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I am a submissive female, with no experience in BDSM, although I have had the strong desire for many years. I am seeking a Dominant male, with experience, to introduce me into the lifestyle eventually on a real time basis. I am NOT looking for a married man or one who has multiple submissives. It must be an exclusive relationship. although i am submissive,i am not looking for a Dom to financially support me. it is the lifestyle aspect i am seeking.
7/15/2009 10:02:49 PM
~sighs with complete exasperation~ okay, here is a case in point to my earlier journal. i had a "dom" message me and asked me to add him to my messenger so we could talk. (notice i am not capping Dom and Him b/c he doesn't deserve the recognition) so i did because i am all about learning. it didn't mean come onto my messenger and act like a jackass. he came onto my messenger. i asked him if he practiced real time because i am interested in knowing if the people i talk to (Doms and subs alike) if they get to practice rt. he said "yes and i will teach you and we will start out phone and go to real time". okay hold on there buddy because who in the fuck said i wanted you to be my Master/Dom? so i said isn't that a little bit presumptious? and he said no, because i know what i want and blah blah blah. and i said well i dont know you so why would you assume i wanted to be your submissive? and he said a dom knows what he wants and goes after it. and i said a true dom respects the wishes of the submissive, they figure out if they want the same thing out of the relationship and go from there. and he said no, all part of being a dom is going after what you want and taking it. WTFE. again, not an expert, and a novice at real time BDSM but even i know that is not how it works. i told him he was a poser which pissed him the hell off. so L/ladies and G/gentleman, i have learned my lesson. do not give anyone Y/your messenger or anything else until they have proven to be what they are posing to be. he said i wasn't allowed to have attitude with a Dom and that i wasn't serious. well i am when you aren't a Dom, i can pull all the attitude i want because you are fucking with who i am. loser ass.
7/15/2009 8:05:49 PM

~sighing~ why is it that when You go into the chatrooms, every "wannabe" Dom jumps at You with requests to private chat and then has the audacity to ask me what i am wearing. okay, i am not an expert in this lifestyle as of yet, but i have been learing for over ten years . and i have been in the company of some Doms enough to know that a true Dom is not going to jump on You and the first thing They ask is what you are wearing. i don't understand why there are people who invade these rooms and pretend to be S/someone they are not. which leaves the P/people who are true to the lifestyle frustrated because W/we have to weed through so many people to find someone who is being true and honest. there are so many other types of rooms for random cybering where one can roleplay. why can't they just go to those sites and leave U/us be so that we can spend the time with P/people who are being true and honest about who they are. for some of U/us who come here to meet P/people of the same interest because this is all W/we have, the only link to something we yearn for, it can be very very tiresome. so to the fakers, the posers, the wannabes, please, please (and i am asking nicely) don't try to mindfuck those of U/us who are here and are true to the lifestyle. go to chatropolis where there are many rooms where you can play out your fantasies. (now i'm not being so nice) to the stupid jackass who jumped on me, calling me His slut, His bitch in chat, demanding i tell him what i am wearing, don't do it again. i will not hesitate to post your user name so that E/everyone else knows to avoid you.

7/15/2009 7:35:56 PM
i am hoping i have finally come to the end of my journey in finding myself and my place in this lifestyle. and then a new journey will begin as i finally begin to live the lifestyle. the road will be long and full of  trial and error, but i am sure every moment will be worth it in the end when i can finally fully submit to One.
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