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Hi I'm Jessica.
Currently working, living in Hollywood.
I was born and raised in tel aviv, Israel.
I am fluent hebrew and although
I donot follow the Jewish religon anymore,
I am Jewish blood.
Oh... and I'm sort of a huge work-o-holic.
Full Time Actress
Full Time Model
& Full Time Fashion Designer.
I'm in Los Angeles and WILDY known
through the ages 14 to 24 crowd.
I WILL NOT SEND YOU PICTURES
OF MYSELF UNLESS WERE GOING SOMEWHERE WHICH I WOULDN'T KNOW UNTIL LATER ON....
Socialite, most definently. I'm often out
on the town, partying, having fun, living life.
But then theres the nights I love to be home
and just drink champaign & eat cake in
my underwear and fall asleep to a movie &
cuddle with my Hello Kitty stuffed animal:)
I love to live life on the edge. I refuse to
EVER live knowing what I will be doing the
next day. That's awful, & I sincerley feel
bad for any person who has to live their life
that way.
While being a little girl some times
(Hello Kitty, Winnie The Pooh, etc.)
I'm 98% adult & I'm very mature for being 18.
I've been around the block several times.
I've lived my life, I've gone through things
that you're not supposed to until your at least
40 years old, & I haven't even lived half my life yet.
I'm a very strong believer in fate & destiny.
I think what was meant to be, was meant to be,
and for a reason. If I die tomorrow, I was meant
to die tomorrow. & I can at least reflect
back on my life and know I experienced
success, love, life & all that good stuff.
If god wants me closer to him,
how can I fight it?
I've always been interested in the s&m,
I'm no expert but I've done it a few times,
& I like the feeling of being under control.
Powerless. Sexually, I mean of course.
But I don't like to have my life ran by someone.
I'm a big girl, I can run my own life.
But I like being a "sex slave" so to speak.
I'm not into phone sex.
I wont call you. Sorry.
I have a webcam but I won't go on unless
I know you. Giving you my Screen name
is like giving you my phone number,
MEANING: I don't just give it out,
I have to have talked to you and liked you.
I have a creative, smart, bold mind:
So not only am I a good sexual experience,
physically or not, But I am a good conversation. I know how to listen.
I love to make friends & I'm very easy going,
extremley easy to get along with.
But I am stubborn, & if your going to be my
master, you have to be very stern and powerful, because I, as an individual am
confided with powers of all sorts.
So my master has to know how to abuse me,
& break me in right otherwise I won't do shit.
Currently seeking female
dominents/mistress'.
I've been hurt my men too much too recently,
& I need a break from boys right now. <3
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Long time no update! I've been really busy and as of recently getting into the "drug scene" my life has been spirling out of control; and due to my stress all that I've really been friends with is a bottle of vodka and too many cigs. Running through a love-maze, being pushed and hit left and right, different men, same shit. If this ever got out into the real world... everything I worked for would be dust.
If it makes any sense what so ever; I like being dominated. You know, I like being tortured and slapped but sexually... when a man enters my life and hits me in the face without an ounce of love in his body for me... it's a different story. I'm still running and suffering through this maze, being lied and betrayed too; abused mainly. And its like you see just the happiest girl with such anx and sadness and darkness in her heart. It's like every man that enters my life walks away with a piece of me. You'd think by now, I wouldn't be able to feel anything anymore. But I'm just falling deeper and deeper into a black hole. The one guy I was in love with... gone. I think about him every day, every second, every fucking moment I am awake or asleep; hoping he fucking suffers in life and his new girl does exactly what he did to me and I hope he fails at everything he tries and simply stays as a D-list piece of shit. And at the same time I wish I could hold him and just cry until theres nothing left to cry out.
I'm with a new boyfriend who I think just passed a fucking STD unto me. And if he did that is so fucked up. Why wouldn't he tell me?! This is my life, I am so, I am so so so fucking young if he does this to me, I will make sure he doesn't have a fucking dick anymore. 5"2 90lb girl or not, I will curb stomp that mother fucker.
Everything is shit right now. Even the thought of thinking I might have an STD at age 18, gives me a stomach ache.
I am so lost in life.
-Jess
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I believe the drunk psychopath's last words to me, were:
"YOU STOLE HIM FROM ME YOU FUCKED HIM YOU SLUT...YOU SLUT....YOU SLUT."
Although thats blantly such an intelligent combination of words... This random girl and her bestfriends *minions* want to have me dead for going out with Drunk Psychopath's EXX boyfriend. He didn't cheat on her, they were over. He was OPEN and SINGLE TERRITORY. Yet, drunk psychopath will stop at no extent to furtherly attempt to ruin my reputation and "Stomp my ass", even though I stomped her ass into the curb at the Mansion party a few weeks ago. I don't get girls =/
I can never win. I went out with the guy for like 2 days before I called it over because he had no respect for me. Blah I'm alone again and having the Italian Mafia's little girls on my ass. And I'll tell you, The guy was NOT worth this. He really wasn't.
& sorry I haven't been on, I just learned I have a heart condition, I'm an "alcoholic", My fanbase doesn't like my new look, My clothing line opening is being delayed blah askfnaksnfs
I'm just so anx'ed out :[ I need a drink! (Alcoholic, hahha, who knew?)
Don't forget about meee.
-Jess
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Gah. I'm over it.
Done with this men-bullshit.
Swear, I'm like, one step closer
to just giving up completley on men.
Yada yada yada "THERES THE RIGHT ONE OUT THERE"
Well, god damn, if I was meant to have him
I'd have him already I don't need this bullshittt.
=/
So its like option A is I go lesbian (baha) and B is that I just stay out of any relationship or somewhat-relationship for a very, very long time.
Idk yet.
-J
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He lives to hurt me. I can almost swear it. The reason for me having problems with my (ex) boyfriend, to begin with, was him. We've been TOGETHER but not really TOGETHER, but together. He tells me how in love he is with me. Him and his ridiculous charm. "Your dripping with beauty. Your eyes are filled with it. Your mind is beautiful." I don't know. I'm "famous" so its not that often i have some one, who honestly tells me that my MIND IS BEAUTIFUL. His words are just so gorgeous, so. =/ Reading his page just beign bored and nosey, i see hes telling 2395237 girls, that hes going on a tour? with his friends band? across america? Umm yeah, when was he going to tell his girl that? I'd seriously like to know. Gonna finally return my call in a couple weeks and just be like "Heyyy ****!" and i'd be like "Heyyy come over you disappeared." and he'd say something like "Oh i forgot to tell you, errr... im in colorado!" or something i dont fucking know, but thats what i'd imagine would happen. Finally fed up on trying to contact him, I left him a line "Okay you know what? I'm done. I'm done with you. Call me when you gain respect for me and some maturity." not even 4 mintues fucking later, my cellphone rings. "I've gained some maturity."
When I finally tell him SCREW YOU, I'M DONE, he comes back. Yet, I can't jsut let an obvious playing asshole, walk out on me. He's not my boyfriend. He is but isn't. I don't fucking know. I won't let this piece of broke shit asshole nobody walk out on me. I don't know why. He brainwashed me =/
I don't know what to do.
- Jess
UPDATE: He just called 2 minutes ago. He canceled our plans for tomorrow. I'm hurt. The only word I feel is suitable, is "HURT". Hurt. I feel like crying but unfortunantly my heart is too hardheaded, too unwilling, and too strong for that.
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Me and my boyfriend broke up a couple weeks ago, and here I am again and once again saying something is missing. Well, in bed, we only went at it when we were drunk =[ but I remember it, he had me tied to his bed railings with like a belt? or something, my hands-over-head, and we were screwing, and i dont know why, but I kept asking him to hit me haha and he did, it was like my ass and I said higher so he just goes KAPOW!!! into my face and while I actually liked it..... I'm glad I was drunk enough not to feel it hahaaa whatever to him though Jessica deserves the best ^_^ <3 |
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So, my boyfriend & I got really really drunk after a movie premeire on Saturday: so we get to his house and we had friends with us. Him and the boys go out to get us food and me and Rachel stay in to drink. She gets the idea to do a little something similar to room raiders to my boyfriend's room-- we do it, and found porn (of course) and us being reallyyy drunk we put it on & the boys came back and we all just decided to watch it for shits... my boyfriend was over the top smashed and we started messing around during the porn, and on the porno a bondage scene came on and my boyfriend goes, "Mmm thats so hot..." I was "Are you into bondage ?" and hes like "Yes."
I was just like WOW really? I'm shocked, he's a wildly known comedian in LA so I'm just really surprised, & we had amaazing sex that night (as you can imagine) but I wish he'd act during sex (dominant) like he would in real life... But I'm still shocked haha.
-Jessica
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I just got a new boyfriend last week... hence I haven't been on much along with work & my new clothing line *yay*. He's cute and treats me like a princess but he doesn't understand that I like being UNDER control not IN CONTROL (sexually speaking) He's such a teddybear he wouldn't slap me up during sex or any thing (good, bad or other wise i don't know.) He's suuch a doll but I still feel like i'm missing what my body/soul is craving.... -Jessica
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