My Queen is on her first date this evening with a dominant that she found through this site.  I'm anxious, she's traveled over an hour away, and will likely spend the nite.  She is his slut for the evening, and maybe beyond as she determines.  I am her servant. 

It is difficult to overcove the fear of loosing her.  I love her deeply and I don't want to loose her.  But, the idea of engaging in this behavior, that is where she becomes dominant in our relationship, and is allowed to seek the pleasures of other males, was, ultimately my idea.  She's always had a fantasy of being man handled, and I've not been good at that, it's not my nature.  The person she sees this evening could be that person for her, scratching an itch that I've been unable to reach.  I have conflicted feelings about that.  I want her to experience sexual fulfillment, to experience her fantasies, but I am afraid that she will become attracted, enamored and more attached to this person (or another) than I can accept or adjust to.  The risk is loosing her, and I don't want to have that experience.  she's a beautiful person, and Angel in the flesh.