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No longer searching, i have found the "One" She is all i could ever want. Best of luck to You all. i am in search of the "One" i want to find someone to devote myself to and who is seeking a long term relationship. My ultimate desire would be to find a Mistress whom I could start a lifetime of servitude and submission based upon complete and total control, as well as love and my total adoration of all She is. I desire to find that lifestyle , one that will leave me feeling, complete, empty, broken overwhelmed, used, abused, but above all that I want to find the Mistress that I love more than life itself and will do anything, everything to please and serve for life I believe that I have been a submissive my entire life through, a true born submissive. I can remember as a child always wishing to please and make the people around me happy, be it my parents or friends both male and female. As a child, I can remember liking to be the robber when playing cops and robbers so I would be the one wearing the handcuffs, albeit plastic and fake I still liked the idea of being subdued. I did not know it at the time but my submissiveness showed through even then. When I reached puberty woman dominating and humiliating men dominated my fantasies. I would stay up late to watch the movies on the premium channels and always was so much more excited with movies that had the vixen type character that was always in control. While growing up there were times when I would tie myself up with bed sheets, socks rope whatever I could get my hands on. I tried some of my mothers clothing and lingerie on and always liked the idea of how it felt and how I was being bad and wished I could be punished for it however I haven’t ever felt like I was born in the wrong body or felt like a woman but I just liked the humiliation of it. Wearing women’s lingerie felt wrong and humiliating, I wanted to be punished and humiliated for it my fantasies, and desires have grown stronger and more apparent as I have gotten older however, nothing has changed much from them desires. All that aside I grew up in a very normal, happy, caring, loving, and supportive family and lived a very normal existence on the outside despite the many feelings of submission and dark fantasies that I didn’t understand completely however excited me. I was well liked and had many friends although I was very shy around woman, and being what submissiveness to woman was, I had not really accepted that I was truly born to serve and tried to deny my feelings. I just wanted to be the normal high school boy. I never ever made the first move or showed any aggressiveness towards woman. However my underlying desire to serve always showed through, always wanting to please everyone especially woman, regardless of how well I knew them. . I was a very nice person on the outside and had many girls that were friends because they all said that I was so easy to talk to and very comforting. I was grateful for the friendships that I made but this led me to be the crying shoulder and never resulting in any intimate relationships. I was there for them repeatedly and at times even liked to hear about some of the sex they had. Unfortunately woman in high school do not seem to be attracted to the genuinely nice guys who would place them on a pedestal and worship them as a Queen, they seem to like the bad boys who treat the bad so I was always just the crying shoulder. I was into sports throughout my life always keeping active as a child and I was relatively good at most of them. I played basketball, baseball, and did some running in cross-country. I had a few dates in high school but as I alluded to they all ended up resulting in a friendship, doing whatever I could to help them with whatever they needed. I have gotten older and have many acquaintances and I still jump to help whenever I can. I do not seek others approval as I once did and have become my own man. At this point, however the desire to find the One who will control me and take me where I so desperately seek to go is more evident and getting so clear to me. It has not been this strong of a desire to find Her and begin the rest of my life than it is right now. I Enjoy many varied vanilla activities. I like the outdoors camping, hiking, mountain biking along with playing basketball and golf. I like the theater and a good movie and relaxing at home. I love to play mini golf and enjoy long car rides to nowhere in particular. I like to read but probably do not do it as much as I should. I enjoy working around the house; I like to do improvements of varied intensity levels, landscaping projects and such. I enjoy the beach and even more at night, I love the moonlight and the crashing waves enjoying the company of someone special. Sometimes doing absolutely nothing at all and just enjoying quiet and peace can be the best form of fun there is, taking time to reflect upon the day and things to come. I do believe that with the right person the most mundane and boring things can be much more fun and exciting with the spin the right connection puts upon them. I have many other talents that I enjoy doing as well. I like doing chores around the house I enjoy cooking and cleaning, but more so I love doing yard work and fixing things. I enjoy doing electrical work plumbing work and carpentry and love the feeling of accomplishment when a project id finished and looks or works well. I have done lots of landscaping as well and do enjoy doing things like that too. Planting flowerbeds and creating serene places right in my own yard to go and relax, enjoy quiet time of the divine company of that special person. I love to worship and adore the a Dommes body. I love to kiss massage worship and adore every inch of my Mistress. I adore and want to kiss and worship, as well as her body I love to kiss lick and worship my Mistress’s love nest, I love to have my face buried between Her legs for hours, to take in that amazing sight, scent and taste, it is so intoxicating. I also love face sitting and anal rimming, I love the humiliation and control that a Mistress exudes while sitting upon my face and having me rim Her sweet ass. I love to massage and worship Her feet as well, I love to be on my knees before my Mistress as she enjoys my hands and lips upon her beautiful feet. I know that I masturbate much too often and desire to have my Mistress control my orgasms, leading me to become a more obedient and happy slave because of it. My fantasies are vast and vary, I want to experience everything this lifestyle has to offer, and ultimately provide a high level of service to my Owner while doing so. Living each day to please and serve Her every desire. My only limits are Scat, children, and animals, although having said that, when owned I do believe that a slave has no limits and I would if pushed by my Owner do them. With those limits in place, I want to explore all that the lifestyle has to offer. I desire to have my Mistress push me to the edge, then a bit more, but catching me before I fall over, bringing me down pushed a bit further and harder than I thought I could take, but forcing me to take it all and thank You for it when done. My biggest fantasies even though it is always totally about the Mistress, I want to be on open book so they are as follows chastity, cuckolding anal play, total and complete body worship, and total ownership and servitude. Those are what I dream about and think about while dreaming about my life as a complete slave I love nothing more than to see a smile on my Mistresses face. I love knowing that I helped to put it there through my pampering, pleasing, servitude or suffering. Nothing holds the sense of satisfaction, a sense of worthiness than to know my Mistress is happy, and her life is better with me serving Her. My obligations in life now, are quite simple. Like most of us, my job is first and only true obligation, i dont have children or any dependants so my life is quite simple. I have had experience in this lifestyle i have served 2 Dommes in long term capacity although I still certainly consider myself a novice and will always do so especially when searching for a new potential Domme. Everyone is different and therefore everything I have learned in the past may be all wrong to my new Domme.