good morning Master! Feeling a bit better today, i hope it stays that way.....lol. took some pics for Master last night and i really hope he likes them (still feeling a little insecure about how i look). anyway no more pity parties for me i will just be me and the rest of the world be damed! i have only been speaking with Master a little over a week but it's funny how i look forward to talking to him during the day and miss him when we don't get to talk, i look forward to actually meeting him and seeing what he is like in person. He seems to be  what i'm looking for and i hope i am what he seeks. i know that a true M/s relationship is about more than what happens in the bedroom and i want it all i wish to know all his likes and dislikes and to fill all his needs but i will admit i have been thinking alot lately about the sexual part of things wanting to feel strong hands on my body bending me to his will teaching me what he likes showing me how to please him it makes my body ache with wanting  and i cant wait for that ache to be taken care of. anyway time for me to wrap this up ...... im off work today and will need to get some stuff done so until tomorrow .......................... slave bella

hello Master hope you are doing well i've missed you today. i am feeling kind of down today :( the world looks at women and expects them to look and be a certain way and i just dont fit that image. i am not your perfect size 8,in fact i'm a plus size girl, and i don't want to go conquer the world all i want is to have a Master who's needs i can take care of and who will care for me. Is that to much to ask? I am tired of being told i am to fat by people who are suppose to care about me i am tired of always being so damn proper! i just want to be who i am, and who i am is a slave who knows how to take care of her Master and who looks good no matter what size she is (and i'm not that big by the way). anyway now that i am done my i hope the rest of the day goes well. i will keep you posted on my decissions that i need to make 

good morning Master! i hope you had a good night last night.  i am a little late getting started this morning my computers at the house were acting up. i really am not sure what i want to say today yesterday i was a little on edge as the day went on i feel better today but am still struggling with some of the same issues. wanting to meet with Master and see how we fit together........ wanting to see if he truely is how he seems when we talk and hoping he is.  i will write more after i get my thoughts together a little bit more