6/28/2010 11:20:57 PM: Sighs........................................

6/22/2010 8:49:16 AM: i have recieved many mails both good, bad and ugly! i would just like to mention that many people comment after reading my journal regarding to 'bad experiences' i've had on here.....i wouldn't exactly say they have been bad, just a learning curve and only made me more wary of people... i have never been naive enough to 'fall for' 'submit' 'surrender' 'give the gift of submission' to anybody that i don't have full proof of whom they say they are...i don't 'submit' to any who just leave me a message telling me they wish to own me *chuckles* It takes time, understanding, a deep connection, lots of communication before i would even think about it..to me it is a big thing and a huge honour to become owned...not to be taken lightly. nor would i ever dream of pleading, begging or even ask if One would own me when i haven't even got to know them....am i old fashioned? is that not how it works these days?...has the lifestyle turned into some speed date affair?!I have been in this for many years..almost 20 to be exact, trained in the 'old guard', 'old school' way...and i live with those ethics, morals, protocols and etiquette today. A Friend mentioned today in fact, my profile could appear to be a challenge for some....which made me think and start to ponder, i certainly don't rant here to attract any unwanteds... i will quote Their wording... "It is not you who is the challenge, it is  those who find dominance a challenge, So it is not you, who is the challenge angel, only the uneducated"i liked that!! ........ (thank You)so these are my thoughts for today...no rants...*smiles*   just thoughts as i ponder..........and say thank You to those who have wished me well, but don't be sorry for bad experiences....for any that i have had, have simply made me into who and what i am today ;) and to thank all my lovely Ffriends..old and new for just...being Yyou... xx

2/1/2010 12:03:49 PM: It's so sad, crap and pathetic that all i seem to read on this site is about the fakes.. and i sooo didn't want to jump on the band wagon, though i have been itching to for some time, but it really is so fucking frustrating..to start talking to somebody but the whole time that little voice is saying...'are you a man...are you really truly what it says on the tin?.'why is it that way?? are these men soo sad, lonely, disatisfied with what they really are and just have to play being a woman?...trust me guys, it ain't that great in reality..bet you would soon revert back to being your manly testosteroned self when PMT and cramps and losing pints of blood a day whacked you every month...or is it just that you try to get us into that nice, happy, warm fuzzy place of 'trust', evading all questions of proof of identity, then 'order' us to put our webcams on and just use us as a little entertainment and wank fodder?..thankfully, i have been around these realms long enough to eeek you guys out, for you WILL fuck up at some stage, earlier than later and tell us to wear that nice silky blouse and floaty skirt and hold ups with heels..ok who the hell would put that outfit together...some guy having a midlife crisis who is stuck in the 80's methinks... at least TRY and get into a womans head! But the sad thing about all this is, are the newbies, the people just coming into the lifestyle, yearning to learn and understand and ask questions, when idiotic wannabe Doms see their vunerability and use, dissalude and abuse these people...i don't confess to know everything and those that do, your a fool... *breathes*  ok i feel somewhat better now..just wish there was a name and shame section here....and once outed they couldn't just laugh and the very next day come floating back with a new handle and profile...

1/30/2010 7:09:54 AM: i just have to say, as respectfully as i can muster, i will not surrender to these silly 'on your knees bitch and pleasure me'...'bend over and open up'...requests, or 'orders', i am not here for a quick cyber fuck, this is a lifestyle, not a quick fix kinky sex cyber session...ok..to some it is, so please, scroll onto the next sub, cos i'm afraid this one would at least like to 'know' who the hell you are first...