Cathartic Ramblings

You wake up one day and realize that you're really a natural born cuckold. Days before you had no idea what that word meant and now it is all you think about.

How did this awakening happen? Simply and yet complicated really.. you learn love of your life is having multiple affairs and yet instead of being red with rage you are sexually excited and controlled in a way you never thought possible. She cannot embrace owning her boy and leaves. From that point forward I was left like a junkie chasing their first high. Yet realizing you can never get that same level of satsification - chasing the dragon as it were.

Dominate in daily dealings, desiring to be treated like a small dicked bitch by night. Working to deal with the fact that day to day persona prevents me from attracting the dominate woman. I simply attract subs (even if they don't know they're subs) all the while wishing to be owned.

Natural pleaser - raised to respect woman - full potential unrealized.

So I come out here to perhaps meet someone in the privacy of the online world that will understand the complex and mutally beneficial relationship of a cuckold and his cuckoldress only to find so so many guys putting up pics of online amature models - claiming to 'bi' and only wanted to talk to woman. Mind numbing really. Then there are the fake women who just want guys to buy them things ... tributes as you call it. Tribute for what? At the core of this power exchange community is a mutual respect where both parties get their needs met.

Is that what's missing in the online world? The mutal respect for each others roles?

Oh well, I guess I'll stick around and see what happens next.