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	Hello fellow submissives! Yup, that's right, fellow subs. I am on here daily for the most part off and on for the past few years, only to find no one, NO ONE local that is either respectful or sane it seems. So here I am creating a profile on the other side looking for feedback from local subs. Have anyone of you found the one here? Mr. Right or even just Mr. Right Now? I am restricted to a blackberry and foruming is hard and let's face it, there isn't really a place on the forums to chat locally with other subs privately. I've edited my searches to see the other gals here and I have to say, pickings seem pretty slim for these guys and its appalling that they are so disrespectful and "forgetful". I've gotten countless cut and paste messages from several doms, have you? I've also gotten almost threatening messages from disgruntled older men that can't seem to accept I'm not interested and messages from married men! This disturbs me, does it disturb you? I am really losing faith here, I mean its been sooo long that I've been here with no results. Is it better for any of you? I recently rejected a man, I looked and wasn't interested. He saw me in his viewers tab and asked if I wanted to meet for play! Are they really so dense?! He got so angry when I told him if I'd been interested he actually told me my pics were gross, but yet he wanted to meet.... Is it just me? Do you guys suffer the same? I feel like somethings gotta change but I have no idea how to make it happen. And now that I'm making the first step in communicating do you like seeing to cock before you see the face? I do not! Does nice abs mean an excellent looking face? Not in my experience. I'm going to cut this off for now but I would love to hear from others, good or bad! Message me!

8/22/2011 8:08:10 AM

okay so I've finally decided to take the plunge and meet some people I've been talking to for a few weeks. Two to be exact.

The first went semi well, in the beginning. We went out to lunch in providence and at the end he said he was going to kiss me. It would have been fine except that he didn't just kiss me, he shoved his tongue inside my ear, then shoved it down my throat and bit my cheek all the while grinding against me. It creeped me out, as I was expecting a peck, maybe a little tongue and certainly not being bitten on my face! Understandably I got a little distant after that and he started stalking me here. Every single time I came online he was one of the "last views" on my account. Even after pointing it out to him he didn't stop doing it so finally a few days ago I blocked him.

The second went a lot better. It is almost as if collarme has redeemed itself. We went out to TGI fridays and had a wonderful time. we kissed at the end and he wasn't overbearing and over the line with it. Went out again 2 days later to see the rise of the planet of the apes, an excellent movie actually, I was shocked as I am not a fan of james franco. Had dinner at Unos beforehand, the chicken spinoccoli with penne was great also, tons of cheese, I very much recommend it. Messed around in his car a bit afterwards and made plans for the next night. This was last monday. We went out for ice cream and then started messing around in his car again and I'm still not sure how I feel, even after a week to consider it.

I am not religious or anything but I've always felt that my body is important. I've been sexually active for almost 11 years now and I've only been with 4 people. Yes, I have enjoyed my time with him but I am definitely not ready to just sleep with him. He offered to get a hotel room two or three times and I felt almost threatened by it, so I refused. I did give him a blow job however, since I am interested, I'm just not ready for sex yet. this apparently is very confusing to men as I have learned after talking to a male friend about it. Now supposedly, some men think that oral sex is "more intimate than sex". as a woman i have never felt that way, to me oral sex is kind of like, leading up to sex, right? I mean, I always felt like it let the guy know I was serious about becoming involved with him, that I am interested in pursuing things but not ready to just jump into bed. He kept asking how I could deny myself, and if what my friend said is true now I have a better idea of why. Alas, he is away on vacation right now so I haven't gotten to see or speak to him since last week.