Raven began as a feminine, brassy, confident, dominant alter ego to Jamie who is a much more vulnerable and submissive girl.  I'm not really transgendered in that I do not feel I am female.  I do have a sort gender dysphoria in that I don't feel I am male either.  I suppose that because I have a male body and have lived as a male, I would say I feel mayber 55/45 male/female.

   While I had yearnings to dress my whole life, it wasn't until I was living alone and had gotten into D/s I felt able to explore the feminine part of myself.  In doing so I met people who were supportive and helpful.  For a few years I even had a cadre of friends to dress up and go out with.

   As I became more confident with both expressing my female side and in D/s, well there was just something about dressing up in thigh high boots, leather, gloves and etc that made me feel dominant. However, I always preferred to be submissive and always hoped to belong to a Mistress.

   I have been in several D/s relationships, but all with Mistresses who wanted male me.  They were all understanding of my male/femaleness, but weren't interested in having a femme boy/girl.

   Although I had some trans-friends, after a few years of wanting a relationship and not finding one, the ritual of dressing up, being pretty and etc was getting depressing and with that, along with some other things that were going on in my personal life, for the most part I quit dressing.

    I still have the feelings and interest and am still interest in a relationship with someone who accepts and likes Raven/Jamie.  I love D/s and bdsm and love fetish, boots, leather, latex, gloves and especially big wigs.  For me there is something about big, long hair that says "girl."

I am looking to be a Mistress's slave and I mean slave, not sub that is what I want more than anything.  Failing that, I want a slave, and I don't mean a sub.