i am so sensitive from no cumming over 2 weeks, i hope i never get to know how sensitive i could be for longer then three week.  But like Mistress says "never say never pet" so i am sure i might have to find out in the future.  Thank you Mistress Jess for allowing me to cum again tonight and also for using me tonight.  i was very happy to try out a ruined orgasm for you and cant wait to try whatever else you come up with.

Also Miss Jess i do want to say sorry that our session was cut short today and i hope that we can cam again tomorrow.

Tonight i was used again by my Mistress.  She used me for pleasure at last.  At last i am on her good side and can finally get rewarded.  i am sick of her bad side and hope to never see it again.  Mistress used me twice to tonight.  i was excited because she told me earlier that i would be able to cum twice, after all i haven't cummed in over 2 weeks.  i was very excited.  First Mistress had me edge like 3 times then had me cum onto a plate, where i was to lap it up like a puppy (her puppy).  Next i inserted my pinky into my ass and fucked it before inserting my birdie finger.  Next came her favorite toy a banana.  Mistress had me fuck the banana and edge 4 times.  i almost lost control once and Mistress wasn't to pleased.  Man i am happy i was able to keep control. Again Mistress had me leave the banana in and cum on a plate for her, where i lapped it up as her puppy.  

i am learning that i am starting to like the feel of anal and also cumming with something in my ass.  it is still a weird feeling to have something in my ass but i am learning that it does feel good.  i also know that i need to like it because Mistress loves when i fuck my ass for her.  She thinks its very hot, so i am happy to do as she says.  i am so happy that i have the best Mistress in the world, who understands me and knows that i am trying my hardest to please her.  i am very happy to have pleased my Mistress tonight and to get back on her good side.  It has been two weeks since i was last on her good side, so i am very excited.  i am very happy that my Mistress is happy with me and i look forward to our next session.  Next session Mistress wants to try a ruined orgasm, which i don't know how that is gonna feel but i am open to it. 

i am writing this entry today to Thank my Mistress for allowing me some freedom at one of my good friends weddings this weekend.  My Mistress allowed me to eat what i wanted to a degree, but said to be good because i am still on a diet plan.  Also Mistress allowed me four drinks at the wedding even though i wasn't allowed to drink till midnight tonight as part of my punishment last week.  All i wanted to say was thank you Mistress Jess for letting me drink 4 drinks and eat what i wished.  i am very appreciative because a slave should not get this treatment so Thank You Mistress Jess.  Miss Jess is the best there ever is and i love serving her!!!!!! She is the best Mistress alive!!!!!  i am so proud to be her slave and so proud to please her!!!!!!  Miss Jess thanks for showing me what it is like to be owned and to serve a real Mistress!!!

Tonight my Mistress used me again.  I was begging for her to use me tonight.  i wanted and needed to be used so bad.  First Mistress had me do my 50 sit ups with 25 added for good measure.  Next Mistress had me bind my legs at my ankles and my knees with belts and had me do 40 sit ups.  Mistress then requested that i take the belts off and get naked and put them back on, then i was to hop and get a glass of water.  Mistress then instructed me that we were going to play a game.  A guessing game where i had one guess to guess how she was going to use me tonight.  Mistress would give me a hint after each failed attempt.  If i failed then i had to crawl while bind to get a glass of water.  After i came back i would have to drink the glass of water.  It took me three trips to get water to guess that she was going to use hot wax on me.  When i was crawling back and forth between my room and the kitchen i felt like i was her pet and her toy.  That i was there for her pleasure and entertainment.  i am very happy to do anything my Mistress says for her enjoyment and if i am allowed pleasure then that is an added bonus.  Now with my legs bound and my cock and balls pulled up hey made a perfect target and that is where i started, by dripping wax onto my balls.  Next Mistress wanted me to seal my nipples with wax and allowed me to use a pencil to let the wax dry directly on my nipples.  Next i was told to seal my balls and cock head, before i was allowed to blow the candle out and pour the remaining wax on my chest.  This session was very fun for me and i enjoyed serving my Mistress.  Also i know that my Mistress enjoyed watching me do as i was told and also working on being a better sub.  i love it when my Mistress comes up with games, challenges, or tasks that are so original and so fun to do.  The pain was minimal from the wax, it was more shocking then anything else really.  i learned that once you start you just need to keep going because the pain will still just be a chock.

Also Mistress as of Wednesday has taken control over my bathroom privileges.  This is something that i told her i would be interested in and she accepted it and also made it very humiliating as well.  My Mistress requires that i has to pee and poop and must do so secretly.  I am very happy to give my Mistress more control and she now controls everything that has to do with my body. i am very excite to see what else my Mistress my take control over.

Today i was again used by my Mistress, only instead of pleasure i got pain.  i was punished because i broke a rule this Monday, where i went to a friends house for dinner and forgot to tell Mistress what i would be having for dinner.  Mistress no controls all meals except breakfast, but i tell her what i have each morning.  Even though i was not cooking, i am still required to tell Mistress, so she knows if i am allowed any snacks or such for the next day.  This dinner i had pulled pork and my Mistress was very unhappy that i didn't mentioned this or that i didn't clear it with her first.  So today was my punishment.  Mistress did a number on my nipples and also teasing me.  First yesterday Mistress had me research about punishment and what i found was that a recently broken slave (me on Saturday night with icy hot) needs to be punished severely for the first broken rule.  So i told Mistress this and she already had a gut feeling, so today i would get that severe punishment.  First i had to use cloths pins on my nipples, not just one but two.  i would twist, pull, push in, and yank off to get them nice and sensitive for Mistress.  Mistress alternated between each side of nipples, where i would pull off the clothes pins and replace with ice.  then put the pins back on and yank off the other side.  i did this twice before Mistress had me put three on each nipple and leave them there.  Next Mistress had me put three cube of ice into my shorts and press firming against my ties up balls and my cock.  My balls are tied because i got a message this morning from Mistress that my balls are to be tied all day.  It is now 3:57 and i get to remove the 6 clothes pins from my balls.  Ok back to my punishment.  Next Mistress told me not to let any cubes drop and to go get a banana and some lube.  i was then told to insert the banana while sitting on my chair and read 3 fem-dom stories and fuck my ass.  On the third store the banana got to soft so i had to use two fingers instead.  My Mistress is very pleased when i fuck my ass for her and it gives her great pleasure, which is why i am here is to please her.  After that Mistress had me attached 6 cloths pins to my balls and one on each nipple.  i was told not to remove the clothes pins on my balls until it was 3:55, which i just did and that the clothes pins on my nipples stay on till 4:20pm.  My nipples are so sore right now they are in serve pain.  

Also i wanted to discuss how happy i am that my Mistress has me on a workout plan and a diet.  Mistress is trying to tone me up and her workout plan and diet are doing just that.  Mistress is doing so well that when i was at a BBQ (with Mistress's permission) my friends commented on how good i was looking.  i was so proud to be a slave for my Mistress and receive compliments of her workout and diet. i also know Mistress really enjoyed that my friends had noticed.  i am even more determined to stay on the course of her diet and workout, so that i am perfectly toned for my Mistress.

As far as my punishments today.  i really dislike displeasing my Mistress and i hope that this is the last punishment i ever get.  It was only last Saturday that i was saying this, but Mistress went really hard on me today and although i know i deserved it, i have been broken even more.  Mistress still thinks i might need one more session to be completely broken, but after today Mistress told me that i had the water eye broken look in my face, which i think she was happy to see. i believe that i have been broken again by my Mistress and now i need to let go and let her re make me into her perfect slave.  i know Mistress will mold me to be more obedient and to allow her to take more control over me.  i can say that i know i am broken and that i am her's to do with as she pleases. i am excited for the future of what will come and what she will take control over.  Mistress i am yours!!!!!! Please make me the best slave ever and Thank You for my punishment today!!!

Today i was able to come home for a business meeting to meet my Mistress on cam.  My Mistress used me last night just for some teasing, where she made me read 3 fem dom stories and wouldn't let me touch myself.  Today Mistress used the same idea but with a twist, she would read to certain parts and only allow me certain touches.  For example, on one story i was to read half way through and wasn't allowed to touch my cock, then i was able to slowly rub it.  If i rubbed to fast Mistress gave me one warning and said the time was punishment.  i slowed down, then Mistress had me insert a finger in my ass and slowly fuck my ass, next i was to ride my finger, and lastly i was only allowed to rub my cock head and that was it.  i was so hard and wanted to cum so bad after reading 3 stories, but Mistress denied me yet again.  i was very happy even if i was denied because i was serving my Mistress.

Today also Mistress allowed me to read up on being a good slave and learn about how i should act since i was now owned.  If you read my previous journals, you know that i was broken on Saturday night and i am now at her mercy to be reborn her perfect slave.  i learned a lot while looking on the internet.  i learned that her word is above all and that even if she is wrong she is right because i am below her.  also i need to surrender my body, mind, and soul to her to be re-built as she sees fit.  It was a great day and i was happy to show progress to my Mistress that i was indeed a changed man.

Then tonight for dinner, i messed up.  i went to a clients house for dinner and i didn't tell me Mistress what i was having for dinner until after i ate.  It was a really big stupid mistake that really only shows what an idiot i am and i know my Mistress thinks i will slip up again.  Even though it may seem like a little mistake, it is a big mistake because it shows my Mistress that i still may need further punishment to break my will to control.  i need to give up all control and let my Mistress any and everything she wants.  Also i need to realize that when my Mistress tells me i have made a mistake, i shouldn't explain myself unless she asks for a reason because no matter what i say its still a mistake.  Although i thought i had a good reason i know that her word is all that matters, so when she said i messed up i was pissed and very upset at myself.  i know now that i will have to be extra good to show my Mistress just how much i have indeed changed since Saturday night.  i hope my Mistress will accept my apology and let me show her how i have changed this week.  Mistress had taken away any and all alcoholic drinks for 6 days as punishment.  i will be trying my best to show my Mistress just how much i am sorry for that simple slip up.  i hope she will forgive me for my mistake.  Mistress i am sorry!!!!

Today my Mistress used me again.  i have been so happy to have been used by my Mistress for the forth time this weekend.  This was a very fun and hot session.  First Mistress had me me strip naked and do 75 sit ups, 20 extra - 10 to each side, and 25 push ups followed by 25 more sit ups.  Then i edged once for my Mistress.  i was then told to go and get my lotion and a banana and that is was time to work my ass.  i was told to start by standing with one finger and to slowly fuck my ass and then fuck my ass harder.  i then added a finger and fucked my ass slowly.  Then Mistress had me leave the fingers in and sit down, which pushed my fingers deep into my ass.  i was then told to edge again, it felt great, my fingers where right on my prostate and it felt great.  Then i was told to lube up the banana and insert it into my ass and fuck myself and edge.  My ass was very tight so it took me a little while to get it deep in my ass, but once i did it felt great.  Next i was told to edge while fucking the banana, the pleasure was great and amazing.  i did this twice. Then Mistress had me turn to the side and move the cam closer so that she could see me cum.  i was then told to fuck my ass hard with the banana and also jack off until i cummed on my stomach.  Once i cummed on my stomach i was told to leave it there all day and i couldn't wipe it off, which it is still on now.  Also i was free balling all day because i was i was still washing my panties.  Because it took me so long to wash my panties, my panties punishment was extended by one day.

I loved my session with my Mistress.  i felt that i was totally owned after my punishment yesterday and i am very happy to be owned by my Mistress.  After this session i could tell that my Mistress really likes to use me for pleasure and that i am only just punished because of my own fault.  i was so happy to please my Mistress because and to give her pleasure by serving her.  i know my Mistress enjoyed our cam session as well and i am very happy for that.  i am so happy to please my Mistress and i am so happy to be owned by Mistress and i cant wait to serve her again.

Last night my Mistress did a very crazy and very cool task.  She started out the session by giving me 1 minute to chug a beer.  i was able to drink it in 15 seconds.  So Mistress had me drink a second beer but i only had 30 secs.  i also was able to finish it.  Then Mistress told me i had three minutes to sip the third beer, which i was able to do.  i was given the same three minutes for my forth beer and 4 minutes for the fifth.  So by the end i was feeling pretty good and really buzzed.  i know you are saying 5 beers and i'm buzzed what a pansy right, well Mistress has been limited my beer to maybe one beer a night, so my tolerance has been decreased.  i don't kind that Mistress limits my drinking because i am her slave and she owns me. 

The next tasks were the rest of my punishment.  This was to be my icy hot punishment.  Mistress had me start out with icy hot on my nipples and on my stomach.  Also i was still wearing my panties.  Next Mistress had me stand up and remove my tampon from my ass and then put icy hot on my ass crack.  The pain was instant and intense, it was the the worst yet.  Then Mistress had me place icy hot under my balls and also on the under side of my cock and lastly on my cock head.  My entire body was on fire and i couldn't sit still it was very hard.  i don't know what to do the fire was intense, even when it was cooling it was still intense.  Before the session was over my Mistress gave me two more punishment tasks for the week, not only will i be wearing my panties but i will have to sit to pee and also for an hour every night i need to have a tampon in my ass.

The pain was intense and then it hit me during the session that i was broken, that i would take all this pain just to prove to my Mistress i was hers to do as she pleased and my body was hers. My Mistress had warned me that she would break me and she broke me good.  i was sitting there with my body on fire that i realized that i was hers that my will was hers and that all i wanted to do was serve her.  i hope that i will never have to go through that again.  i hope my Mistress knows just how sorry i am for disrespecting her and also cussing at her.  i am very very sorry and i hope my Mistress will forgive me.  i want nothing more then to be on her good side.  Please Mistress please please forgive me and let me get on your good side.  Please Mistress i am yours to do as you wish, mind, body and soul.  Please Mistress i am very very sorry.

Today my Mistress used me for a second time.  My Mistress messaged me and gave me a ten minute warning to be on cam, unfortunately i was in town without permission so it was added on to my punishments.  This session was to be with clothes pins and also the first of two sessions (Mistress has only told me that i would have 2 pain sessions), but i don't know if 2 is all i will have.  First i was told to show my Mistress the panties that i had in which i was told after my last session that i needed to have them on from after the session till midnight next Saturday.  After i showed my Mistress, i was told to place 8 clothes pins on my balls.  Next I was told to jog in place, do 25 jumping jack, 25 sit ups, and 20 push ups, followed by 25 jumping jacks.  i also had to climb a latter twice to the third step and jump off.  This went on for about 20 minutes between jumping jacks and jogging in place.  Next My Mistress had me pull on 2 clothes pins up and down and also twist.  Also i had to pull two two clothes pins off and place them on my nipples.  I jogged in place and then put them back on.  Finally to end the session i had to insert a tampon into my ass, which was to remain in until our next session. 

This session was painful but a different kind of pain.  It was painful like a burning sensation because of the cloths pins on my balls.  Every move made the pull or twist.  The worst were the jumping jacks, because when your legs come together my balls would always be stuck between my legs and also my balls were flying around twisting and pulling.  i am very sorry for what i have said and did to my Mistress and all i was thinking about this entire session and after with my burning balls was that i need to do better with how i serve my Mistress and i need to show her more respect.  She is the one in control and i crave her control, so i need to take her her commands as she commands and make sure to stay on her good side.  i know after this session that i never want to disrespect my Mistress again and i will make sure it never happens.  In fact i hope that i never have to get punished again, but i cant say for sure that will happen.

So today was the first time since my last entry that i was used by my Mistress.  this morning we had a great chat about our future because i had been very bad this last week. my morning session was the only session of pleasure that i know of.  i will be having two more sessions: one with icy hot and one with clothes pins.  i was bad because i used the f-word while talking to my Mistress which is very bad to do to any women let alone my Mistress.  There are also 7 other reasons i deserve these punishments.  i am not happy about my actions and i wish i could take them back.  i hurt my Mistress and i hope that after i do my punishments she will see just how dedicated i am to her and how much i want to serve her.  i really hope she understands how sorry i am.  i know She knows that part of my frustration was her making me jealous, but none the less my actions are unacceptable.  i know that i will have a lot of pain in my future today but if it means that my Mistress will forgive me then i am happy to do the punishments.  Mistress i am very sorry and i know that i will be even sorrier later, but i am very very very very sorry and hope you will please forgive me.

So as i said my session this morning would be of pleasure.  So Mistress had me first take the cube of frozen cum that we had been working on.  the cube had about six loads of cum in it.  i was to put it in my mouth and let it slowly melt and not allowed to chew it at all.  Mistress also had me swear it on my lips and under my nose.  After it was on my lips then Mistress had me finish it off in my mouth.  Then i was to edge twice before i lifted my legs over my head and give myself a facial.  It was so humiliating to have my own cum in my stomach and on my face/chest.  i was happy to be humiliated because i know i gave my Mistress great pleasure.  Also Mistress gave me another punishment for the week.  i am to wear the panties that i bought this week for the next seven days.  i am really not looking forward to this and will be humiliated all week, but again i am happy to do it for my Mistress. i hope my Mistress will see that i am really trying to please her and will try my best to do so.  i enjoy serving my Mistress and she is the best Mistress in the world.

Today i was used by my Mistress,  i was required to be on cam no later then 2pm.  My f-ing computer then had to do some automatic updates and i was barely on cam on time.  If i was late then i would have had some icy hot below my belt and after the pain i had from my nipples and armpits yesterday, i didn't want any icy hot on my balls.  Today my Mistress had me start out with a workout, then tape across my stomach, then edging, then finished with putting a tampon in my ass.  

i liked the workout, but i felt that i could have used more.  My Mistress has taken away all my snacks until She sees some improvement on toning my stomach.  My stomach is the one thing my Mistress dislikes.  i think my ab workout needs to be at least 200 a day to really change anything. 

So my Mistress created a game for me to play today.  It started with me placing tape, 4 pieces on my chest, one in each armpit, one over my pubic hair, and one in my ass crack.  i was told to edge and after each edge i removed a piece of tape.  This was a brilliant challenge because it gave me pain and pleasure but also made me want to submit further. i really enjoyed this task.

Putting a tampon into my ass is very humiliating and i was also asked to put lipstick on my lips, which is even more humiliating, but it turns me on so much to be humiliated and embarrassed by my Mistress.    i left the tampon in my ass until our next session for the day.  The next session was about 2 hours away and i got a real good picture of how Women feel when they have to use tampons for a week. 

My Mistress keeps getting more and more creative, and i have no idea how she gets these ideas but they are amazing.  Today i was told to fill a condom with some ice cream and put it on my cock and then edge twice.  After that i was to eat the ice cream.  i ate the ice cream and it was very creative and very good.

During our second session i was told to tie a show to my balls for some stretching and i was told to jog into place and also jump off the latter again.  i held the string to prevent to much pain and my Mistress caught me and had me attach two shoes to my balls, which was way worst.  i was disappointed in myself for displeasing my Mistress. I also had to do 5 jumping jacks and the pain was pretty bad because the shoes will bounce around and swing around so the pain gets pretty intense.  i was then told to edge and was able too even with the pain of my balls throbbing. i as then told to insert two cubes into my ass and i did and it was very painful and was a mini enema with the ice melting. My Mistress ended our session after i told her that i was starting to get some cramps.  i told her i could take it but she was having none of it.  It shows me that even though i am her slave, she cares for me and wont anything bad happen to me or my body.  i was very disappointed not to serve my Mistress anymore, but was happy to learn how much she cares for my health.

i like to be my Mistress's little toy to try new things out.  i am very happy to serve my Mistress and hopefully she will take me up on my offer to serve her all next weekend.  Mistress thanks for everything you do. i don't even know what i would do if i wasn't serving you all the time.  

My Mistress is AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was used again this afternoon by my Mistress.  Today started out while playing backgammon.  The first game my Mistress taught me how to play, the second game we played we made a bet that if i wont then no rubber band swats, which i won.  The third game we bet that if i won then i could drink all i wanted tomorrow night but if i lost then i got a belt whipping.  i lost, but my Mistress was nice enough to not make me belt whip myself.  i am very grateful that she should me mercy when she didn't need too and although i told her not to let me off the hook she still did.  i am very grateful that she did. 

Next my Mistress had me place icyhot on my nipples and under my arm pits, my arm pits were the worst and i had to cry uncle to remove it.  i was required to leave the icyhot on my nipples and it was very painful as well.  Then i had to wrap a rubber band around my cock and balls and try to edge.  i was unable to edge and so my Mistress had me remove the rubber band on my cock.  Next my Mistress had me get the banana to see if the banana rubbing my gspot would make me edge. i still couldn't edge, so i had to remove the band around my balls and continue with edging with the banana in my ass.  i was told to fuck my ass harder because i wasn't going fast enough for my Mistress.  i happily complied and was able to edge.  My Mistress had me edge 4 more times.  i was so horny i wanted to cum so bad, but my Mistress told me not to night.  Then she said that i could but i had to cum into my ice try so that i could continue making my cum cube.  My Mistress let me cum and i was very thankful to cum. 

I was very surprised that i was able to cum and also very thankful.  i am so happy to be my Mistress's slut and will do anything she asks me too.  Tomorrow i am required to be on call for my Mistress and this will be my first full day serving her.  i am very excited but also scared for what she has planned for me since she has a full day to use me. Thank You Mistress

This afternoon i had another cam session with my Mistress.  i starting to depend on her more and more.  This session she came up with a new idea, i was to get a rubber band and set it by my left nipple and pull it and let the band hit my nipple.  The pain was intense and i had to do it on each nipple 3 times, then on each of my balls before i was told to edge.  Although the pain was intense i still got hard, my Mistress thinks that the pain is starting to turn me on.  i don't know, i think i'm more turned on serving her and obeying her, but it could be the pain.  After i edged i had to use the rubber band to the top of my cock head twice and each ball again before i was told to edge again.  After i edged i then used the rubber band on my cock and balls once more.  

After the rubber band my Mistress told me to grab one of the socks that i had been wearing all week and stick the heel part into my mouth.  The smell and taste was so disgusting i couldn't stand it.  Mistress then had me inhale a deep breath.  Next Mistress had me remove the sock from my mouth and edge with the sock.  i was happy to edge and was happy to throw away the socks tomorrow.

My Mistress really likes using anal play with me now and i do like it too, but i know for a fact that i am not gay.  i also know that she knows this but really the reason i like it is because of my prostate.  So this afternoon my Mistress had me use a banana this time, the reason was because it wasn't as large as the zuc, so i was able to actually fuck it.  i started by warming up my ass with one and then two fingers.  When i got two fingers in i was told to edge again. Mistress then instructed me to lay on my back and to fuck myself with the banana and edge.  Since the banana was smaller the the zuc i was able to fuck easier and it was very pleasureful.  i was told to do this about 5 times while not removing the banana and after the fifth time i was instructed to get the ice tray.  Mistress is having me make a ice cum cube.  i was allowed to cum into the tray and then had to put it back into the freezer.

This session was very fun for me and i enjoyed it very much.  i hope that my Mistress enjoyed it as well.  i have another session with my Mistress Friday night, so we'll see what she had planned for me. Thank you for using me and letting me cum Mistress.

So this entire week i have been doing a couple of challenges given to me by my Miss.  The first she instructed me that i had to wear my socks for five days straight and i also had to put them in my pillow when i slept.  This challenge has been very embarrassing because i am a contractor and also play soccer, so in the five days i have worked four days and played in two soccer games.  My socks smell so bad it is gross and i wasn't able to sleep very well last night because of the smell, but today is the last day and i cant wait to have a new pair of socks on and no smelly socks when i sleep.  i am very happy to have gone though this for my Mistress.

Another challenge she has given me is that from last Sunday to this Sunday i have to sit whenever i go to the restroom.  This task wouldn't seem so bad, but it is very awkward for a guy to have to sit just to pee.  i don't think it is too bad, but it is just different from what i am use to.  It has proven difficult when i am on a job site which doesn't have a bathroom so then i have to hold it until i can make it to the bathroom.

The last challenge i have, which my Mistress just gave me yesterday is that by Saturday i have to fill a cube in an ice try of my cum.  i don't know what she has planned for that cube, but my best guess is that i will be eating it.  Only time will tell.

So far i have really enjoyed serving my Mistress, although at times i am scared of her tasks, i still know that i am owned and i am loving every minute of it.  My Mistress is the most creative person i know, it is almost scary creative, and i think that is one of the main reasons i enjoy serving her, that and also that she is very hot and very controlling.  My Mistress now controls most if not all of my personal life, from when i have to be home, to what i drink, to even what i get to eat for lunch and also to any snack i have.  It is very exciting to be owned and controlled to a point where my Mistress has to tell me what i eat, when i sleep, etc.  it is one of the greatest feelings of all.  i am so happy to have found my Mistress. i would be lost without her in this world.

Yesterday my Miss used me again.  It has been a while because i was unable to do a cam session so it was a fault.  My Miss has been edging me and not allowing me to cum for over a week and a half.  i know it is not long as some subs, but with me being new that is pretty long.  My Miss started our session our with a light workout which i completed while being naked.  Next up my Miss had me insert my index finger into my ass and fuck my ass.  After a while my Miss had we switch to my ring finger and fuck my ass for a while as well.  After my Miss was satisfied she had me move to two fingers and had me fuck my ass harder and faster.  This was to warm me up for the large zucchini i had purchased at the request of my Miss.  Why did i get a large zuc for my first time with something besides my finger you ask?  Well i got a large one because my Miss told me that if she didn't think it was big enough i would still have to fuck it but i would be denied again, so i made sure it was big enough.  i started out on the small end and slowly worked it into my ass, once it was in i was required to edge.  i was to edge as well as fuck my ass with the zuc at the same time.  Because i hadn't cummed for a while, it didn't take me long to edge.  I proceed to do the edging and fucking my ass 4 more times.

After my last edge, my Miss had me open up a package of cookies.  Mind you i got very excited because before my Miss put me on a very strict diet, my nickname was cookie monster.  Since my diet, sadly i haven't had very many if any cookies.  My Miss is trying to tone my body for her pleasure, which i have no problem with.  Once the package was opened i was instructed to pull a cookie apart and eat all of the frosting, which i happily did.  Next i was instructed to do that to a second cookie.  i was then told to edge again.  After i edged, i was told to crumble the cookies onto a plate.  Once they were crumbled i was told to jack off and cum onto the cookies.  i was finally allowed to cum, which i was very happy about.  The bad part was that after i had cummed i had to lick up all the cookie crumbs and my cum until the plate was clean. 

This was a very fun session and i enjoyed it alot and i think my Miss did as well.  Thank you Miss for allowing me to cum.

So my Miss would like me to describe the session we just had tonight.  She had told me before that i needed to buy a candle because we were going to do fire and ice play.  i was excited because in a previous session we had done ice play and i liked it.  i was a little nervous about the hot wax though.  Miss decided that although my body is good looking i need to be toned, so she had me start a workout with her telling me what to do.  it consisted of me running in place, doing jumping jacks, sit ups, and push ups.  The work out lasted about 25 mins. straight.  i am also required to do 50 sit ups each morning and night.  i then had to jog to get a full cup of ice to use for ice play.

Miss had me start with ice play and had me cool myself down with rubbing ice around my neck and moving onto my left and then right nipple.  I went back and forth a couple of times before i went to my stomach and finally inside my boxers.  Miss then had me pull and twist my nipples, which are very sensitive.  Next was wax play but i couldn't find my lighter it took me about 15 mins. to find it, when i did Miss was very mad and disappointed that i wasn't prepared.  This meant i was to be punished.  i wasn't happy to have displeased my Miss.  

i started the wax play by dripping it on my left and right nipples, the pain of the hot wax first hitting was very intense, but died down a couple of seconds later.  i was also required to drip the wax in the center of my chest.  I repeated this a couple of times before my Miss was happy.  Next was the start of my punishment where i was to place cloths pins on both nipples and pull, twist left, twist right and then pull straight off. i was required to perform this twice.  i was told to put the pins back on and edge.  After that i took the pins off and dripped more wax onto my nipples.  Next i got totally naked and was told to rub ice along my cock and balls.  After i rubbed the ice was i was told to drip wax at the base of my cock and then on my balls.  i found out that my cock hurts the most when i drip wax on it.   i was then told to edge again.  i was then told to place two cubes of ice into my ass, it was very cold.  Next i was told to put my boxers back on and then pour the entire of cup of ice into my boxers and press down firmly.  i was told not to let any ice fall out, but my Miss caught me losing a piece of ice which meant more punishment.  i was required to place the cloths pins back on my nipples and pull and twist each way and then pull them off. Miss then told me that i was to sit there until all the ice had melted, after about ten minutes i couldn't take the cold anymore and ask my Miss if i could drip more wax on my cock instead of wait for the ice to melt.  She agreed but i had to drip the wax directly onto my cock head.  i was ok with that because my balls were so cold.  i first dipped wax on the head and then had to dribble the wax from the head to the base twice.  Doing that hurt the most, and i was also instructed to drip the wax onto my balls again, i didn't feel it too much because they were so cold. i was then told to lift my cock up and dribble the wax over the head of my cock until it reached my balls, i did it twice. i was then told to edge again.  i was denied as further punishment for not being prepared.  

This was the first time that i was really used and abused by my Miss and i can say that now that it is over i truly enjoyed it and i am pleased to be serving her.  It was a very rough session and i am still feeling it, but i wouldn't have it any other way.  The pain was intense and so was the pleasure at time, but mostly painful, but i know that if i would have been better prepared then i wouldn't have had to be punished, so it is my fault that Miss was really rough on me.  i also know not to cross her because she comes up with some very painful punishments. She made her point this session and i hope i never have to be punished by her again.  Thank you Miss