10/14/2009 12:45:41 AM: Hi again...I got away from CM for a while and I am back. I hope I can find the someone I am looking for...the smart, independent, adventurous woman who has done her duty for her family and is ready for the next set of adventures life offers. I believe in adventure...I believe in life itself, and love, and the unique opportunity this life has for the deepest spiritual connection...  

1/4/2009 12:05:56 PM: I have thought a lot about the spiritual place in D/s and BDSM. I know that sounds a little strange, but to me...I really must have a deep connection on some level with the other person for this to work. First of course there must be a great deal of trust...on both sides. Maybe the D/s relationship is not the participants primary (for social of legal reasons or whatever). But for me at least, I really need a strong connection of some kind with my partner. I want to know her through my fingers and mouth and the way she moves and responds the way we move together in the spell and the dance.

1/1/2009 3:16:39 PM: Hey Everybody...Happy New Year. 2008 was for the most part not the best year for me. Here's hoping 2009 is much more to each of our liking, whatever that is. Cheers! 

12/31/2008 2:11:07 PM: This is soooo effing hard. It's so great to get hooked up with somebody and it's all fun and games until somebody gets hurt, and I am very very hurt. And what's worse is I did a lot of it to myself (I'll tell privately to persons who are interested). Oh the dark thoughts...and ohhhh, how I want to "act out" (any takers? w.e.g.)...crap this hurts. 

12/26/2008 1:40:05 PM: Yeah...you're right, if you've been to my page here before...I AM jumping around a lot. The thing is...I am just getting out of a relationship I really liked and I'm just a little raw. I have always found the most understanding people in the  BDSM community...maybe because we are different to the rest of society and have a sort of understanding that a lot of more mainstream folks don't. So right now I think i better stick to meeting you all...getting to know this new community (at least I hope that's what it is...community, that is).