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What we think we know, may not always be what we actually know. I love exploring and trying new things. I love meeting new people. I love to learn, read and educate myself. I have been making it a priority to grow and keep growing. :)
I am a slave with "littles" (can explain more upon connection).
I find it amusing how we have these preconceived notions about self, then something happens and it shifts. At that point, I begin to question whether I really know myself at all.
Turns out, I didn't know myself. However, that is changing. Fast :) And for the better, still looking for friends to explore life and grow with.
I feel like sometimes I get so stuck in what was, I forget to be present and live what is.
I keep trying new things, pushing myself to grow and heal.
I love all that Poly has to offer. I love that we can have so many loves. I have recently have found a good understanding of what unconditional love is. To me it is: “Giving someone the gift of unconditional love doesn’t mean always agreeing, or accepting any behavior no matter how hurtful, or accepting substandard performance of tasks, or hiding our anger. It does mean being honest, working through differences, negotiating agreements, holding another accountable, and staying respectful in the process.”—came from a book called “Growing Up Again”. I always thought it meant, no conditions, but this fits way better.
I am also remembering if you can't communicate in Poly you most likely have no business being Poly. (Yes, that is judgmental on some level). However, in monogamy when you break it off you hurt one person and yourself, When you are poly, even if you think you are not hurting anyone else, you are hurting them all. After my last relationship, I didn't just leave the Owner, I left all of them. All of them had a place in my heart or my head. Makes the grieving process longer, and more intense. I do recommend if interested in Poly to do research on it before even trying. I am one of those people who is really hurts if I hurt another person. That is not a mark I wish to leave on this world. I am really looking for Poly people to discuss more philosophies and styles of Poly with.
One thing I have learned I really don’t like…labels. I guess I get why we do on some level, to like connect. I can say I’m kinky and there is an understanding of what that means. It gets to me when we define people by that and judge it. I like just being me. And then working towards accepting that is part of me.
Hmm, standard stuff:
== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Pet
100% Submissive
100% Slave
100% Masochist
100% Degradee
100% Rope bunny
100% Boy/Girl
100% Non-monogamist
97% Primal (Prey)
97% Ageplayer
66% Experimentalist
53% Exhibitionist
43% Voyeur
36% Brat
2% Vanilla
1% Primal (Hunter)
0% Rigger
0% Daddy/Mommy
0% Dominant
0% Degrader
0% Owner
0% Master/Mistress
0% Sadist
0% Switch
://bdsmtest.org/r/7084673
5 Love Languages
11 Words of Affirmation
9 Quality Time
6 Physical Touch
4 Acts of Service
0 Receiving Gifts
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