Well now, what do I write. I joined here to get the attention of a member, I forgot to tell her that I was married, in fact it was quite sometime before I owned up but I did - here's the message to prove it "I've been to Kazakhstan, but that's not the reason I didn't phone you.
It's very simple. I'm married with 3 kids. I thought about it and decided it's better not to bullshit.
I'll still phone you if you want to meet up, maybe a brew, and I still think you're gorgeous.
Michael" ..... as you can see, I am honest but not wanting to put all my eggs back in the basket they call marriage, so I carried on with messages such as "Hi,Can't get you out of my head!!! Can I Phone and meet you still you?Michael X X X" ..... ehhh im good aren't I!. When she explained her concerns about talking to a married man I replied "Thanks for your e-mail, and I've spent the last 2 days thinking about what you wrote. Everything you write is undeniable logic, and I can't disagree with any of it, all of all things you have written the most concerning and likely is that we will really get on and want to see each other again.
I'm going to Kazakhstan again today for another week, and my position is that I can't stop thinking about, and of course it's in my head - it can't be anywhere else. I want you, but the question I ask you is it something you want to get involved in also?
Hopefully i'll have connection to the internet over there to keep in touch with you.Michael XXX" ....... as you can see im persistant if nothing else. I then sent her lots more messages keeping her interested, but then like the coward I am I disappeared without a word for a few months, that is until I got the urge again. So I bit my lip and went with "I'm sure your first reaction to getting a message from me will be F##K ##F. My sincerest apologies for just disappearing, especially after we'd managed to build up some trust. Well just in case you wondered - as you know I am married, and really wanted to come and see you, but I couldn't do it. It would not have worked for anybody.
Anyway, Im officially seperated now - and still want to meet you. Writeme back please and hope you can understand, even though I don't expect you not to be angry.
Michael XXX"....... well she replied in a civil manner so I sent lots more messages and text messages until she let me into her life.... she doesn't do this very often, shes not the most trusting of people due to some of the things that have happened to her in the past - but sod that eh - im set up for a leg over. It's taken me over 2 years to get where I am - I got what I wanted, made out to be a nice fella (im good at that), when I got home I sent text messages, quite sexual ones to be honest about how she made me hard thinking about having her again - then I decided to ignore the messages she sent and eventually got the guts to send her a message off here saying that I didnt know what I wanted apart from not wanting a relationship, of course I told her she was a nice girl etc etc but hey thats got to be said hasnt it.
Shes mad with me- any idea why? She accused me of being a coward for not speaking to her on the phone or face to face - does anyone else see after all this time why I owed her an explanation?