I have been insensitive.  I was unavailable when a friend needed me.  she is angry, and understandably so.  She has lost faith in me and her patience as well.  It could have been so wonderful.  I hope I am given the chance to atone.  I make myself vailable physically and mentally, to be punished and use for Her pleasure.  I only hope I get the chance...

Patiently (outwardly at least) awaiting the next step,wherever it takes me....

Funny.  The more I stop chasing the more what I want seems to find me.  Last journal entry seems appropriate....

Don't push the river, it flows by itself.......

This warm weather is making me frisky!  Beach is awesome on warm, windless days lately.......anyone care to walk it with me?

just got, stood up twice in one day!  lol  One called first (truly a Lady) and the other seems to have poofed away!  And, I had a wonderful conversation with a remarkable woman......thank you Mistress.

I absolutely crave an otk to tears at this point.......

I think a submissive Lady would make a great giver of a disciplinary spanking to a submissive guy.

Turns out Irene is a switch!  Pretty docile now....

Hopefully Irene will be a gentle Domme as she passes over my house this evening!

Once again, POF is providing a woman who is interested in exploring a side she had never considered, much to my delight.  She is sensual and a real creative individual, willing to explore, to please, and be pleased in return.  We are so new but so eager.  Perhaps we will seek guidance as a couple as our exploration evolves....

What irony.  I have had more luck getting vanilla ladies from POF interested in BDSM than getting an actual lady from here to spank me.  Go figure.....

To all my RN LPN friends-  I find I nee a spanking PRN!