3/1/2012 7:31:33 PM: I would say I am somewhat a spiritual person. I believe in a higher power yes. But this entry is not about that.   I gave up all things sexual for Lent. This includes-Sex, masturbation, and play sessions. It has almost been a little over a week and well frankly there are way to many temptations around to not think of dirty thoughts. Last night I had these erotic dreams. I don't remember what they were about just that they were very sexual and intense. I still have almost another month to continue this 'abstinence.' Everyone I tell in community are like WHY did you give it up that's crazy. It's to prove to myself really. And yes while it is hard, sometimes we have to make tough choices in life to have a rewarding outcome.    So by the time Easter comes around I am sure I will be a horny mess, But it is a good thing, and DAMN will the sex be amazing when I can finally do it again!!   This is all. Good night Kinky world!

7/6/2011 10:21:49 AM: This 'lifestyle' is starting to become frustrating. Reason one is because you think you have friends in the community and then they stab you in the back.  Reason 2. Me being a 22 year old submissive I believe it is hard to find someone worth meeting.  Yes I am going to be picky about whom I want to get to know. I don't think that is such a bad thing.   I have play partners yes, but I want more. I want someone whom I can cuddle with, tell my secrets to, laugh with and YES someone whom I can become serious with and learn from.  But it is so hard. I am active in the Chicago scene, but most of those people That I know are either taken, or well out of my age range. I am starting to get frustrated with the scene, and half tempted to go back to being  vanilla to find someone.    I am done rambling for today. Just needed to get my thoughts out there.   Best of luck to everyone.

4/13/2010 8:29:56 AM:   Have you ever had a craving for just a good make-out session? Or just someone to snuggle in bed with.  Yes I am going to rant on about 'GIRLIE" things..I see all of my good friends finding someone, and it still seems like I can not find anyone. I have tried so hard.  I have been hurt by people that I thought I trusted the most. Now I dont know who to trust anymore. I honestly dont know what to do about my "relationship status" do I give up. Keep looking? Its a tough world I know.Just wanted to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading.

10/13/2009 7:45:45 PM: It has been a very tough year for me. I lost someone very close to me, and it was in the media! The 1 year mark is coming up this week. I have had a bit of a tough week yes. I was just thinking today that I wish I had someone that I could snuggle up with and just let loose and have a good cry fest! I usally don't cry in front of people, but I want to find that person that I can be vulnrable with!  Done babbling for this week!!Sarah

9/28/2009 7:52:47 PM: Social life.. I need one! My last saturday nigh consisted of me going over to my parents house and going to bed. Yes I have two room mates, but they go out and seems like they never invite me. I guess It would help if I had more friends, But I honestly dont! Everyone says oh things will change when I turn 21..But why do I have to wait until  Decemeber for things to change? Are friends really that hard to come by? Any Ideas?Sarah