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wyckid
| Pan Female, 52, Macon, Georgia
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1117 Due to my health, I am no longer actively looking. I just spent another 6 weeks in the hospital and had numerous surgeries.
Friends are always welcome
*EDIT 72717* the previous rl Master, with whom I lived for 12 yrs, and I are trying to work things back out. Its tough. There are some brutally honest conversations happening that should have happened long ago. But, as always, the kink between us is fricking awesome.
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817. Well, that didnt work. Guess Im back to cautiously looking for a LOCAL sadistic, charming, intelligent Dom.
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Warning my first picture is old. The second is fairly recent, but without any makeup, so beware ) My pictures didnt transfer over, and I HATE having my picture taken. When I get a decent updated picture, Ill post it )
In the meantime, Im trying to figure out what I want. I should rephrase.. I know what I want. Im just not sure how to make it happen with some physical issues I have. I want play I can physically handle, but deep enough to offer some real relaxation. Now having said that, physical play without the emotional bond does nothing for me. I need to submit mentally before the physical is fun. In fact, a good Ds session is worth more than a play session.
One more thing I should point out. Im disabled. I walk, some. I can kneel if you dont mind what I look like getting there. And youd have to help me up. I cook and clean and manage daily life. But if youre looking for flexible Barbie to work out with, Im definitely not the one )
Ok, and to clear things up LOCAL LOCAL LOCAL. Not lets talk and maybe one day one of us can move. Not well visit from across the country once in a while. LOCAL.
And as of 91517, I cant meet anyone for a while. I had a spider bite on my leg, which turned into cellulitis, sepsis, and a blood clot. Thats all getting better, slowly, but I dont go out in public right now because 1. It hurts! and 2. I cant expose myself to any other of infection.
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6/30/2022 4:06:17 PM: Wow.. it's been forever since I posted here. Im not even sure when journaling opened back up. Last weekend was 1 year since my husband/ex Master passed away. It's been a journey of refinding myself, of re discovering independence and my own abilities to take care of 'honey do' jobs around the house, and of learning to put myself first. I've gone back to favorite recipes I hadn't made in years because he didnt like them, I've thrown out the foods I never liked but had because he liked them. I've even learned to install a doggie door and a keyless entry by myself:)
And I've gone through several cycles of being mad and sad, and mad and sad again. I didn't like the man he became, but I will always treasure the many years with the man he used to be. And while it's been a bumpy road, I like this version of me that has come out of it all. A me that wouldn't exist without the strength he gave me for years.
Be well wherever your soul rests, Daniels.
9/23/2017 1:13:07 AM: So I'm married. Not something I mention often. He was my Master at one point, and then decided to be sub instead. Which kind of put the end to any relationship between us as I'm NOT Domme.
We had an agreement that as long as things are up front and honest, we each have the right to fill our own needs however we choose.
Funny, I didn't think that meant lying and hiding while trying to find a Domme WHILE I was in the hospital.
9/19/2017 7:54:29 AM: Jiggity jiggity jig!!
Heading home from the hospital! Still can't walk yet and in lots of pain, but way better than it was.
9/17/2017 6:28:53 PM: I'm going to change my nick to insanity: doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results
9/17/2017 2:52:32 PM: Ok,I'm grumpy as hell today. The infection in my leg, originally from a spider bite, has turned into cellulitis. And it hurts. I'm in the hospital on heavy IV antibiotics and pain meds.
Point being.. I recognize I'm grumpy. But why does it seem like the idiots are multiplying lately? And idiots may be too strong of a word. But I seem to be attracting every gamer, weekend warrior, totally inexperienced but thinks he is Dom because he says so, and liar out there. As sub, I hate to say don't msg me if...
But don't message me if you're not local, unless you just want to talk, and have something interesting or funny to say. Don't message me expecting more than friendship if you have an SO that doesn't know about your BDSM interests and forays. Don't message me if you're not willing to be 100% honest, with me and others. Don't message me if you think you've earned being called 'Sir' or 'Master' simply because you texted. And last (for now), don't text me if you think your dick or your toy bag are the most important things you have to offer a partner.
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