The 'Nilla side: Despite all the responsibility of running my own business I'm still a left-brained musician at heart. I hate waking up early, I think abstractly and never forget that happiness and fulfillment are life's ultimate goals. Everything else is a means to that end. Fewer hours are sacrificed to the gym than once were but I still eat a healthy diet and squeeze in fitness at every opportunity. I'm very open-minded about just about anything involving consenting adults and live by a strict but simple moral code...don't do harm to other people. Everything else goes. When faced with a new adventure, opportunity or challenge, I always start at "yes, let's do it". I'm either going to discover a new love or I'll learn something about myself and grow. Maybe both. I've breathed enough air on this earth to have a very clear idea of what catches my eye and heart and fulfills my needs and I stopped settling long ago. Lastly, I never waste energy on matters outside of my control but never relinquish responsibility for those within.
The Kink Side:
It is both my nature and my passion to exercise control over you as my slave in a variety of kinky, passionate, degrading ways. The mind must always submit first, and that starts with trust which is established through complete honesty and transparency on both both of our parts. This is very difficult for most as we are conditioned since youth to build walls of expectation, fear and judgement. Breaking that wall down creates a vulnerability that is foreign and frightening. That is where it is my job to let you know that even with your innermost thoughts, emotions, desires and perversions exposed, you are safe and protected from judgement and resentment and are not only accepted for the person you truly are but valued. Once I've revealed the core of my being, you as my slave will know that I am honest, forthright, sturdy, direct, protective, authentic and genuine in my desire to see you blossom under my care and control into the devout slave you are capable of being. You will also learn from the knowledge I've gained in over eight years in this lifestyle and the creativity and passion from which my will is enacted.
Once your mind has not only allowed but compelled you to give herself to me completely, I begin my control of your service to me, your body and actions. I control your look, transforming you into a bimbo barbie doll so that you are always aesthetically pleasing to me. I will provide the resources, encouragement and guidance you need to achieve this look. It is not enough merely to achieve the bimbo barbie look, but to be embody it and be proud of your beauty as seen through my eyes. You would never be allowed to forget what it feels like to be gazed upon as the most beautiful and desired creature on the planet.
You can expect to perform, nasty, degrading actions for my amusement. You will not like to do these things at first. You may even cry a bit. But as your training progresses the way in which you view these acts will change as you see them please me which in turn gives you the happiness and fulfillment you desire. You will come to a point where you live to hear the words "good girl" and would do anything my heart desires to hear them once more.
I also will be holding you responible for maintaining our home while I work and provide for us. I expect you to always be available to use as I see fit whether it be an impromptu spanking, a good rough throat fucking, three holed cum dumpster or as my personal masseuss. I also frequently indulge in heavy degradation, humiliation, and rough/forceful/sex. I am well versed in safe and proper technique for spanking, choking, hair pulling, restraints and various other BDSM activities.
In return for your devoted service to me, you as my slave can expect to be selflessly loved, cherished, nurtured, protected and provided for for life. This is an extreme lifestyle and the costs are high. We must both give completely of ourselves. But like anything else in life, the things that hold the most value also have the highest cost.
My last slave and I ended our four year marriage late last year. It's a long story but she suffered from some mental illnesses and in the end we decided she would have a better chance to regain her mental health and happiness if she was not engaged in BDSM. We were both ok with how it ended and have a mutual respect for each other. That was my second long term M/s relationship and neither ended because of problems with the relationship. In that I consider them as having been successful. I know how to make these kinds of relationships work in real life, not just fantasy-land.
Additionally, I know this is the internet but if you don't know how to show a basic level of common courtesy that should be shown to nearly all fellow human beings then don't bother speaking to me. In this case I would also suggest rethinking you're participation on an adult site until you attain the appropriate level of maturity.