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Im a very submissive, masochistic, bondage enthusiast and recovering cuckold seeking an aggressive, dominant, gay or bi top for adventures in serious feminization, bondage, domination, and control.
I recently got out of a long-term cuckolding relationship with a woman and have been struggling with getting back into the swing of relationships. Or rather my girlfriend lost all respect for me and dumped me for her other boyfriend. I hadnt planned on being a cuckold or in chastity, but it happened, it evolved and intensified over the course of a couple years, and has somewhat irreparably changed and damaged my view of myself as a man and my place in relationships and the world. I couldnt tell at the time whether my girlfriend kept pushing my humiliation level because she enjoyed it, because she wanted to test my loyalty, or because she was hoping I would eventually stand up for myself and say no to her. Maybe it was all of the above, but I never did say no and in the end regularly found myself dressed as a girl dutifully serving drinks to her and her boyfriend when hed come over.
Now its over and Ive been trying to get back into dating, but Im not the same as I was before. Quite frankly I find myself kind of terrified with women, feeling absolutely inadequate and unworthy. Being honest with myself, being in chastity and not having any chance to compete or fail as a lover ended up being reassuring to me, and it still is. When I said above Id find myself dressed as a girl dutifully serving drinks, lets face it, I agreed and didnt need to be asked again. Oddly, being dressed as a woman and being told by a man to go get him a drink while he was denying me my own girlfriend, despite being humiliating and ego-bruising, was completely natural, as if it was just the way it was supposed to be.
Ive thought about finding another cuckolding relationship with a woman, but frankly feel like damaged goods with women. And I cant get the feeling of fear and butterflies being dressed as a woman in front of another man out of my mind. Ive come to realize, maybe thats just where I belong, completely feminized, helpless to a man, and denied the possibility of being with a woman at all.
So, what Im looking for is a man into serious feminization, humiliation, and domination of other men for something long-term (exclusive on my part, but but obviously not necessarily yours). I am happy to do live-in or otherwise, but you need to be local. Im looking for someone who is absolutely controlling and whod like to not just feminize me on occasion, but who would savor transing my life such that my every non-working hour is spent feminized and waiting to be of service. Im looking to make a total commitment, and looking for someone who will be aggressive and creative in ensuring I give up every trace of manhood from my life - clothes, body, home, behavior, and anything else you can think of - and push it as far as possible and then further. I dont care if we live together, if you dont but spend endless time with me, or just show up randomly with the expectation I already am dressed up to your taste and ready to please. Whatever your style or wants.
A huge plus if youre into serious physical and or mental bondage and you play (or simply are) rough. Complete chastity is a must. I am an experienced and heavy masochist and would prefer someone whod ensure I live with lack of freedom, suffering, and frustration, both when were together and as well as when Im alone. You dont need to be nice or treat me with respect, just be willing to ensure I strive towards as much as I can being a perfect woman, or whore, or bimbo, your preference, and use me as you see fit. Finish the job of ruining my manhood and love life with women, and help me accept my new role for good.
I have no relationships to get in the way, have no major commitments to take up time, have a somewhat flexible schedule, and am ready to give my all. I have no experience being with men, but understand that as a feminized sissy it isnt and never will be about what I want. Im not particularly sissy-ish in demeanor, but am willing to learn to compose myself in a way that pleases. I am tall, thin, and clean up well as both a guy or a girl. While I am looking for a man, I am open to a couple, TV, or woman should your goals align.
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