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| I am submissive to Bits and I have only this year taken His collar. I was honored and wear it proudly so I ask for your respect on this if you choose to email me or befriend me please know that I am His but I do really love to make new friends. Thanks for your understanding.
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I am above all else a free spirited artist. i have paintings in several states that live with collectors who could feel part of my soul when they viewed my work. My art studio is sometimes a survival for me .. an escape from all the things that cloud minds and cause bodies to age faster than they normally would.
i wear my hair long .. my hair is sometimes my strength. It's hard to explain but it has been that way all my life. Yes i do have tattoo's and they are an expression of who i am .. where i come from... the Phoenix rising from the ashes among fragile flowers of roses, lilly's and a whip that turns into rose buds.
I wear my leather to protect me from the elements when i'm on my Harley and my Harley is as necessary to my life as the air i breath. i usually ride alone save those times that i crave companionship with like minds.
i am a strong submissive ... and by that i mean that when i am submissive i am that way because i choose to be .. not because someone forced me to be. It is a gift to my Dom .. i am His above all else.
i used to worry about the small things and how life can make one feel cheated and used .. but then i woke up one day and realized ... life is life ... nothing more and nothing less .. it is also a gift .. in itself and the best a person can do is revel in it everyday and march to your own path. When you march on so many beaten paths .. one can tend to be trampled.
i cherish the time i have with my Dom for He allows me to be me .. as sordid and eccentric as that might be at times.
i love listening to the chatter of birds just before i go to sleep because i work nights and early morning is when they are most alive ... and i can feel that life and carry it with me in my dreams. The simple things are sometimes the best.
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Submissive Creed
I will communicate with complete honesty my needs, desires,
limits, and experience. I realize that failing to do so will not only
prevent my Master and I from having the best experience
possible, but can also lead to physical and emotional harm. I will
not try to manipulate my Master. I will not push to make a scene
go the way I feel it should. I will keep an open mind about trying
things that I am not accustomed to or comfortable with and
expanding my limits. I will continue to grow as a submissive and
as a human being. I will accept the responsibility of discovering
what pleases my Master, and will do my best to fulfill His wishes
and desires. I will not allow myself to be harmed or abused, I
know that submissive does not equal "doormat".
I will be courteous and helpful to my fellow submissives, I will
share my knowledge and experiences with others in the hope
that they will learn from where I have been I will take the time
to help those new to the scene start out on the correct path.
I will be responsive to my Master, I will not try to hide what my
mind and body are feeling so that I may assist Him in His
responsibilities as my
Authority, I know
that Dominants are not telepathists, and will not expect my Master
to know thought or
feelings
which I do not share.
I will never think myself a "better" submissive because I choose to
submitt on a
different level than
another. I will not be boastful of experiences I have had as a sub. I
know that my
actions reflect
upon my Master, and will do my best to help others see him in a
positive way, I will not
intentionally embarress or displease my Master.
Above all, I will wear my title of submissive with honor, I will never
cause others to
think that being submissive means to be weak or sub~human.
I will take pride in who and what I am, and
will never show myself in a negative way.
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What
we do, what we think about this lifestyle is so hard to rationalize in
the minds of those that don't understand and don't want to understand.
How do we deal with those external to this lifestyle and this
community?
You only need to look at the tabloid trash and the
film industry to imagine most people’s views of what this lifestyle is
about and there is very little in the way of truth in regards to that
image presented. Though there is a small growth in the use of BDSM in
the advertising industry, it is still unacceptable and we really are
not doing that much to improve the perceptions of outsiders, but can we?
I
say this, though there are also a number of open minded people out
there and though they may not understand why you choose to do what you
do, they see you as their friend, their love, their workmate, whatever
relationship you have and they don't let this bother them, they may
show concern, but as long as they can see you are happy that is all
that really matters.
It is especially hard for those new to
the lifestyle as they have enough to deal with, with their own personal
feelings about what they are becoming and what they are involved in. To
have to deal with the external influences swell makes it much harder
emotionally.
I think most of us deal with it with
difficulty at some point; there are those who live the lifestyle who do
not tell a sole about who and what they are and have no necessity for
doing something like that.
Even those that live their
life without the closest of their friends and family knowing who they
are must have some emotional problem as a consequence of keeping such a
thing locked up inside of yourself.
There are things in
our lives, which should remain private, but do we have to keep private
that which we are? What are the effects on those that keep this side of
them a secret for there entire lives? Perhaps it just becomes second
nature to deceive those that know them well, or perhaps it causes guilt
and anxiety. Perhaps you learn to justify the hiding of the truth in
your own mind, you are protecting others, and you are living your life
the way you choose to. We all have different ways of internalizing this.
In
my humble opinion I feel in some ways it is better to hide the truth
from those that are close, but don't really need to know.
What
about those of us who have no choice or have a need to let those close
to us know about this side of our life? How do we deal with it, how do
we tell them, did they find out accidentally? What are their views on
it? So many things to think about and none of them easy.
Can we ignore the views of those around us; I think it would be difficult, especially from those we love.
For
example your married and you wish to explore this side of yourself, do
you explore it on your own or do you take the risk and tell him/her?
For those in that difficult place there is no easy answer, you know
your partners better than anyone else and he loves you dearly and will
accept you for whatever you are, though he may be shocked and
surprised. Though this would all depend upon how you introduced him/her
to this side of you and to what level you wanted or needed to be
involved in the D/s lifestyle.
Your family is another kettle
of fish, especially if you live under their roof or are very close to
them, then how do you deal with it?
Parents have hopes and
expectations for their children and they want to see them achieve the
best they can. For most parents the lifestyle being a part of their
daughters and sons lifestyle is not wanted or expected or even prepared
for. Parents know their daughters and sons will have sex some day, even
if they do not like the idea of it, but they are at least aware of it.
D/s and BDSM is not something, which is generally understood by the
majority of parents, older parents especially.
How do you deal
with your parents, especially as a young woman or young man and your
parents are still protective of you, perhaps over protective? They love
you and are well meaning, you don't want to hurt them, but you want to
live your life the way you want to. What can you do? I think from my
perspective you have to live your own life, but have to take in to
account your parents feelings about this, or what you parents feelings
about this would be, assuming they ever found out about it.
I
personally feel that your parents have no need to know, as others have
said to me, they have secrets swell that you are never let in to and
you have the right to your privacy also.
But what if they
found out accidentally. Do you give up this thing for them? Is it
brushed under the carpet and they just ignore its existence. Easier
for them to forget this side of you that they could not ever understand.
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It's hard to explain sometimes .. the drive inside the Artist.
If I try to "force" or "push" the Art .. it pushes back and I end up
sitting there staring into nothing. Many times I have been confused on
what to paint .. or why. I can do nothing but stare at the blank
canvas which I always paint black in the beginning. It seems like the
black whispers to me .. to my soul. I start to see things that want to
be there. I suppose if you look at it .. black is all colors .. so in
essence .. the colors start to seperate on an unconcious level.
Sometimes I see faces ... blocks ... swirls. When I start to "feel"
the colors I can then begin to paint. I pick up my palette knife
because that's usually how I start each piece. I only use the brush to
touch up and enhance. the knife seemingly guides itself across the
black ... bringing forth dimensions of color and texture. Sometimes I
mix things to bring the texture .. really anything that will leave an
interesting dimension against the black. I listen to different kinds
of music when I paint and this also helps the imagination come alive ..
it's a union of sorts .. the music and the Art. I move the knife and
colors listening to what the piece wishes to be ... I can "feel" the
balance. I can feel if it's unbalanced. The Abstract is a pattern of
thought. Very seldom do I ever have an idea to start out with. I
listen and let it flow through me. I feel like the messenger. I want
my work to promote a sort of spiritual peace..if one can feel that ..
then I have accomplished what the Art wants to be. I started studying
people like Jackson Pollock and did not understand why he did what he
did .. until I started feeling the paint. I know it must sound a bit
odd ... but this is how I paint. It is the greatest of escapes ... of
connecting with something higher than yourself. Connecting with
Peace.
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| Age: 36 |
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