What is ?

I have been in both "vanilla" and "fetish" relationships in the past. I have never been in a '24/7' lifestyle and I have no idea if I ever will be. I've noticed as I have gotten older that I gravitate more towards certain proclivities and that I prefer to get it out in the open sooner rather than later - part of why I joined this particular site.

I think that our fetishes teach us something; that they allow us to access some part of our being that we normally do not access. I find it no particular surprise that, statistically, men and women who find themselves in ultra-high power positions often find themselves drawn to being submissive in the bedroom and vice versa. We are acting out our subconscious desires to balance ourselves; it is human nature to seek balance.

This always makes me wonder what I am looking for. As cliche as it is, part of me is just seeking what a lot of people are seeking (vanilla or not) - my best friend. Part of me is seeking to explore, without normal boundaries, the depths of my own soul and the soul of someone else.

Personally, I am attracted to a woman in latex. I have been since I can remember. Some of my girlfriends over the years have been completely shut down to it and I move on with my life and enjoy our relationship. Some have been open and it has been amazing. I find the control I get when a woman feels that second skin, with every touch multiplied, to be out of this world. Turning on a woman so she can hardly control herself is probably closer to my real fetish than latex or 'dom/sub'.

Anyways, thoughts for a momement.